Thread: atlantic's dream journal

Pigeon flies overhead carrying a dead crow, partially decomposed (almost white with black feather stubs), pieces fall on some fruit in crates on a stand and over myself and the people I am talking to.

Very dirty bathroom stalls, on platform with wooden door, go into one and get shit on my hand, then bump face to face into a black guy with a straggly beard (and rastas?) who is inside, apologize and back out. Worried about cleaning my hand. He insists he is not taking long.

Book about design and problems of state social security systems. Sitting next to other guy at the back of a classroom. Do not have to take this class and am intending to get out, but young female teacher comes around and invites me to sit down and start doing exercises. I read through book in a hurry as I am behind the others.

Long talk with someone about my education, and possibility of doctorate.

Discussion about interest rates in Portugal while stuck in the back of a kind of flying car with young guy and other people. He says he has the impression I am rich because of a brand of car I mentioned during the conversation.

Landscape of almost hemispherical hills with clumps of vegetation, and some buildings at the bottom.

Conversation with Pascal?

In ND, next to a field watching rabbits, and deep in the forest watching an owl fly by. Having trouble focussing my eyes in the gloom.

Escape from British Museum. Fearful of being caught, have stolen something? Getaway through back stairs, past guards, through Sikh's shop, then out into street and mixing with crowd on pavement. Another family in street with several children, all dressed in two pieces of different colour; they take them off and have same clothes underneath with colours reversed. Sticking together with some other people who are friends.

Ship lasting until millenium.

Ford Focus.

Hugh Hefner type house. Guy playing tricks on another by persuading him to do impossible things.

Helping lady to get through construction zone in motorway, covered by couple of planks. I carry my motorcycle, then hers. Somebody being mistreated by two female policemen. Poking him in stomach with empty plastic bottles during arrest. I am also policeman and tell them I am going to denounce them. They call me a snitch. Inside locker-room type place.

Am inside house. Guy and professional assistants are engaged in professional discussion over something. I also start participating, and they begin to take me seriously.

Palm tree on left and black obelisk on right, on flat clifftop facing sea. Strong sunlight.

Car sales stand.

Apple tree on left and "black grimoire tree" on right in forest, black tree with small black hanging rectangular plates. "Use one for wish fulfilment on other". For sexual problems.

Talking to Sof via internet, and her 3D image materializes over a sofa, a bit out of focus. I try to touch it, and feel some resistance in the air. I ask her (talking to the computer behind me) if she can feel anything, but she says no. The image becomes completely solid and I stroke her face. There is a moment of distraction, and then she is no longer there, instead it is something like a cushion.

Friendly karate competition against my son N. I am doing warm-up, frontal and sideways splits, then sitting with feet together and opening knees sideways.

He is already in ring in some kind of sparring gear. I insist on calling off fight because he has to be fresh for real fight in US the next day. The place is like a boxing ring, but it is tilted way off the horizontal and is also not really touching the floor. Impression of a lot of people beneath it. "He is often shut up in his shell".

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Before going to sleep, decided to concentrate on a particular personal problem, asking what the solution was. Then went to sleep with WILD technique, counting 1 - I am dreaming, 2 - I am dreaming, up to 25 and starting over. The idea was to have a dream to give me a solution to my problem. Instead, I woke up with a clear solution, or at least a clear idea of the cause, and of how I could relate the solution to dreams I had had on previous nights. I felt certain the view of the problem that appeared in my head was the right one. I will continue to investigate this on the following nights.

Went to sleep exceptionally early, around 10. Woke up around 3, no dream memories at all, but felt rested; took a shower (actually remembered to do a reality check after shower), washed teeth, read a little and returned to sleep. Tried to concentrate on same problem as yesterday, and started counting as yesterday that it was a dream as I was going to sleep. This repetition that "I am dreaming" hundreds of times seems to work even if it does not result in WILD.

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Driving a bus, pass by a lake and see a large fish, perhaps a dolphin, turn the bus around and now see a whole school of big fish jumping in and out of the water. I am now sitting next to my mother and we see a number of fish on the grass on an island sitting around on top of each other, some upside down, some leaning their heads on their flippers. She says that it can't be true. I realize I am dreaming, I thank her a lot, and try to persuade her that she is dreaming too, but she does not believe me. I tell her to look at her hands but she does so perfunctorily. I insist and I look at my hands to show her, and they start shifting, plus they have six fingers. I feel very happy but lose consciousness for a moment.

