BossBadger's Dreams

**BossBadger** · 09-05-2009 02:27 PM

Hi everyone! I am putting my first entry here, but I'll introduce myself elsewhere on the forum when I find the appropriate spot.

Last night's dreams were sort of jumbled and I only remember bits and pieces, so this will probably not be a very good or interesting entry..

The name 'Von Kamp' came up for some reason, as well as another name which I think was an anagram, but I can't remember it

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In one dream or part of a dream, I was online and was on some kind of website where you draw pictures with your mouse, but I discovered that I could do it with my mind. Well, sort of. I kept trying to make pornographic pictures (I don't know why!) but the drawings kept coming out as very simple line drawings, with really ugly people.

While all of this was happening, it occurred to me that I was dreaming but I blew it. For some reason I was convinced that if I got up from the chair I would no longer be dreaming. I even sat and thought about spinning to stay in the dream but I was rooted to my chair.

**BossBadger** · 09-07-2009 02:30 PM

I'll start with the dream that I had that was similar to the other one, even though it took place in the middle of the series of dreams last night.

Once again, I was sitting in front of the computer. I had had a false awakening and was thinking about lucid dreaming and WILD and all the stuff I had read on the forums earlier. I sat in front of the computer and closed my eyes for a second and a voice said 'There you go..you're dreaming'. Of course at the time I thought it was some kind of WILD (still reading on here and learning exactly what that is) so I was very excited. A blank screen appeared on the monitor and I tried to get up, but could not. I wanted to do things but I was again rooted to the chair. I tried to actually talk out loud and say 'Hey, I'm dreaming!' but it just came out as a very strained whisper. So I started trying to make things appear on the screen. Last time it was very simple drawings so this time I tried to make some live-action porn (I know, I'm working on it, as you'll see later). First it was a cartoon, but I blinked and made the characters into real people. Unfortunately I still couldn't make them look exactly how I wanted, or get them to do exactly what I wanted, and the scenarios they were in kept changing. Then it occurred to me that I needed to do something cooler than creating subpar porn. Unfortunately I still could not move from my chair. Dream ends.

The other two dreams that I had were non-lucid and I'm kicking myself about it now. The first one was very vague and involved a smashed cellphone. The phone was flattened in a very comical way, although it would still work a little bit. I spent most of the dream running around a building and trying to find someone to take me to get a new phone (I had no car for some reason).

The second dream had a dream sign that I should have caught, and that is people from highschool showing up in the dream, as well as my late father showing up. This happens very frequently and I'm not sure why I never catch it. We were back in my hometown and there was some kind of festival going on. I was walking through an alleyway with my dad and we were sharing a joint. It was a very sunny day. Then we were standing in line at some kind of booth and I saw two of my guy friends from high school on a motorcycle. Their hair was comical and it almost looked like they were wearing long blond wigs. One of them had a Fleet Foxes sticker on the side of his hat, and I went over and started asking him about the concert. He told me how great it was, then he said 'If you saw me there, you wouldn't even recognize me' and I said 'Yeah, I can imagine'. Then some other people were talking about how bad the cops were there and that they were arresting people left and right. I started to get anxious about my dad carrying weed around.

I got to the front of the line at the booth and it was a tiki bar type of thing..similar to one that I go to often that is outside at a square where I live, even the same bartender. I had a list of names and what drinks people liked. Apparently it was my job to gather drinks for everyone. Then it occurred to me that there was no way possible that I could carry that many drinks.

**BossBadger** · 09-07-2009 08:05 PM

Tried to do some WILD this afternoon..I think I was getting fairly close because I was having all those sensations of wanting to move and twitch and I started to hear some beeping in my right ear. Unfortunately the first time I swallowed and it messed me up, and then the next time I had to cough. Guess I need a lot more work.

I had a non-lucid where I was in a sort of computer lab inside a mall. I was doing something there involving applying for a college program (I am applying for a program in a couple of weeks that I'm hoping to get into IRL) and the person there told me that only one other person had signed up for the info session and I may have to wait until next year if more people didn't sign up.

I continued doing some kind of paperwork and noticed a guy who used to be involved with a friend of mine sitting across the room. I said hello and went right back to my paperwork. Then I saw a film strip being played on the wall..it was a video of two of my high school acquaintances..sort of frolicking around together and I got the impression that a proposal was happening or something. I commented on how sweet it was and what a cute couple they were. These two people never actually associated in real life and weren't super close friends.

