Hello everyone.
So when i was around 4 years old my parents got divorced. And on the court was decided that I should live with my dad because my mum was incapable of
taking care of me. But since he was in the army I was living with my mum and grandma at that time. And I remember that it was kinda weird since they didn't really take good care of me. So for example on one occasion i ran out of the building naked and was running around the neighbourhood. One time I got on top of the closet and started making a huge hole in a wall with a hammer and noone stopped me. Though I am not a troubled person, I was always very good student of a great behaviour and so on. But at that time i did a lot of crap like that. Those memories from that part of my life dont really bother me, they never did.
Only thing is I had this recurring dream where I go to that building where I used to live with my mum and grandma. It's always night and I always have pretty hard feelings of sad nature, but really easily explainable. So i go to the entrance of the building and there is always some yellow light/lamp that i always notice. I dont know what that means, it doesnt make me feel in any particular way. Then i go inside the building to the floor where i lived and where my mum and grandma should still live. But then it's always something like this. Either they're not there, and i dont know where did they go. Or i see bunch of boxes and some workers who tell me that they moved out, but i cant find them, or sth like that. That usually makes me feel very bad. Then i go outside and i dont really know what happens then, i think dreams usually end there.
So this time, I had the dream that started of exactly the same as those recurring dreams, except, this time i was like a guide, i was leading some person through that dream and i was explaining to him everything thats happening in a dream, and telling him how it's always like that e.g."And here is always this light on the entrance...". I dont know who the person i was leading was. Then we go inside the flat where there should be no mum or grandma, but this time they are here. And i first notice grandma, but she soon transforms into some big creature, I was very scared, bunch of mixed emotions here, then we started fighting. I managed to defeat her and i was happy about that. I killed her. Then i saw my mum. She also transformed into some creature, except she was much much stronger then grandma. I was fighting her and i think i managed to defeat her, but then she transformed into another creature, it had glowing eyes, and it was putting its hand towards me smiling. I was scared. I dont remember what happened after that. I think I woke up.
So anyway, if anyone knows what this dream might mean please, please help. It's been bothering me for couple of days now.
Also if there are some more details you would like to know that i might missed please ask, i would happily write them down for you.
Thanks in advance!