Next scene I am walking up a steep street in darkness behind a little boy, and I remember I am dreaming, so I decide that as a task I will treat him as a dream guide and follow him. We reach a wooden door with no handle, and I can hear voices inside. I push the door hard with a cry but it does not open. I also feel a little frightened of what is behind it. So instead I follow the boy to the right and up a flight of unlit stairs to a room paved in flagstones, which is being swept by an attractive redheaded girl in a kind of peasant dress. I think that I would like to see this girl stripping, and look away, and when I look again she has become a life-sized rag doll with no face and a kind of mop of hair, and she is indeed stripping. I move away quickly into the room, and a young man who I take to be her brother presents himself and shakes hands. The dream starts breaking up as I move my (real) foot. I try spinning but it is too late and I wake up.

Normal dream.

Scene in which Rod pees on my foot, inside a bus. I see he is wearing shorts but no diaper, and complain to his mother about this, but she gives some excuse or other.

Scene in which I was ***. Then had a false awakening in which I tried this again but saw it was physically impossible and told myself I had been dreaming. Tell myself that I had missed that obvious dream sign.

Am with Sof and children in a kind of museum space. Remember one scene in which we arrive in a room where the floor is a huge water reservoir five or six metres down, reached by a metal ladder attached to the wall. She and the kids go down and swim across. I am hesitating whether to take my clothes off and make a bundle to avoid getting them wet. But I end up following them and swimming across fully dressed. I climb out on the other side and notice I am not wet at all, and tell myself I must be dreaming. I think I had a moment of lucidity here, maybe longer, but I don't remember.

Am in a kind of zoo or park, close to a café, seeing animals on top of a narrow wall. Each animal gets up on its hind legs, lifts its arms and head back in a theatrical pose, and then topples over and dies; they keep piling up at the base of the wall, some twitching. Initially there are only some long-haired brown rats, but after also a kind of beavers. I am commenting with a waiter standing next to me that there is rat poison around and it is killing all kinds of animals, but he is dismissive. At this point I become lucid.

Second LD. Become lucid, and decide to look for a woman to have sex. Go into a building, up staircase. On the stairs I look at the detailsof the woodwork and try to increase my dream body consciousness, and indeed this increases the reality of the dream. Hear activity behind a door, and tell myself that there will be a beautiful woman in there. I knock and an attractive woman, brunette of around 30 wearing an apron, opens - the space is a kitchen. I say hello, the embrace and kiss her. I make sure I do not lose sight of her so that she does not change. She is pleasantly surprised, speaking French, but does not really put up any resistance. I start having sex with the woman on the floor; the sensation is good but not very sexual, but she seems to enjoy it. Then I seem to find myself alone on the floor lying face down on top of some newspapers and pieces of cardboard, which I am trying to clear up. A guy comes in and tells me to move as I am blocking access to a door on my right. I wake up.

Dream in which my ex-boss Gau had hired me again. Ced was also there. He asked me to write out a kind of shopping list of IT material, and was correcting me as usual. I had to tell him to slow down as I had trouble getting the pen to write.

The main conclusion from lucid dreams today is:
- going to sleep early has a massive impact
- waking up and going back to sleep fresh is good
- going to sleep repeating "I am dreaming" with a count works
- if you go into a LD with a clear objective, you can avoid losing consciousness until it is attained
- take the time to focus on the detail of your body and surroundings in order to increase reality of dream and anchor yourself better

Went to sleep early again, at 11.

Looking for property for sale near Sag. Sort of sardine factory with two roofless houses. Thinking about tiling and furnishing them differently according to their function. I have a flashback in the dream that my family rejected this house years earlier when returning from UK.

Saud in dream somewhere.

Scene with me and Sof in rowing boat. Idea is for me to take another boat and row along the coast back to Lag. We stop the boat close to the margin near house with jetty (place now looks like river house in Mil). House seems to be missing closest wall and is full of blacks. Sof strips down to change clothes but I tell her to be careful because of large black woman that is passing.

Wake up around 5 am, take short break to wake up and read. Too awake, have trouble getting back to sleep. Eventually fall asleep after doing "I am dreaming" count for quite a while.

False awakening. Hear cat on stairs scratching at a door for a long time. Then have impression that cat is inside room and jumps on my head, stifling me. Then have impression of understanding that there was false awakening and of having short lucid dream, merging into normal dream, but cannot remember any of it, except being conscious of my dream body and walking in a place with a lot of light.