I feel like I needed to post this somewhere. I couldn't find the right subforum to put this in, so I hope this is the right spot.
EDIT: AHH! The option was on the top. Sorry, I'm new here. Can a mod move this?
Recently, I've been really tired. Today I fell asleep at 5pm (17:00) reading a book. I slept for about two hours. I had a very realistic dream which I am troubled by the possible meaning.
I will explain my dream thoroughly before explaining the person who was involved:
In my dream I woke up to my cellphone ringing. I was on my bed and the phone roused me from my sleep. I picked up and on the other end was a friend. I'm going to call him John. Basically, John and his girlfriend wanted to do hang out with me. While they were deciding together what we should do I was quickly falling back asleep while remaining conscious to the fact that he was still on the other end. I knew that I would fall asleep and that he would be stuck waiting on the other end without me. I was powerless to my sleep. It almost felt like sleep paralysis within a dream.
When I woke up (this time for real) from my dream, it was because someone was calling my cellphone. Since the dream was so real I thought it was John calling me back, but it was my mother.
The reason this dream is so troubling, is because of what John means to me. He is a friend, but not just any friend. I consider him, along with another person, my best friend. In fact, John and I are more than friends. I am a bisexual male. I've had a huge crush on John for as long as I've known him, or just about as long. I had been getting mixed feelings about if he liked me or not. Eventually - very recently I came out and admitted that I liked him. He admitted that he was also bisexual, and that he liked me back. We have yet to do anything together.
What does this dream mean?! Am I growing aloof to him? Is it something I cannot stop? Will we drift apart? Will it be my fault?
Thanks for the help.
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