Weird dream.... REALLY weird

[shadowsingray]

Ever have one of those dreams that you feel like someone is trying to tell you something? Well this is one of those. But, which isn't normal for me is I don't get it. AT ALL. So I was searching for a place that could help and I found this place. Which I like a lot just from browsing around. I've been lucid dreaming for a while now. But, this dream just screams something and I am at a total loss as for what. Well I am pretty sure I understand 1 part of it completely, but i don't understand what the rest means. I had a place and it was only my place really it was strange. I had bought packages of meat but that I needed to separate into smaller packets and put in the freezer. I had a cat and it was the cat I had a year ago when I was living in AZ, Mr. balls. He was pestering me for the meat so I put him in the bathroom because for some reason I was separating the meat on the floor in the living room. Then the dream skipped two days and I woke up on the floor and the house was a mess. I had left the meat laying around on the floor. Then I realized I left the cat in the bathroom for all that time and totally freaked out. I went and he was ok. He had been going in the bathtub and drinking from the toilet and for some reason I had left a package of meat in the bathroom. There were many packages of ground beef in the dream. And he had been eating that. I was very sad that I left him like that and then I started picking up all the packages and putting them away. All the meat was perfectly fine after 2 days which was strange as well it was even still cold aside from the package he was eating. I knew 2 days had passed because when I woke up on the floor, in the dream, I checked my laptop and it two days later. But, at the end of the dream what woke me up was my own voice in my head and I was pushing some energy out like I was grounding and it said “that it was my fault that things are the way they are.” There was more to the voice, but I couldn’t remember the whole thing even though I wrote out what I could when I woke up. I think the 2 days has a lot to do with next week. Because I have A LOT to do Monday and Tuesday. But, the whole cat and meat packages thing are…………….. Hmm other details. The bathtub where the cat had been using looked all full of mold and more like a month of something happening. There was some green mold on the walls in there as well. After I cuddled the cat and was petting him I went in to clean up the bathroom and removed the meat. The mold was gone off the walls and the bathtub just looked like a cat had been using it as a litter box and there was a few inches of water in the tub. When I first let the cat out the bathtub looked about like some nuclear waste had been put in there. I felt really alone in that house. Like no one, but me had been living there for a long time aside from me. The place was trashed when I woke in the dream. It was pretty clean before that. I currently live in a similar house, but with 3 other people. We don’t see each other a lot as we all have active lives. But it’s more or less a college style house really. Where we really don’t do ANYTHING in the living room so the living room is just full of junk and the one tv in the place. Hmmm I made it only through 1/2 of a HUGE meat packet. I for some reason had bought about 4 5-10 lb packages. All I have right now is a package of ground turkey in the freezer. Trying to give as much info as possible to help with this. Currently I am a contractor. I haven’t had any work in 2 weeks so I am incredibly broke. The woman I am in love with is moving BACK to this country in about 1 1/2 months. Well that about covers that I think. Any thoughts would be great because something about that dream really stuck to me and I feel like there is something I am totally missing. Thanks in advance, Shadow