This will be my sanctuary, the place that bridges the gap from cruel reality to the sweet, soothing world of my mind...the only place where I can truly escape from the strict laws of the universe, the feelings of pain and cold, and the daze that has kept me from functioning.

Key
  • Regular dream mode (Navy)
  • Nightmare (DarkRed)
  • Lucidity (DarkOrange)
  • Dreamsigns (Navy)
  • Possible IRL triggers



Tuesday, February 12th

At first, I dreamt of a field trip. I went with Blake (my current boyfriend). I can't remember where. When we got back. I said goodbye to him and went to History. There was a test I didn't know about, or had forgotten about. My teacher told me I had to take it anyways, even though I hadn't read half the chapter. I argued with her for a bit but took it anyways. It was hard, and I was angry.

I remember also being in a locker room. There were many stalls with showers. I was somehow naked, waiting for someone to come out so I could shower. There were two halls at a ninety-degree angle from each other, one with the stalls, and one just a long hall leading to other rooms. I was at the corner. There were boys in my class down the hall that were looking at me, which was embarrassing, so I tried to cover up best I could. Around then, a girl came out of the nearest stall, but when I tried to get in, someone cut me off. I pushed them away and crawled in and took a shower.

When I got out, I was dressed and noticed two young boys wandering around inside the shower. I told them to get lost, because this was the girl's restroom. They argued with me.

Dreamsigns: Arguing, embarrassment, stress / forgetfulness.

Looking back on today's events (this was written in my physical journal after I woke up), I feel some sort of déja vu here. When waiting in line for the vending machine, a girl cut me off. And right after that, I said some bitchy things to some middle schoolers who wanted money for pizza.