GAAH it seems like my subconscious is trying to give me dream signs and clues all over the place and I'm missing them!

**BossBadger** · 09-08-2009 05:04 PM

I had a lucid dream last night, but I woke up immediately after discovering it was a dream, even though I rubbed my hands together and tried to focus. I was sitting in a bathroom stall that looked like it was in my old high school. So frustrating!

I had another dream that was non-lucid that was very disturbing. I was in a house with my late father and my mother and I had 3 younger siblings (I have no younger siblings IRL). My dad lined up the siblings and my mother on a bed and shot and killed all of them. I ran away and ended up at the house of an old high school friend out in the country while I waited for them to catch my dad. The neighbor told me that they had found out after they were killed that my mom had stomach cancer. The whole dream was very upsetting.

**BossBadger** · 09-12-2009 08:06 PM

Just had two awesome LDs while taking a nap..FINALLY!

First I have to say what worked..the finger through the hand did not no matter how many times I tried. It very nearly tripped me up. So I tried the nose pinch and could still breathe! Then I tried to slowly fly up and that worked too, so I was then positive I was dreaming.

In the first one I was on my porch and dh had just come home. Everything looked exactly the same, but then I noticed his hair looked shorter. As soon as I said that it changed though, so it looked like it normally does, and I thought it was just a trick of light or something, so I said 'I think this is a dream, your hair doesn't look right. I should RC.' So I tried the finger through the hand and it did not work. I said 'Oh man, I look like an asshole. I can't believe I thought I was dreaming..' but then I decided to try the nose pinch, and I could still breathe. Dh kept trying to tell me I wasn't though, so I grabbed the door frame and slowly began to levitate and fly around the porch. I was then positive I was dreaming.

He said something about going to see the horses down the road, so I decided to fly down there. I started slowly up the road flying, and he told me I was going too slow. (why is he always trying to sabotage?

) I told him that if I went too fast I was going to lose lucidity. I flew slowly towards the first turn in the road and then I decided to walk..I rubbed my hands together and kept saying "stay lucid, stay lucid" out loud to make everything appear clearer.

I managed to make the horses appear closer and then I was next to them petting them when a bear showed up. He roared angrily but I knew he couldn't hurt me. There was a girl with him that I don't know irl that explained to me that the bear was injured. I told the bear to lie down and I saw that he had a paw injury and one leg was badly skinned. The bear was talking. I put my hand over his wounds and they healed.

I then had a FA but did the nose pinch again and was back in a similar dream..only now the woman and I were in a house with a man who had some kind of horrible health condition, I ran my hands over his body and was healing things one by one. I then decided I wanted to do something else, so I told the DC girl that I would return to help in the future.

The next LD began with me sitting outside a farmhouse in a very desolate, flat plain. I was on the porch with a male DC and we were just talking. Suddenly there were giant dinosaur-like creatures flying overhead and I realized immediately that I was dreaming. I leaped into the air and started making screeching noises at the dinosaur-birds, but I couldn't get them to come back. I then went went back to the porch and made out with the guy for a while, but I told myself that I need to do something better with my dream and decided to take him flying. We went all over, seeing the plains from above. There were lots of pink flowers and a huge rainbow. Then the dream faded and I went into another dream where I was on a beach. I did try to have sex in this one, unfortunately as per usual I could never get the guys to look the way I wanted to, but I still did it. It was pretty frustrating in general, so I flew back to the house from the last dream and found the first guy. I asked him if he wanted to be my 'dream boyfriend' (hahaha!) and he agreed. We then went to another room in the house and I saw the girl DC from the very first LD and healed some more creatures. Sexytimes with the 'dream boyfriend'..then I woke up (for real).

**BossBadger** · 09-13-2009 03:24 PM

Non LDs last night, and they were generally pretty disjointed and fuzzy, so I'm not sure what was part of one dream and what was part of another.

In one dream I was in school..it was sort of like my old college but later it morphed into my high school. For some reason my dh was tagging along and I was wanting to show him how hard the classes were and be a show-off, I guess. I had a music class and it was embarrassingly easy. I can't remember a lot about it except that the teacher was not one of my former teachers, she was an older, heavyset lady with glasses, and her lessons were like elementary school lessons, and I was bored.

