There has been some time since the last entry. In the meantime, I've tried a bit at attaining lucidity and bolstering dream recall, which has been partially successful (mainly due to my laziness, really). However, about a month ago I purchased this program called 'Neuro-Programmer', which uses sound to affect the brainwave patterns. I had used the trial a bit and found it effective in helping me study, so I bought it, and, tonight, for the first time, I tried out some presets that should help me attain lucidity.

Well, I'm impressed. I don't know if I slept too well since my night seemed rather busy, but I kept a notebook by the bed and wrote down when I remembered to do it. So, here goes.

(BE WARNED: there is a little snippet of sexuality in this one)


At first, I had a hard time going to sleep. I always use a lot of time, and 20 minutes is no exception. Especially with all the sound in the room. I was also a bit tense, 'waiting' for dreams to come to me, which of course was silly and just made it harder to sleep.

Anyways.. When falling to sleep I thought I heard someone in the kitchen. Someone using my plates for something, maybe eating? You know, the sound of such things being used. Previously, I thought I also had heard someone coming in through the back door, even though it was locked.

I got a little upset because of this, but decided not to go out of bed. It was probably something my mind made up. A little later, a man and a woman (don't remember faces, but the man was swedish) talked to me about the plates and the sounds, I don't remember what they said but it was somewhere along the line of "this is not a problem".

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All right, this I think is the first dream. A girl that used to be me and my girlfriends neighbour (let's call her Ida) and I were at her parents house for some reason (I have never been there in real life, in fact I've never really known her). We talked and enjoyed ourselves. Later, we sat together watching television, and I got my arms around her. She liked it, and it didn't take long before I held both arms around her, lying behind her. (The room was dark, the only items I remember were the sofa/bed we were sitting/lying on, a tall lamp and the small TV set, which I think was a rather old one.) Now, I have a girlfriend, so I sat there feeling some guilt but at the same time I liked holding her in my arms (we didn't make out, we just watched TV). Well, suddenly I got a huge erection. (BAM! and it was there..). I quickly withdrew myself, embarassed but at the same time thinking a bit dirty (I'm a guy after all and those things are uncontrollable ). A little later her mother came into the room, and they started talking about me having this erection, and how nice it was to have 'something big' (or they said something similar). I didn't really know how to react. It seemed they thought the situation was funny and in a way appreciated it.

Well, anyway, I think there was a play or something going on at the university, and that Ida should play in it. We were (or I was alone?) at the university, I talked to my father outdoors and he was angry for me having quit (or wanting to quit?) the school band (don't know the english word, but it's where you play instruments and march around in uniform). By the way, I'm a student now and I quit the school band about 10 years ago.

I was going to the metro station at the university. It was dark, like late evening (by the way, there was never any sunlight in the dream), and moisty air (not raining but almost). At the metro station (it is outdoors), I think my girlfriend waited for me somehow. Ida was there as well. I met a guy I went to primary school with, except he looked totally different. His face was all round, he had freckles around his nose, was blond and had shining blue eyes, and looked more like a doll. His facial skin was very tight and almost shiny. He smiled at me and was happy. I remember studying his face thoroughly and wondering how he had changed so dramatically. I could still se it was him though. When looking closer I also saw that he had a little mustache, and a little bit of african features (large lip standing out a bit). I thought it was strange that he had this mustache and also looked like a doll.

Ida was upset. She told me I had to choose between her and my girlfriend. She told me I was the only one for her, and that she knew we were meant to be together. I kind of liked it that she wanted me, but I asked her why I should leave my girlfriend when I barely knew her (Ida)? Ida was very upset. I can't remember choosing. I think the dream ended there.

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Later, it is daylight. I remember an old man sitting on the edge of a well. It was dry, and I think I was in a warmer country. We talked a little, and he asked me to follow him. I went down in a basement I think, and remember sitting by a computer. On my left high up on the wall I think there was a window where some sunlight came in. I was having a hard time at the computer, didn't know what I should do and striving to focus on the screen (Windows XP, very few if any icons on the desktop. The "Start" button was unusually large.). I remembered wondering what time it was, as I thought about when I should get out of bed. Strangely, that didn't make me realize that I was in fact dreaming. However, I kind of knew it. I knew I was dreaming, but I didn't dare try to convince myself too much, afraid it would ruin the dream. I started looking closer and closer at the time on the computer, but had problems reading the numbers. I remember reading something like '07:56', but it was difficult to focus. Then I thought that yes, I was dreaming, but I didn't do anything exciting. So maybe I should realize I was lucid and try to do something special. So I did, but the dream then started to slip. I tried to spin but it didn't work and I kind of woke up.


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I don't know if this happened before or after the last dream, but we were at the metro station by the university again, this time in daylight. We were

all waiting for the metro. We were a lot of people, and we didn't know if there would be enough space on the metro. The doll-guy was there, although a bit in the background. Then, a city-tram came and we jumped on. I don't know if we traveled or whatever, but apparently taking the tram was very wrong. Someone told us it was very wrong and that we should have taken the metro.

I don't really know if I took the tram myself, but that's were the focus was.


Also, during most of the night the back of my head was almost completely bald and it made me very sad. It also shocked me I hadn't noticed it coming. I was happy I had a girlfriend, and I thought that if I hadn't gotten her before the back of my head got bald, I would probably never have gotten a girlfriend.




Well, this was my first night with "brain sounds". Looking forward to doing it again tonight! Hehe