Thread: What could this nightmare mean? Please help :)

You have identified that your dream is about your friend and his death. Your subconscious is trying to assimilate knowledge and process his death and how it has and is currently affecting you.

In your dream the hospital is a dirty, disgusting, dangerous place=how you feel about the place that you say was responsible for your friend's death.

The cabin=your subconscious. The dangerous people are your fears..... fears about people dying/death/cancer/infections. The dangerous people may also represent the individuals you believe are at fault for your friend’s death.

Please know this. Your friend’s cancer and the medications he was taking made his immune system compromised. This made it impossible to combat his MRSA infection. Anyone could have, unfortunately, transmitted MRSA to your friend including family, friends, and visitors. MRSA is everywhere now and not just in hospitals. The staff probably suffered, cried and grieved also with the loss of this young man. They probably still think of him and blame themselves for his death. They may be in counseling because of feelings of guilt. ( I see many health professionals experiencing grief from patients dying.) As much as hospital employee try to be extraordinarily sterile, sometimes MRSA infections occur especially in the immunocompromised. I am not trying to negate the responsibilities of this hospital/staff. I think your dream was influenced by believing that the staff intentionally or recklessly took your friend from you.

I am very saddened for your loss. Please find some *helpful* adult, completely uninvolved with the family of the deceased young man, to talk with about his death. Tell them you are dreaming about his death and they will know how much it is bothering your subconscious. Your friend’s family may be in the anger stage of bereavement and may not have *helpful* assistance for you. Sadly, many people never move out of the anger stage of grief. I hope this is different for you and for this friend’s family.

While waiting for the conversation with a *helpful* person, you could read articles about the grieving process on the internet which might help you.

Hi baphomet,

My biggest question approaching this was: Why Nebraska? You might want to think about what Nebraska means to you. I find looking it up that the name means "flat water" and comes from the Sioux. It's major industries are agriculture, food processing, and oil production.

I'm going to go with the "flat water", but if you tell me it means something else to you, I'll think about that later too. Flat water to me is like still water, which runs deep, but also water often symbolizes emotions, and flat emotions tend to come to us when we're depressed or grieving.

I'd say your friend Mark's death had a major impact on you, and at way too early an age, and it's perhaps left you feeling trapped in being sad all the time. I am so sorry that happened, and it didn't just happen to Mark, it happened to everyone who cared about him, including you! I had a younger brother (he was born when I was fifteen), Tom, who died in 1986 from a cocaine overdose, which he took while out at sea on a fishing boat that he'd just returned to for work, just after having been declared in remission from bone cancer two days prior. This happened the day after Thanksgiving that year. He was afraid of the cancer, and his drug problems were serious, and I have come to the conclusion, since I believe in reincarnation, that he had pretty much blown any chance of completing his lessons for this lifetime, and it really was time for him to leave the earth plane. It may be, and I know this might be hard to hear, that the staph infection was an easier and quicker way for Mark to die, and that in fact, it saved him a lot of more severe suffering from the cancer.

But what it also does is leave you stuck in Nebraska, flat waters, feeling emotionally deadened, and that is why you feel so desperate to get out of there! People respond in different ways to the death of a loved one. My mom reacted to Tom's death by spending ten years on prescription tranquillizers washed down with double martinis, and then developed cancer herself and died in 1996. Tom's death took all the light out of her life, and it was really sad to watch, and feel helpless, because I coudn't help her at all! I tried, taking her books by Raymond Moody about "Life After Death", but she just got angry when I did. Nothing could bring her peace. She had before then been a vibrant woman who sold real estate, flew airplanes and was a flight instructor, skiied, did a mulititude of crafts, just full of life! But Tom's death just took it all out of her.

My response to Tom's death was to get hit over the head by my dreams and get a spiritual wake-up call that actually pulled me OUT of a long term clinical depression that I had had since 1976. I had to understand death, and life, and why we're here. It became an adventure, and a salvation. I think it was about those flat waters of emotional deadening of depression turning to the still waters that run deep. I even used the screen name WellWater for a long time! You can take this experience and turn it to gaining a lot of depth of understanding yourself and your life.

You speak here of being alone in the dream, and Texas is often called "The Lone Star State." You need to take hold of what will help you grow and make you feel better, to be the star of your own life for awhile, to examine yourself and your feelings, and treat yourself kindly and well. Do little things for yourself, like taking lovely scented bubble baths, or painting your toe nails a new color, or reading something you've been dying to read but haven't had the time. Whatever it is that makes you feel like you're in the Lone Star State. See? Take care of you!

A dream character who talks in riddles is often an inner guide, actually, and need not be feared. They like to work on our minds, get us to think outside the box, tease us with possibilities we haven't thought of before. He is the source, I think, of using "Nebraska" to refer to "Flat Water." Dreams do a lot of that! Names are often very important to learn the meaning of when they appear in dreams, as the meaning may be the symbol, rather than, or as well as, the actual person or place.

Anyway, I wish you all the best, and I hope you'll try to make yourself the star of your life at least once a day, and let us know what you choose to do for yourself in that regard first! Take care!

If you want to talk more, I'll be checking back!