Afterschool dream Urgent

[drprpapi23]

Hi guys im really desperate to find out the meaning of a recent dream. A little backround of me: I've been obseessed with the metaphyics, law of attraction, etc. but in a bad way. Bad in the sense i've been thinking what i DON'T WANT. Things such as fearful thoughts like me dying me doing bad things and everytime i try to ignore it it would try to nip back at me like an energy parasite to the point i've been struggling with this for more than a year kinda like ocd. These past recent days i had enough of it and decided to follow divine will so to speak due to certain serious things of what's going on in world and me getting upset these thoughts trying to feed off me. My decision to dedicate my life to fighting this and following the divine came these past couple days. The dream basically started with me trying to find a way out of school after the school day was done. i went down stairways to go leave down one of the exits which said kindergarden but instead of leaving through it i went upstairs 1 floor up to leave the school through that floor. When i left the school building i tried to find my friends who was going to smoke weed(i smoke weed) but in the middle of trying to find them i had a change of heart and decided to find my way back to school. The important part of the dream i feel like was me trying to find my way back to school but couldn't because i became lost during the way looking for my friends. As i was desperately looking for a way back to the school, the hoody i was wearing got dirty when my hoody sleeve touched what look like dirt or *h!t on the ground while finding my way due to a dirty block. After this i took off my hoody & then proceeded to try to find a way back to school. In the middle of this i woke up and now im trying to find the meaning of all this. I graduated school years ago and been trying to find guidance recently. I pay attention to dreams, signs, or anything around nature thats trying to convey a message since i believe it could be used as a tool of guidance especially since i'm trying to find spiritual guidance recently. I truly appreciate you guys taking the time to read this as it means alot to me.

[JoannaB]

I think the school in your dream symbolizes the "guidance" you say you seek. In the dream you get distracted and stray off course by seeking out your friends and wanting to smoke weed, and when you remember your goal of seeking guidance, you are lost and cannot find your way back. Exiting through kindergarten may signify a return back to the basics, learning from the ground up.