Not being to this site in several months has had its negatives and its positives. For one thing, I've been in a lot less online internet forum arguments. That's a total positive, the negative side of it being that I haven't been writing down my super-weird dreams or telling anyone about them, and because of this I've mostly forgotten about them. But one I had last night (that was lucid) had me running back to the forums to see what people on here thought (as I got some very good interpretations last time I tried it).

So, that rant being out there and in the open, I guess I should give you the dream.

I was outside at night, the surroundings looked as if it were November or so, but I was wearing a t-shirt. For some reason I was in my grandparents driveway, right by the fence here the dog they used to have was. I was sitting on the ground playing an Xbox, some sort of violent game where the character I was was punching faceless dummies that were holding chainsaws. Just when I died, I stood up, a little frustrated because it seemed as if I'd be stuck at this part in the video game forever.

I then heard a noise, and from behind the TV stepped a bear...thing. It was like it had the body of a bear, but with a head like a squirrel/some other small rodentish animal, or marcupial(sp?) like an opossum. It had brown fur and hair texture like a bear, but was shorter than I am with a very fat body. The head had a snout like a bear, but the eyes were close together and the head had two pointy ears (once again, sort of like..a marcupial, if you know what I'm talking about.) It roared and I started running from it, towards the house. I made it to the house and opened the doorknob, trying to get in the house and slam the door. Unfortunately, the bear caught up behind me and got in the house, and I continued running. At this point I woke up.


TO give you some background:

I'm still mildly suicidal and just weighing the pro's and con's of suicide at this point. I've been writing a lot of music for my many, many musical projects. I'm unemployed and not going to school at this point, and might have to have a surgery (I've had several on my feet and may require another.)