Later the dream morphed into one of those where you realize you haven't been to several classes in a semester, and you can't remember your schedule and you're running around trying to find a class so at least you won't fail all of them. I was trying to go to a health class and I went to the wrong part of the building where the nurse's office was. Except it was more like an outpatient surgery center in the school. There was a sign on one of the doors that said 'Preop room for Surgery on Lady Parts'. Haha! I got pissed off that they worded it that way, thinking how silly it was that they weren't using proper names for students. I went into another room and they told me that they had moved the class (by this time it had morphed into a home ec class) and I suddenly remembered that the class was now taking place in the room where I used to take Latin in high school. I ran up there and walked in a few minutes late.

Everyone was sitting around tables and the teacher was talking and suddenly her sentences morphed into a song and everyone started singing along. Apparently this had happened before in other classes, because one of the other students said to me 'That's it, I really think Kanye is funding this school or something'. I agreed and laughed. I mentioned that I didn't even listen to that kind of music generally, and a kid in front of me said that he preferred AC/DC. I told him that I liked them too and had wanted to go to their concert but couldn't find anyone to go with me, and asked him if he would like to go. He then kind of hemmed and hawed and I tried to explain that he wouldn't have to ride with me or anything, I could follow him in my car or something. Then he sort of wandered off and I was disappointed.

In another dream I was living in some kind of boarding house (I have these dreams a lot too, I think it has something to do with staying in hostels a lot in the past) and there were these snobby girls there. One of them looked like a girl I used to go to high school with. There were a bunch of boring girl magazines laying around, kind of like the ones I used to read when I was 12 or 13 (Seventeen, that kind of thing). They were all old magazines and I was just sort of flipping through them when I farted. The snobby girls all started talking about how gross it was and I kept apologizing but eventually I just ignored them. Then one of the other girls started talking about how I stink and I really need to get this certain deodorant. She showed me an ad for it, it looked like a men's deodorant and it had a really funny one-word name, but I can't remember it

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I sort of surreptitiously smelled my pits and I didn't think I stunk,but by then I was self-conscious and pissed off. Right about that time someone came in and told me that a kid had been in a bike accident and they needed me to go help. I was happy to get out of there and excited to help out. I looked out the window and saw a crowd gathering around a kid so I ran down the stairs and to the scene.

The kid had a mental disability, I think. He was fighting and struggling and his speech was impaired so it was hard to tell if it was from the accident or not. They were trying to strap him on a backboard and another boy (his brother) who also seemed disabled was screaming at us to stop. There was also another boy who was much younger being held by one of the ambulance personnel. I told them I had come to help but they said that I was pretty much too late and there wasn't much I could do but watch. When I first looked at the kid on the backboard it looked like he had drill holes around his head, and so did the other kids. Kind of like he had been wearing a surgical halo. But then I noticed all of the kids had marks all over them and that it was actually impetigo or something.
I started to walk back to the boarding house with this guy and we were talking about how the kids were obviously neglected and possibly abused, he said he had seen scars on one of them also. We were both hoping the parents would be arrested right away.
On the way back upstairs I suddenly noticed I had deodorant in my hand, I decided I better go change and put some on in case I still stunk. I told the guy walking with me that the girls there were a bunch of bitches and I was not going to hang around them any more. He asked me why but I wouldn't elaborate.

I was in a sort of bunkroom getting ready to change but I couldn't manage to really pull the curtain. There were clothes and things hanging on one side of the doorway and I tried to stretch them and hook them on the other side, but I just ended up with a little strip of fabric covering the door. A little girl who was staying there came and told me she needed to talk to me. I told her I would in just a minute once I changed my clothes. I also realized that I needed to pack because I would be leaving and I had clothes all over the room.
Just then another older girl came and asked the little one for her keys. The little one reminded her that she hadn't danced for them in a while (? this part doesn't make sense now). She said that she wasn't even sure if they were allowed to dance anymore.

I remember a small fragment of a dream where the side of my face went numb, I looked at myself in a mirror to see if my face was distorted and I had big, red lips.

In another dream I was in a fancy restaurant with some other people (can't remember who) and I had some kind of seasoned chicken breasts. There were 2 pieces of chicken and I put one on a side plate while I ate the other, and the waitress took it away. Everyone else was ordering dessert and I was still arguing with this woman about my chicken. I thought she would give me a free dessert but she just kind of blew me off. It pissed me off. The chicken was really good in the dream, though.

