Dream Exploration #2 Friday, April 21, 2006
Sleep type: Spontaneous
Approximate time of sleep start: 12:00 AM
Number of Dreams: 1-3
Day time dealings: Fridays are usually days that I can relax and hang out my girlfriend, reserving Saturdays for my male friends etc. The day was normal, school business as usually and things of the sort. We did get out early this day due to standardized testing, I did not answer one question but rather simply filled in all the bubbles to look like I did it. The test counted for nothing but rather was a reflection on how well the school was doing. Nothing unusual happened during the day. During the last period of the day I was in math class with a new friend of mine, he is somewhat of a psychonaut. We began to talk about the complex relationship between the brain and the world. We talked about string theory in relation to there being several planes of thought that we would never understand. I further talked with him about the speculation of flatland and the mind. I referenced I book that I have been wanting to read by Carlos Castaneda and he told me of his attempt at lucid dreaming. This is the first time I was introduced to the concept and wanted to practice it. We decided we might see each other on the weekend; however, he is an avid user of cannabis, and I am not. I have fears of being around it, for fear that I will loose control with it. At the end of school I met up with my girlfriend and we headed to the lower section of the school were I saw my friend standing in a circle around one girl, the scenario they were talking about involved purchasing MDMA. One later speculation the participants decided the drug was not worth it. I am not involved in anything drug related and shy far from it. I am experienced with the psychoactive chemical THC however. After school I had a day with my girlfriend, we walked along our favorite bike path and met some new kids who we befriended. We had dinner at a small Japanese restaurant and enjoyed a long walk back to her house. The rest of the night we spent there having dessert and talking before I left her house at around 10:30. I came home took a shower, listened to hardcore techno, read about lucid dreaming for the first time and had what I called my first dream trip.
Dream trip #1
Type: NL
Awaken to recall dream at: 11:45 PM
Method: WILD
Dream trip: This was my first experiment with lucid dreaming ever. I have tried to create hallucinations using my mind before but nothing of this style. I wanted to go straight from sleep into a dream knowing what I was doing. I was very scared of what might happen, could I be stuck in the dream forever? I got a piece of paper and pencil and put it by my side along with my cell phone as a watch. I was on my back and relaxed myself. I close my eyes and began to count, “I am in a dream 1, I am in a dream 2…” At first there was a small bending in perception in my peripheral. The sides of my vision began to move inward. I remember smiling; the experience was new and exciting. The sides of my vision were an off grey while the middle was a darker black. After this came a long period of nothing going on my vision was all black. I heard my dog whining he sleep, dreaming actually and outside was the sound of water. Slowly faces began to appear, they are not clear nor anything close to real but rather my mind wandering. The best way I can describe it is as grey outlines on a black pieces of paper. The faces are biting, what seems to be my nose, could be my third eye, ego etc. I suddenly feel slightly removed from my body as though my knee caps are above my real body. Most likely I was just really relaxed. There is unexpectedly a burst of motion on my eyes. I see the running motion, slowly I can focus in on it. It is a running creature, but more of spikes that are put together that are moving. Then it explodes in color, it is man colors constantly changing. I wrote down that it was pink, purple, and had many spikes. I try to grab onto it and bring myself into the dream, it fails. I keep counting to myself and saying, “I am in a dream 300”. Grey blocks move over the sides of my vision and I say to myself this is enough for tonight don’t go farther than you feel you want to go. I open my eyes totally refreshed. I was not asleep. I believe that I entered the beginning of the hypnagogic state. I was astonished at my experience, mind blown really. I had hallucinated on a small scale it seems.
Commentary/Analysis: N/A
Dream #1 (Tricks and being tricky)
Type: NL
Awaken to recall dream at: 4:24 AM
Dream: When I first woke up I was very confused like I usually am, I remember my dream perfectly it seemed. I looked around I remember that I had a piece of paper by my bed side. I began to think rationally again, I am supposed to write my dream down I though. I got the piece of paper and the pen, and looked at the watch. After noting the time I was ready to write but was I writing, I had forgotten the dream all together. To say the least I was upset. I closed my eyes and thought back to the last thing I remember. It came to me very quickly, I know knew the end of my dream, and it was time to work backwards I thought. I will not go through the dream backwards but rather in the order I understand it played out. It seems as though I might have mixed up several dreams into one large one because I cannot remember any of the transitions.
Sequence #1: I was at someone’s house, who I do not know. I was in their kitchen, really a mix of kitchens from my life, like childhood friends, mine, and my girlfriends. I note a fixation with the refrigerator. Everyone is smoking cannabis. I do not want to but my will is not strong enough and I give in. I feel bad in my dream for being a week person and not consulting my girlfriend before hand or anyone else. From there we began to run around the house, or at least I think.
Sequence #2: Me and my close friend are running around in my girlfriends house when we stumble across her parents room and walk inside to see at least a dozen women on the bed, we get the idea to hide in a mattress. Hiding in the mattress we sit patiently awaiting the girls to return. There is a fixation with mattresses specifically. Her father was a mattress maker is what my dream made me believe. Her father comes out of the door that is right in front our heads and walks to our left hand side. He stand there was a second and then he is not involved in the dream anymore. I remember that the blanket we were hiding under to try and be a mattress was a bed covering, the one with elastic edges. It was light blue with white stripes I am fairly certain. My friend then turns to me and says, “I am going to die”. I do not know if this dream merges with the next or the one before.
Sequence #3: I felt as though I was in a store or place that was like a large outdoors/camping store but it was more of a house or mall. People had been giving me small objects that were cylindrical. There were at least 2 people that had given them to me. My mind noted these things as “tricks”. They clearly represented actions taken to trick me. The last thing that I remember from my dream all together was being handed one of them from a administrative staff member of my school. A principle type of figure. I was on a city street when this happened.
Fragments: I looking at my group of friends and seeing them at school in a circle. I talked to one of them about something. His face was important to the dream.
Commentary/Analysis: N/A
Approximate time of awakening: 9:00-10M
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