Thread: Five by Five Lucid Journal of 5x5wolf

My first attempts at lucidity were in England. The place has a lot of history and stories. Especially ghost stories. I heard that lucid dreams can be an access to astral projection. At the time I started studying ways to do that. I remember other times I accidentally went lucid and decided to try to make myself feel like I did before I go lucid. Basically, so relaxed you can't move, then a sinking falling feeling while staying awake. Well I also believed my room was haunted...what happened next didn't do anything to alleviate my fears. I'm doing the exercises I developed on my own. Remember I didn't know anything about this site then, or about dream recall to tell the truth. This was back in 2003 or 2004. I'm sinking into oblivion and I can just 'feel' lucidity on the other side of this 'wall'. As I start gaining it, I grow extremely dizzy and I hear a rushing of water and air in my ears. My vision is completely dark except for this demonic face. It was completely white, almost transparent. Her hair was kinda scraggly looking and her mouth was full of super sharp teeth. She opened her mouth and, "STAY OUT!!!!!!" Became my entire world. It was in my ears, my eyes, my very being. At the same time it sounded like a loud screeching, like nails on a chalkboard. Then I felt like my very being was 'thrown' out back into reality. My experiments with lucidity were not very encouraging after that. I did not go lucid in my room again. For some reason when I wasn't there I would go lucid.
~5x5wolf~

Once again in England. I had maybe a little too much to drink. Absinthe, mixed with hard alcohols will do that to you. I pass out in a futon upstairs. I wake up in midfight against 5 opponents. As soon as I wake up, I decide it would be easier to take them in the air, so I fly up in the air. Well it turns out two of the guys I was fighting were saiyans. They go super and fly up too. I start fighting in earnest. As the other three jump up to join the fight, I lose my lucidity. I gain and lose my lucidity a number of times during this dream. For some reason every time I grow lucid, I can't throw my punches. It's like no matter how hard I punch or kick, something is holding back my hits, so that when I impact, no damage is done. It wasn't a fun fight. I wake up in the morning feeling like I have no rest at all. It turns out that my sleep paralysis never kicked in either. My friends tell me I was kicking and punching, yelling and crying out all night in my sleep. They were all too afraid to come near me to wake me up.
~5x5wolf~

I started messing with lucidity again in Korea. Again I was trying to access astral projection. I become lucid in my room. It was a definite WILD. I decide I want to check on one of my friends. A korean friend of mine. I keep her in my mind and fly up into the night air...wondering...if I can make it to Washington from here. I see her...sort of...but it was more like in my dream minds eye. I wasn't allowed to see her. I suddenly teleport beside a basketball/tennis court. I wonder if I have like the worst control of anybody that ever become lucid. Random things happen and it seems I have no control of them. Anyway I'm in this society. I look around. It seems so real. I start walking trying to get somebody's attention. Nobody seems to notice me. It's like I'm a ghost. I can even walk through people. I get the vague sense that this is the future. Everything is so peaceful. I don't feel any violence emanating from anywhere. I'm teleported again. This random teleportation is very annoying...especially since I'm lucid. I'm on top of this giant white dome. There's a building up there. Wait...I've been here in a dream before. I remember this place as one of the places that I've died at. Not cool. It wasn't a peaceful death either. As soon as I realize this an elder man steps out of the building. He's dressed in purple. A futuristic purple. Again I'm less than pleased because it is very reminiscent of the uniform of the people who killed me here. He seems to be giving out a peaceful vibe though. So I go with him. I lose lucidity before I get there. The dream takes me into a high tech war.
~5x5wolf~