Alright, finally got the internet all hooked up and I'm back online at last! I haven't been keeping up with my dream journal because I've been busy with relocating my life and searching for a job, but now that I've done both, I'm back on it.
I did record one long lucid dream that I had while I was computer-less, so I'm posting it here:
August 3, 2006
I cannot remember the beginning of my dream or how I became lucid. The further back I try to remember, the fuzzier it becomes, so at the beginning there are a lot of big gaps, but towards the end my dream seems to function in a more linear fashion. The earliest I can remember is being in a restaurant. I am already lucid. There is someone working there who appears to be a composite of two of my high school acquaintances. I go into an upstairs room in the restaurant to speak with him. While we have been friendly in real life, I am sensing hostility in the dream, and the more I try to reason with him that his hostility is misplaced, the more hostile he becomes. It is strange, because I know he is not saying or doing anything that could be construed as threatening by an outsider, but I am just getting an extremely hostile vibe. Eventually, I leave and return downstairs, and he becomes openly hostile, screaming at me and chasing me down the stairs. He trips, falls, and is knocked unconscious. I return to my dinner.
Later in the dream, I am outdoors. My dad has given me a present, a dresser, and I am looking at it. I do not want to offend my father or insult his gift, but I notice that it is broken in several places, and missing two sides. I point this out timidly to my dad, and he shows me some very beautiful tiles that are meant to cover up the missing sides. I thank him, give him a hug, and tell him that I love him. My sister Kathleen is there.
Kathleen and I go to some sort of cafeteria and I am playing around, in a silly mood. I decide to start a food fight, because I’ve never been in one (and trying to start one these days when I’m in my 20’s would probably seem pretty foolish). I try hurling some food across the room, and give it a few good tries, but I cannot build up the momentum to throw it very far. It’s similar to the whole running-in-water dreaming phenomenon that I’ve experienced before, (but less alarming since the other always happened in the context of me trying to escape something! My sister comments that gravity must not work in dreams. I tell her that gravity works just fine, it’s my arm that has the problem, and drop a mug on the floor to prove my point. It falls to the ground normally and shatters.
Big gap in memory here, but eventually I am in an unfamiliar apartment with some friends from college. I am aware that I haven’t seen them in a while and am glad to be able to visit with them. We decide to drop some “acid,” although the “hit” looks and tastes like a fennel seed. Still, it’s a dream, so I think it might work. I take one. My friend Scotty eats an entire handful. I inform him that this is special acid with a very quick onset that I spent $1000 on. Nothing seems to happen, (although I notice that the decorations in the apartment are done in a very psychedically-inspired motif, lots of fractals and bright colors on the walls.)
Time passes. I am driving in a garage having lost lucidity. Actually, I believe that I had a very long false awakening here where I dreamed of getting out of bed and going out, but this may be inaccurate. The car was responding poorly to my control and I was struggling not to hit other cars. I realized that I was probably still dreaming, and started swerving the car around like crazy, just for fun. Then I had doubts, and pulled over and did a RC just to be sure. Yep, dreaming. I’m a bit annoyed at myself that I didn’t do an RC sooner and wasted all that dream time trying to run an errand!
I got out of my car and started talking to the people in the garage. I believe I explained to them that they were my dream characters. A group of us went outside to the sidewalk. There is some hip-hop playing, and I dance for a bit. There is a streetlight with a thin pole, and I see a girl sitting on it maybe 6 feet off the ground, just with her legs wrapped around the pole. I am impressed by this feat of strength, and when she gets down, I jump up to try the same thing. Easy! The others are teasing me that I’m on a stripper pole. I try swinging myself around the pole like a stripper, to see if I can do it in my dream – in waking life, I am not nearly that strong. It takes a few tries to get the hang of it, but I eventually have some success. I get down and two girls get up on it together and start doing some raunchy stripper act. The guys love it! I walk away and leave them all behind.
There is a gap in my memory here, but eventually I arrived at the front of a house. There was a woman on the upstairs balcony. She was dressed in a casual but glamorous kind of 1950s style. She was beautiful, slim, with blonde hair in short curls and was perhaps 30 years old, with the general appearance of an old movie star. My vision at this point was blurry, which I attributed to not having my glasses on, and I was trying to fix this by saying “increase clarity.” It was not working. The woman called down to me, “increase clarity,” and for a second, my vision went sharp. I asked if she could please do that again, and she called it out again until my vision fixed itself completely and I asked her to stop.
This part of my dream is unfortunately fuzzy in my memory. I climbed up some sort of apparatus into a loft in the woman’s apartment. It was a strange shape and very unsteady and fell apart as I climbed up. I was not worried. We started talking about lucid dreaming and she somehow explained that she was not a DC but a fellow dreamer who was speaking with me. (At this point, she looked different, having shoulder length black hair and appearing distinctly less glamorous, but I didn’t realize this difference until I woke up.) I was amazed and we discussed this for a bit. She showed me a print out of a thread from a discussion board she had saved and I recognized her avatar, although I cannot remember it now. She said something about being on some other LD forum, not DV, and I recognized it in my dream but could not remember the name. I was excited and hoped to find her when I woke up. (Upon waking, I remember the existence of no such forum at all.) I also tested if she was a DC by trying to control her actions, but each time I tried, I went mute just like in the cell phone commercial (the one where the calls keep getting dropped). I was watching myself at this point in third person, talking away with complete silence. I know we had other conversations about lucidity, but I cannot remember what she said.
I exited the house and walked down a flight of stairs towards the street. The front of the house was different leaving than when I arrived. I noticed that it was cool outside, like the weather of the fall in New York where I grew up. I normally prefer warm weather, but the briskness was very pleasant and the sensation helped enhance my lucidity. I played around with making the air a bit cooler even, and noticed I was now wearing a hooded red sweatshirt, which I zipped up. I really enjoyed this part of my walk, and noticed the trees were a mixture of the trees one would normally see in NY and in LA.
When I got to the bottom, I met up with some other girls. They were pushing dollies. We undertook to walk up the street to the top of the hill, with the expectation that there would be something interesting there. As we walked, it seemed that the hill was becoming steeper. The women hesitated, but I told them that we should continue on. I figured if my brain was trying to keep me out, there must be something cool hiding up there.
As it was, we reached the top and the other women began playing a game where they took turns bowling the others down the other side of the hill with baby blue bowling balls. The bowling balls had printed on them “Ex-boyfriend.” I thought this was a strange game, but was not worried because I knew they could not really get hurt. It seemed like a light hearted, if weird game. Then I walked over to them, and two were sitting down on a piece of red fabric. One was a friend of mine from high school that I haven’t seen in the dream previously. They were planning to slide down the hill on this fabric. The rest of us walked down the hill together.
We arrived outside in a market. There were stores that were different than ones that I know in real life along the sides of the outdoor vendors, but I noticed a dress in the window that I had seen in real life. I picked up a small piece of fur to examine it, it had some embroidery. I noticed a tag that said it had “raw poison” on it. It was wet. I went to the water fountain to wash it off my hands quickly, handing it back to the vendor. She was soaking other pieces of fur in the poison as well. Two of my companions came with me, a girl near my age, and an elderly man. The elderly man looked sick and I asked him if he was going to throw up. He nodded and I pointed to another water fountain farther away, and asked if he would please go over there so he would not throw up on us. He walked away, and I said to the other girl, “Poor Stanley,” feeling slightly bad about having him leave, but knowing he was not a real person that needed my help. At this point, I began to feel the dream fading again, and willed myself to wake up so that I could record it.
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