Thread: Mummy`s Journal

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My eyes are closed, yet i see everything. Birds, people, cars... all sound make me go *YAAAAAARG!*.
Must enchant mind with deafness. Must... find... answer! Or should i just go to bed ealier?

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Weird reunion at an unknown swimming pool

I&#96;ll like to add a dream from years ago but still remember so strongly that it feels like an recent event. I recall myself swimming inside a poor lighted swimming pool with a roof about 10 meters high with windows at the top of each wall. While studying the building from the inside (not knowing anything from the outside nor the location) i found there was nothing strange to notice. Large tiles to walk on when u leave the pool wich are slippery when wet like you expect. The pool itself looked about 10m in dept, also square and it almost looked that my poor imagination couldn&#96;t create a better looking scene. Cubes in cubes... *sigh* Anyway as i recall myself swimming in the pool trying to stay above water i sense that i&#96;m amongst many of my friends from the past. I don&#96;t hear or sense any way of communication between them, still i see a few smiling and looking at me. The strange thing was that i didn&#96;t had the social feeling to make contact with any of them. Not that i felt offended by their presence. Most were just enjoying what they were doing... swimming? Anyway... i tried to avoid any contact and see myself diving to reach the bottom, away from everyone so i could ask myself a few questions what this was all about. While i looked back i see some trying to follow me or trying to dive as deep as they can. My guess is some don&#96;t even notice that i&#96;m not doing this for fun... as they fail to dive deeper after a few meters i&#96;m wondering why i am still able to swim deeper and deeper. Another questions pops my head that asks me why i&#96;m not in the urge for air. While i try to answer this myself i get this feeling that just wouldn&#96;t let lose. Like being weightless in space. I never breathed underwater before so why would i question myself with where this ability came from? I guess this was the main reason i never attained control in this dream. My willpower was too weak for any change? Yet i kept questioning myself where this scene would take me. While i accepted and looked arround me i saw that the pool has changed but not drasticly. It&#96;s like i never noticed it before but i saw some sort of sub level where i could go if i swam a little deeper towards the bottom and even bump my head if i couldn&#96;t stay there of own will and float up. Not a large area, but large enough to sit unnoticed and quietly to observe all the activity above. This is also the last thing i remember... sitting on the bottom unnoticed while watching all above me and most likely woke up from that point because i simply remember nothing of what happend next... Weird dream but i guess the water breathing experience made me remember it so strongly.

[SIZE=2]*Dream scenes*</span>
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Hmmm i don&#96;t want to turn up frustrated after all the time and effort i put into "trying to gain lucidity". Last night for about 4 freaking times i woke up with only 1 thing on my head *Must... change... sleeping... position...*. Simply hatefull. Anyway the weirdest thing i remember were short vague parts which didn&#96;t seem te be connected to eachother. For i remember a scene where i walk in the center of a city. When i thought of it the scenery took me to this modern train station on a high builded trainstation. Daylight and no people to see. Another scene that popped up was near a lake with lots of trees arround it but not that much that it would camouflage the whole area. I see myself jumping inside the lake with joy because the weather was good and i wanted to swim. The lake looked cool and refreshing but when i dived into the pool i saw myself going up and spitting arround as i noticed that the pool was poluted. I also remember that there were fish in the lake that i had to kick away from me. This was also the last part that i remember.

[SIZE=2]*Shiny, sparkling and black*</span>
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A girl i was once in love with pop-uped in a dream last night. The last time i saw her was pretty long ago but her looks and appearance seemed still fresh in my memory. I recall myself standing inside this small school complex while looking at her as she was standing in the corridor near the entrance/exit. I noticed her smiling at me like she used to do (she had a beautiful smile that seduced me into a state of total satisfaction). I don&#96;t recall any verbal communication but i do sense this intensity of love bursting outside my stomach to see her again. I started to wonder if she still have an relationship with that guy a few years older then me and if the devil in my head triggered my thoughts, the bastard suddenly appeared. He kissed her and it felt like as if the first moment she smiled at me was stolen. Her smile didn&#96;t change but the feeling of jelousy was taking over beginning to swirl arround me noticing the difference and trying to accept the facts. The rest of the dream is too vague for me to recall and not something i want to dig into any further anyway. Dealing with jelousy has never been one of my specialties...

[SIZE=2]*Hospital gore*</span>
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This isn&#96;t any of my recent dreams but i still want to add it. I don&#96;t recall having any nightmares involved gore (not even in childhood), like i always had a kiddy gore filter in my dreams. Anyway when i was into the hospital a few months ago for a infected intenstine(?) removal i had a rather shocking dream. When i woke up after the surgery a few nurses (pretties!) instructed me how to clean the wound bellow my stomach when i was able to go out of bed to go to the shower. I guess this daily routine got so into my head the days in spend in the hospital that i dreamed of it. I recall myself standing in the shower at my own home instead of the hospital. While i was done showering i dried myself with a towel and tried to stredge my back just a little because it felt very stiff after all those days resting. This was the biggest mistake i could do in that dream i guess. The wound bellow my stomach ripped open over the whole horizontal length of my belly with blood streaming out like a red waterfall. It didn&#96;t hurt but i never felt so cold and slow and offcourse in shock what was happening. The feeling of death awaiting for me to be brought to another place outside this "real world\'\' in return for all my memories. The real pain also came from the feeling to give up all the people and things i cared off. The last thing i remember is myself strumbling outside the shower shouting that i needed to go to the hospital immediately. I actually didn&#96;t even made it outside the shower before blackness overwhelmed my vision. I guess the time for awakening had arrived because i didn&#96;t recall any further scenes nor events. The first thing i did upon awakening was to check if my belly was still ok... ^^

