Long story short; I have a friend (female) which I met recently and got acquainted on a good level, won't go into too much detail.
I'll put it this way: she's the most amazing person I ever met, and all my previous crushes and "loves" seem nothing when compared to her - I might just as well love her, but that's not the point I'm trying to make. And I.. I'm not quite experienced with dating girls, nor I have the size of the social outlook which other people enjoy (her included). We talk about different stuff and I love making her laugh (or anyone for that matter ), but I don't think I'm attractive to her.
One week ago, I dreamed about how I told her how much I like her (while she had the most wonderful outfit - black clothes, she was smiling and looked w/o a single blemish) and that I want to go out with her; she just looked me in the eyes and her eyes lost the shine and she went away. I can't really remember what the scenery was during that, but suddenly I was inside a big building (which reminded me of nothing I've ever been before) with big windows and I overlooked at her walking away... I can't remember the other parts of the dream.
And today, just when I thought I would have better dreams of her, I had another dream where I got extremely well known to her, almost to the point where we would hug, but then one of my friends introduced to her and almost immediately became a better friend to her than me, while I stopped talking to her and just looked at her eyes and she looked back at mine. Afterwards the scene switched to 3rd person during this happening - very weird) and I saw myself really, really sad; my palms on my face and felt indescribable pain (even though as third person). I realized she wasn't in the room at all in the first place, almost like I fantasized as I was dreaming - like a meta-dream.
Something else happened afterwards, but I can't quite remember what, except that the ending was very traumatic for me and I woke up.
These dreams obliterate every single thought of me asking her out or telling her that I like her and it just makes me feel very bad...
Any help on the meaning and what I should do would be more than welcome!
Thank you.
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