Thread: Lady Grimbone's Dream Journal

Cool dream.....I like the painting...seems realistic

I wish I had dreams that were WORTH recalling. I hate these stupid ’normal’ dreams.

I am having a hard time living.

I am having a hard time because I know reality for what it really is and it is hard to live in a world with no real meaning and no substance.

Reality: two humans fuck and a baby is born. Baby lives, baby dies.

That is it.

Everything else is fantasy.

It is not wrong to kill, even to kill children. A diamond is worth no more than a rock in your driveway, any rock. The fantasy is that somehow children are special because they are children and a diamond is somehow better than any other rock.

It is not.

You only think kids are great because of your hormones telling you so so you’ll continue to care for the shitty creature.

Diamonds are only special because people need something to brag about or something to do to pass all this damn time so they make stuff up like this.

In reality, nothing is worth a damn. Nothing means anything. You don’t mean anything. Everything you love dies and that don’t mean anything and in the end even the universe will end and not be remembered by anyone.

So, there is no point to any of it.

It ain’t worth bothering about.

It ain’t worth working for.

It ain’t worth living and struggling, and suffering for.

I wish I could buy into a concept like other normal people and float around like as if in a dream or something. It would be easier to believe in something false than to try to get my ass out the bed every day/night to ’work’ for nothing.

Especially when at any moment it is all erased by death.

Fuck it all.

This ends this entry.

You know, I think like that too that's why im bored all the time, I keep thinking " what the hell is the point of this " when I am playing a game or whatever, I know reality for what it is, too , but I keep optimistic, you have to have an optimistic view on life if you want to actually get something out of it before you move on, you have to get out there more, make friends, get involved in stuff, and just try to find your passion, which I still havent found anything ( other than lucid dreaming, of course. ) that sparks the slightest amount of interest for me, but I know SOMETHING is out there, just waiting for me to discover it. You should look forward to things, not dread getting up every day, just TRY to find positive in the things you do.