**BossBadger** · 09-14-2009 06:13 PM

Another lucid and a half last night!!

It started out that I was working in a daycare in the city I used to live in. There was a little girl there who was known for being a brat and the other employees said that I needed to take her home. I didn't mind because she was generally pretty good for me. We were walking out of the building down a long hallway towards a parking garage. There was woman walking ahead of us to show the way. It was dark outside and there were big plate-glass windows lining the hall. I think we were on a pretty high floor. I happened to glance at my reflection in the glass and I noticed it was all distorted, and I said 'Hey, I'm dreaming!!' I said 'See ya!' to the woman and I went face first through the window. (first time I've ever passed through a wall or window). I flew up over the city. The sky was clear and there were lots of stars. I started to get higher and higher without really being able to control it. The city looked beautiful. I could see all the lights from the buildings and the bridges. Eventually I got so high that it almost looked like a satellite photo.
I decided that I wanted to come down and go to the house of a former boyfriend and see what he was up to. I descended too fast, however, and I don't think my brain could keep up. I skimmed across the water on my stomach and when I hit land it sort of morphed into a flat area with a bunch of teeny Monopoly hotels instead of houses. I slid into them and knocked them all over.
Somehow I managed to squeeze my eyes shut and open them again and I ended up on the street close to the former boyfriend's house. I rubbed my hands together and said 'STAY LUCID!' several times, and then I started noticing the details of the scene around me. It was night but there was a streetlight illuminating the park where I was standing, and it was reflecting off various flowers and leaves on the trees. Quite beautiful.
I tried to fly again but kept jumping and couldn't get off the ground, so I decided to just walk in superspeed to the house. I got there and for some reason I believed that nobody could see me..it was almost like I thought I was an astral body or something. I went to the door of the house and could see in through a storm door. The old boyfriend was doing some kind of house renovation, standing on a ladder and messing around with tools or something. His new girlfriend came in and she looked familiar. She had some kind of ID sticking out of her purse and I saw her name. I decided to fuck with them since they couldn't see me, so I started unlatching the door and the windows and pushing them open. He'd come over and relatch them and get pissed off.
A blond woman suddenly appeared at the door and asked me what I was doing there. I told her that she wasn't supposed to be able to see me. She said 'I can see all the dreamers, I'm in charge of them'. Then she called behind her and a group of girls came out. They were all 'dreamers'. Some of them looked like cartoon characters and some of them looked normal. They all seemed to be a bit younger than me. They came out the door and started running around the city, raising hell. I followed and had a bit of trouble flying again, eventually I managed to grab the top of a fence and sort of push myself up, after which I was levitated and then flying again without a problem. Suddenly a small male elf appeared. That's the word that came to mind, anyway. He was short and bald and had strange ears and reddish-black skin. He said 'Dylan's in trouble!' and one of the 'dreamers' said 'She felt his empty curtains.' (???) So they were all then on a mission to 'save Dylan'. I got bored however and didn't really feel like doing it, and the dream faded.
I was next back in my childhood home, in the backyard. It was morning and I noticed that the grass was very green and wet with dew. I was barefoot and I wiggled my toes and started walking through the dewy grass, relishing how good it felt. Then the phone woke me up.

**BossBadger** · 09-15-2009 04:26 PM

Non-lucid last night that made me wake up in a bad mood.

I'll preface by giving a little background..the ex (I'll call him C) in the dream was someone who dumped me out of the blue and I had a pretty hard time getting over..

So it starts with my mother and I driving around in my hometown. There is some kind of flea market going on and there is also a big pavilion set up where people are eating and stuff. She decided to stop and pulled over across the road from the pavilion, and I saw C there. I started to panic and told her to get back in the car because I didn't want him to see me. She ignored me, however, and got out of the car. I sat in the car and waited and I noticed that he spotted me.

Soon after a younger guy (probably 16 and dressed like a skater) came over to the car and said 'Uh, hey! You used to go out with C, right?' I said yes. He said 'Man, why did you guys break up? You're pretty hot.' (ahh DC's). I said that I had nothing to do with it, that C dumped me because 'he didn't want to grow up and would rather live at home with mommy and act like a 12-year old'. Later we were driving over a bridge and I said something like 'it wasn't me, it was that whore' and I saw a flash of a picture of Angelina Jolie. What's weird about this is that I don't think AJ is a whore or a homewrecker. I had a slight suspicion that C may be getting involved with an older woman at the time of our breakup though, so I guess that's where it came from.

