Killing and Shooting people. its bothering me, please help

[Croyor]

So in this Dream I was at a place that I knew as familiar, it was my old intermediate school. It was gloomy outside and alot of people were standing around in a big circle, but oddly enough there was a gap of people so I had ample amount of room to see what was going on in the center of the circle. There were tons of people that I knew from my Highschool days all around but the two people in the center of the circle were the most important. The first was a lady I knew growing up, I knew here daughters and went to school with them. The lady was quite generally two faced. Tell you one thing and tell someone else the other, usually backstabbing you. she was short, blonde and overweight, I never liked her at all. and the second was a girl that I had an affair with, noone ever found us out but I we evenutally stopped sleeping together. and to this day I will say I still have feelings for her, maybe love her even, I was so heartbroken when we stopped seeing eachother. She has a redish brown hair, and is in good shape. Stands about as tall as I do. So here I was looking through this crowd with my Rifle, it was an M16 with Iron sights on I remember being angry about something that was going on, it was political I think, I dont remember the subject matter, and they were both speaking to the public, I couldnt hear what they were saying. I picked up my rifle and sighted in, Got the older womans head right in my sights and squeezed the trigger and watched her fall. for some reason noone saw me do that. so a few moments went by and I sighted in again, Got my old love's head in my sights and pulled the trigger, I didnt feel like I wanted to do it, but I knew I had to. I missed. just barely, the bullet scraped the top of her head leaving a gash, she was bleeding bad. someone saw it this time, and rumor spread fast that I was the shooter, but noone was freaking out that the two people had just been shot. my old lover was still alive, she came up to me while I was inside the door and asked me if it was true, if I was the one who shot them, I lied and told her no. and She believed me and so did everyone else, she fell into my arms and cried. I felt no remorse for what I had done or any guilt. I was just there with this woman, but I felt so much love for her at the same time. Then I woke. Whats really bothering me is that I dont know why it is that I would miss the second shot and be comforting to her right after.

[TikiXxXRocker]

I'm new at this, so don't take anything I say too seriously, but I've got an idea... Maybe you have unfinished business with these two people that you haven't conciously admitted to yet, but you subconciously just want it to go away. So, your subconsious mind thinks, what better way to get rid of problems with people than to get rid of the people? I've had violent dreams before, it doesn't mean your bad or anything. It's just a symbol of some srt of soultion your mind may have come up with. I don't know exactly what it may symbolize, but I don't think your subconsious mind actually wants to kill anybody, especially if it still bothers you while you're awake.

[Croyor]

I'm new at this, so don't take anything I say too seriously, but I've got an idea... Maybe you have unfinished business with these two people that you haven't conciously admitted to yet, but you subconciously just want it to go away. So, your subconsious mind thinks, what better way to get rid of problems with people than to get rid of the people? I've had violent dreams before, it doesn't mean your bad or anything. It's just a symbol of some srt of soultion your mind may have come up with. I don't know exactly what it may symbolize, but I don't think your subconsious mind actually wants to kill anybody, especially if it still bothers you while you're awake. well I guess I should have specified why is it that I missed the second target? and then my feelings afterword

[TikiXxXRocker]

Okay, so maybe you missed on purpose. Maybe you really don't want to hurt that person (in waking life), and then you were later comforting them because you feel that, in waking life, you did hurt them and you want to comfort them and fix it.

[Croyor]

You know, now that you stated it that way... I think you are completely right. cause in truth, I did hurt her. I just hadnt realized it.

[TikiXxXRocker]

well, i hope that means i helped. =]