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Hmmmmmm funny. I remember having several dreams seeing myself wearing the hood of a sweater after i went to sleep with a blanket arround my head (i often put the blanket arround my head with a little opening to breath... like an arab?). Anyway... last night i remember seeing myself having a conversation with my ex while wearing the hood on my sweater. It looked kind of weird and unsocial to do while in a conversation but i don&#96;t sence any negative feelings from that dream. What the conversation was about i don&#96;t remember because i want her out of my head and most likely tell myself to forget what i dreamed when any images of her presence pop up upon awakening. We broke up in a very weird way not knowing eachother&#96;s feelings at all. My jelousy unfortunally also played a part in this... Errr damn why am i writing this down anyway? I guess trying to translate my emotion to language for my own understanding is the reason... What i learned out of this? I never want to be blinded by love again!



[size=12]*Backalley fool*</span>
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This is one of the dreams i also had about a hood... this one is only from several months ago. I recall myself walking down an alley at night wearing a towel arround my head and neck (-,-) and on top of that the hood of my sweater as i walked looking at the ground. Later on i notice a backdoor of a bar(?) with light and people on the right side of the alley. A place to go out? Anyway while i past it and walked along the alley i hear some people shouting my name from behind standing at the backdoor entrance. I noticed that some of my friends were shouting my name like if they wanted to get my attention. I felt really weird not seeing them as i past and offcourse wearing this towel under my hood made me feel even more ridiculous. I said to myself to make a joke out of it, turned my back and sprinted towards them saying something like... "Haha fooled ya. Didn&#96;t noticed me when i passed by." With a fast move i removed the towel arround my head, putting my hood off and laughing while not knowing i was acting like a fool...

[SIZE=2]*Snow sleding!*</span>
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Another dream i remember from last night is a pretty weird one. I recall myself being on a sled on a not too small forest road. Enough space for 2 cars to pass eachother. It&#96;s night and dark outside and it looked like i was very fast on my sled passing cars and bicycles. Because it was winter with only moonlight lighting up the snow on the road i saw a lot of people crash into eachother because of the slippery roads. I saw a person trying to leave his car because he was unable to drive any longer. The moment he opens his door some dude with a bicycle rams against the cardoor with the man inside shouting that he must be more carefull and cursing at him. Me with my sled had no problems at all! Simple speculation on a fast sled passing by everyone with trouble. Running and jumping on my sled to make another 100 meters in fast motion traveling with the sled bellow my stomach. I don&#96;t remember much more but traveling on a sled passing by crashed cars without having any problems with the slippery road myself. I was on a sled after all! Made me feel like a Santa Claus Schumacher.



[size=12]*History*</span>
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Another and also the last dream i remember was pretty funny too. I remember chilling outside near my house while seeing my old history mentor a few meters away. They called him Mr. Berns and i yelled something like yo Berns! He was one of the greatest teachers i ever had because he was so lazy but he took his job for real. Often we skipped boring uninterresting stuff and learned more about the historical background of our own city and country. Anyway... i walked towards him to give him a friendly hug. He&#96;s kind of fat and old with 4 vingers on each hand but he simply ROCKS. Everyone in class liked him. Anyway while he gave me a hug he didn&#96;t know his own strength. He smiled but almost crushed my bones! I said hehe cool man to see u after such a long time but u can let me go now. I don&#96;t hear him say anything back but only smiling and the moment i looked behind him and right of me i see another Mr. Berns! And another! "Oh shit i don&#96;t hope they try to hug me too for i&#96;ll be dead for sure" was the first thing that came up. Some people from his class(?) which were also kind of big tried to sumo wrestle him off of me. This was also the last thing i remember from this dream.

[SIZE=2]*Grandma*</span>
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I had a very vivid dream walking in the neightboorhood where my grandma used to live. I was excited to see her again and i recall walking and talking with her outside the appartment. Suddenly she told me to look up where these circel formed lights were swirling in the sky like alien ufo&#96;s and as i looked at them more focused they changed into these 2d images of fighter planes. I&#96;m yet a little late with writing this dream down but i now see that it could have something to do with my skeptical look towards life. Anyway as i keep looking into the sky i hear my grandma gross out of something she saw on the ground. I looked towards a small gass field where this pile of skulls is lying. It also grossed me out and it looks like it&#96;s getting worse by time. A terrible smell starts to form with an army of flies flying arround it. I went away from it not noticing where my grandma was which is also the last thing i remember in this dream. I also notice this scene near her appartment near the big road with a big blue truck on the road. I dont know why i maybe just woke up and went to sleep before the previous dream but i remember myself saying that i was in a dream. Nothing special happend tho... a slight weird feeling in my stomach but no details to recall further . Maybe i was only visualizing what i dreamed or i woke up instantly knowing that i also woke up previously after the dream with my grandma.