The dream then moved forward to some kind of boarding house (another recurring theme). I was there with a couple of close female friends and there were also some guys staying there. I went into a room and C was there. I was prepared to tell him off and be angry but when I saw him I just felt sad and wanted him back. I excused myself to the bathroom because I did not want to cry in front of him or show him that I cared. The girls came into the bathroom with me and said they were going to talk to one of the other guys and have him talk to C. At no point in the dream did C actually speak a single word to me or to anyone else within earshot.

Anyway it was a bit fuzzy, but this other guy told him that I still liked him or something to that effect. He then came back and said that C told him it was all my fault, and 'I wasn't the one that sunk that ship'. WTF?? I was pretty pissed when I heard that, and I said that it was never my fault, and he dumped ME.

Don't remember anything after that, but I woke up grumpy.

**BossBadger** · 09-18-2009 04:46 PM

Very disjointed non-lucid dreams last night, and I had a hard time recalling them. I think it's due to general stress.

I also woke up and wrote some stuff down, then couldn't find it in the morning. I was pissed that maybe I had an FA again, but then I found it..I had written entirely over the top of my last dream!

guess I better remember to turn the notebook page tonight.

Anyway, what I can remember took place in the city I used to live in. The entire dream I felt pretty lonely and isolated. It just seemed like I was walking forever, looking for someone, and the street was deserted. When I did run into people, they ignored me.

In another part of my dream, my mom showed up, and we were eating somewhere. A man came and said to my mom 'Hey, I know you. Didn't you come by my restaurant earlier?' She said no. Then later in the dream when I was alone he pulled up next to me in a cab and said 'Yeah, I know for sure that was your mom. She must have needed a cheeseburger.' I was trying to figure out why my mom just didn't tell me she'd already eaten.

Later I came upon a booth that had several dogs from various animal shelters. There was a friendly greyhound and some poodles in a box and a bunch of other dogs. The people representing the various places were seated at a long table with the dogs in front of them. I was going down the line petting the dogs and one of the women said 'Are going to take one or not? You can't just stand here and pet them and waste our time'. So I just felt despondent again and wandered off.

**BossBadger** · 09-19-2009 04:19 PM

Shitty dream recall and no lucids again last night...

In one dream I was back in my hometown, and both my parents were there. I noticed that my abdomen looked uneven..so I put my hand on on side and felt a lump. Well, at first it was a lump. Then it started to move around and felt like a worm. EWWW!! I spent the rest of the dream freaking the hell out and trying to get to a hospital ER to have them figure out what was wrong with me. Trying to remember the last time I ate sushi...
Ugh. I'm still grossed out.

**BossBadger** · 09-19-2009 08:53 PM

Another naptime lucid dream, this time I completed one of the tasks of the month!

I had an FA where I woke up and had a cat laying on me. I don't have a cat, so it triggered my lucidity almost immediately. I picked the cat up and headed out the door and flew downtown.
I decided that I had better stop and stabilize so I sat down in the grass in a little park and set the cat down. It was then that I realized it was my cat from childhood, who died when I was around 18. I was very happy to see her..I sat and pet her for a while and talked to her but she didn't respond, she just purred.

I put the cat on my shoulder and looked up at the trees, when I remembered the Task of the Month. I decided I was going to make the leaves fall off and go back up. I chose a tall tree with lots of leaves. It looked like a maple tree with the leaves in full fall color, oranges and yellows. I made a breeze blow up just by thinking about it. I waved my hands around in front of the tree, sort of like 'jazz hands'

and the leaves all fell off and drifted to the ground. Then I created another breeze, waved my hands from the ground to the tree, and the leaves went back up and settled back onto the branches. So cool!

I thought about doing the other task (finding an apple and a teacher) but I could not remember if I could do the same in one dream, so I decided to do something else instead. I was standing next to a mailbox (the big blue ones) so I decided I'd try to pass through it.

I walked up to it and tried to walk right through it, but it didn't budge. So I tried leaning my weight against it and gradually I passed through the outside of it. I took a step in and I could feel the mail inside swishing around

. I pushed through and stepped out the other side.

