Within the last couple months I had a strange experience with a girl.
Basically, she seduced me, but decided to never see me again. I was kinda bumbed, because I liked her, but whatever ya know.
anyways, my personality likes to get to the bottome of everything that confuses me, and i'm more interested in how she gave those feelings to me that made me attach myself emotionally to her in such a short time (aside of her being quite attractive...)
I had a dream about a week ago, and she was in it.
In the dream I had a sickness that caused me to appear like my roommate (he has a birth defect where one of his legs is shorter than the other, and he has to use a cane) I have a lot of compassion for him, because I know it's hard to live with visible scars.
I believe that this was used to set up my STATE OF MIND for the dream. That state was: "I'm vulnerable, i'll go for any girl that would go for me 'cause i can't get any better"
So i'm sitting down in a chair and the girl approaches me. Her face looks very dreamy (obviously...lol) and she is starring into my eyes. I'm mad at her for not getting together with me again, but she stares at me so hard that I begin to forget that i'm mad...basically, she is putting me into a trance, making herself desirable. And then I notice it:
Her eyes an orange and white swirl. They color schemes alternate between the eyes in that they are inverted (her left pupil is orange, while her right is white). I'm just starring at her eyes and just entranced. This is KEY because i've never had a dream with alternate eyes like this before.
But today I finally understand it.
In reality, she used her mental capacity to place me into a trance. I chose to accept it so easily because I myself am vulnerable to women who make me feel that way. I've understood this for a little while, but the clarity is so great now.
We communicate sub-conscioussly to each other with our eyes. I don't know what it is, but all my life i've had a strong fascination with eyes. I can't help but love all that she's done to me, because now I see it. I see that if she can generate a power over me, than I have the ability to generate the same power over other people!
Crazy? Thoughts?
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