Well im going to start off by saying I have lucid or semi lucid dreams almost every night. Last night was a little different It began with me and a group of people standing in front of what i believe now to have been a church. I am not really big into religion and have not attended church in over 5 years so the setting was already out of the ordinary. We were just making small talk when someone noticed a dump truck full of explosives was heading straight for this big oak tree in front of the church. Now being the kind of person I am now I sprang into action and started herding everyone around the back of the church to get clear of the blast radius and not catch shrapnel from the explosion. When I turned around to make sure everyone was at a safe distance I saw my mother standing there. I yelled for her to get back but she stood there oblivious to the situation and my repeated yelling at her to get back. Then the truck hit the tree and exploded I caught some shrapnel and so did my mother but it did not phase her. Me on the other hand was now in a great deal of pain. The explosion caused a massive fire which was emitting a immense amount of heat I started running after her in hopes to grab her and pull her back from the fire but she began to walk towards it i cried out stop! please stop! but she kept walking I could not get to her in time she entered the flames and was incinerated. I had to turn back or else i would face the same fate. Once I was at a semi safe distance I collapsed in the dirt in tears and screaming out of despair I have never felt such a feeling of loss before it was extremely terrible I woke up after feeling like this for awhile. I was hoping someone could shed some light on this dream because it was out of the ordinary for me and I feel it has some significance to my life. A little background to my life right now is my mom is working all the time and when shes not working she is sleeping. She is also using drugs and ive been trying to tell her that she has to stop and she will feel better if she just quits using. I know this from experience because I too was an addict for a long time and recently pulled myself out of it in order to find inner peace and a better life for myself. I wish she could see that its killing her but she does not listen to me.