Sonicmstrs' Dream Journal

[sonicmstr]

hello, I am Sonicmstr, and this, is my dream journal. i've always been able to remember my dreams but, most of the time just the last few scenes of it. hopefully this will help me with my lucid dreaming and will make me remember my dreams even better. in this post i will also post goals i have for my lucid dreaming. Goals: have a lucid dream [] fly[] Ask my self deep questions [] Non-lucid dreams are in black Lucid dreams are blue

[sonicmstr]

well i tried to WILD just a few minutes ago. i didn't fall asleep but, i did have some "dreams" the image wasn't very clear and i couldn't control anything, they were like normal dreams but i was still counting my breaths to WILD and aware i was awake and "dreaming". Eventually i got frustrated i couldn't have a lucid dream and opened my eyes. I had lain there for 3 hours. even though this is only my fourth attempt i'm starting to think i can't do it more and more each time; which is the most frustrating of all. 1:I was in a classroom and this one guy kept asking the same question over and over and over and over. the question was "can you hear me ____" i cannot remember the name of the person the question was referring too though but, it was the teacher. 2: Another one school related i was in JROTC doing push ups (this is the most embarrassing fitness related thing you could make me do) i was doing fine actually but my score kept going down. i was also the center of attention at that moment and people were laughing at me. i got the worst score in JROTC history -46. This one really bothers me i think it's trying to tell me something, and i feel its related to self-esteem 3:This one was the blurriest of all all i could see was a forest type background. the forest was in a circle around a small lake (or a pond i'm not sure which). Dew was dropping for the tree tops but no rings or rippling happened in the water the rest faded while i was writing

[TheWeirdnessSymposium]

Sounds like it's still quite early with your WILD attempts. I found that I started making progress after about one month of trying. I could be wrong here, but I like to think that when thoughts of WILDing entered my long term memory, my unconscious mind started giving me a helping hand and made it more automatic.

[sonicmstr]

Well, another long night of WILD attempts, i'm really starting to lose hope and belief that this is possible which makes me disappointed in myself. i only remember one dream and not so clearly. I was at home and my mom asked me to get some dumplings (something unheard of) surprisingly i knew where it was and got up to get it. i went outside and walked across a series of wood planks until i saw and abandoned ship. the terrain around me was a desert but it wasn't very hot even though the sun was shining, i climded up to the boat and was on the deck or, what was left of the deck. the water was in the ship, the water was as dark blue as possible. i jumped in and could see fine, and even breathe. i went into the ship and opened a cabinet; there were no dumplings. The rest i can't remember.

[Baron Samedi]

A ship in a desert, and water in the ship! Wow, that's a cool dream. I understand how you could feem discouraged. Man, I have been trying to astral project over and over, after having a really cool one, but I haven't been able to do it well. Keep trying. I suggest posting your challenges in your WILD attempts, in the forums, because there are a lot of people that can help.

[sonicmstr]

well its safe to call last night the night of FAIL. no WILD, no recall. however, something interesting did happen a few moments ago when i tried to WILD. I was doing fine and even going into SP a little bit when all of a sudden i felt like i was punched in the face and i shot up into a sitting position, it really felt like something hit me and i'm not sure what it was whether it was part of SP or someone hit me in a dream; i don't know.

[sonicmstr]

Well more failures but i feel i making some progress; i'm starting to feel weird in my attempts, like something is compressing me hopefully, i'm making progress. As a consolation for this post here is an old dream of mine. I was in a sort of mountainous area but, for some reason i thought it was Florida (at the time i didn't know if there were mountains in FL) my brother had done something wrong but, he was all the way up the top of one of the mountains; i could never walk or run up there. i jumped and started flapping my arm like a bird and was flying up the mountain, gliding occasionally. after a session of flying (it felt great) i made it up to him. he was at a snack bar type stand or something like that. i woke up afterwards but i'll never forget flying.

[sonicmstr]

Once again no, lucid dream, no recall. only progress i made was i started to fell like i'm on a boat but i keep getting too excited and i feel that's what's messing me up

[sonicmstr]

for the pass two days i haven't had any progress in obtaining lucidity. now this is fine except i've had no recall as well. i fear that the lack of recall is due to a external effect as this hasn't happened in a while, any hypotheses? anyway here's a dream i had a few years ago. everything in the dream was exactly the same as a normal day but today my dad asked me to spend time with him; i said no. the same thing happened the next day in the dream, and even the next day. He even got sick and stayed home from work and i still never spent any time with him. he asked me more and more and even cried when i said no. he died. when i woke up i felt like the BIGGEST asshole in the world. the feeling stuck with me for a while. the scariest thing is that this could actually happen. i consider this one of the only nightmares i've ever had.

[TheWeirdnessSymposium]

well its safe to call last night the night of FAIL. no WILD, no recall. however, something interesting did happen a few moments ago when i tried to WILD. I was doing fine and even going into SP a little bit when all of a sudden i felt like i was punched in the face and i shot up into a sitting position, it really felt like something hit me and i'm not sure what it was whether it was part of SP or someone hit me in a dream; i don't know. Interestingly, I just experienced the same thing in a WILD attempt. Though it was more like running into a wall.