Next I noticed a set of monkey bars in the park that had a big hole cut out of the top. I decided I would climb up to the top of the dome and then hover over the empty hole.

First try, I failed. I got to the top and stepped over the hole and dropped to the ground. So I tried floating up from the ground. I floated up until I was near the top and then I stepped out and hovered. I yelled 'YEAH! 'Cause I'm DREAMING, bitches!'

but the people walking around didn't pay any attention.

All this time the cat was still on my shoulder. I decided to fly around a little. When I first took off the cat was kind of scared, but I talked to her and she calmed down. I flew by a big building and was thinking of what to do, then I woke up.

**BossBadger** · 09-26-2009 02:24 AM

Nothing much to report..I've had poor dream recall the past few days. I had a very, very short lucid last night. Here's all I remember:

I am in a room with a man being interviewed about something, it's incredibly boring. I suddenly realize I am dreaming. The entire room starts to disappear as I say "I'm dreaming". I immediately yelled 'Clarity now!!' and started rubbing my hands together while simultaneously looking at the window. The man kept talking and I said 'I need to get out of here, I have to go visit the Pyramid (TotY). Then everything disintegrated and I woke up. Grrr.

**BossBadger** · 09-26-2009 04:07 PM

I went lucid last night, but I remembered very little of when I woke up

. I was outside my house, it was dark and the air felt cool on my arms. I rubbed my hands together and gained clarity..then the next thing I remember is being in a different house with a group of people from DV. There were four guys but I can't remember who they all were, only that mrdeano was there because I said 'Oh, you're mrdeano!'. Then I walked around the kitchen and was talking about how 'paying attention to the environment' helps you stay lucid

. I picked up a teapot from the stove.

The other dream I had was non-lucid. I was at my mom's house, but she lived in a sort of townhouse/apartment building. There were several interconnected homes with a very long community back porch. The back porches were separated by screen doors. I went on the back porch of my mom's and found TONS of kittens and cats. There were like 12 kittens of various ages and 3 or 4 adult cats. Someone had dumped them there. There were also two children, a boy of about 3 or 4 and a younger girl.

I was brushing the cats and kittens and removing fleas. Two of them were tiger kittens with big, round heads. They were very cute. I picked one up to show my mom and when I sat him back down he started rolling around grotesquely on the floor and I thought he was having a seizure. Then a few minutes later he seemed fine.

I started knocking on doors of to see if anyone knew where they came from. One woman was very rude and acting like a real bitch. I went back to my mom's and told her to start calling animal shelters about the kittens and Child Protective Services about the children.

There was a picnic on the back porch of one of the houses and everyone was there eating. The little boy who had been abandoned was at the long table getting himself a drink and the bitch from earlier in the dream started giving me shit about it, saying 'You aren't even watching that boy! He's over there getting a drink!' I said 'SO? He's not hurting anything!' and then I picked him up and brought him back to my mom's. He was hugging my legs and looking upset and I told my mom what a bitch that woman was to him. Then I told the boy that he didn't do anything wrong and not to worry about the 'mean lady'.

**BossBadger** · 10-02-2009 05:20 AM

I was lucid immediately in this dream. I was standing in a bathroom, next to a table that is beside the shower and near a window. It was pretty dim and dark inside.

The Food Channel was on when I was napping so I could hear it in my dream. Apparently they were making a cake, because a cake appeared and I decided to eat it. It was huge, the size of a large sheet cake, and blue. I sort of folded it up so that I could pick it up with both hands. I tried to change the color of it. I squinted and concentrated but I only succeeded in turning the wall yellow.

I ate the cake, and it was delicious, although the texture was a little off..really light and fluffy, almost like cotton candy texture.

I decided to try one of the Tasks of the Month and scare a DC. I imagined someone in the shower and snuck up and pulled the curtain back really fast and yelled 'BOO!'. But there was nobody there.

I flew out the window and was on an unfamiliar street. It was quite sunny and there were several houses that looked sort of like townhomes..the whole street was on a hill. I saw a guy standing on one of the balconies and thought the sight of me flying around would scare him, so I flew over and said 'I AM A GHOST!!' and he just stood there. I said 'Aren't you scared?' and he said 'Nah, you have to do better than that'. Damn it!

I made out with the guy anyway and ended up having sex with him in his apartment, about halfway through I thought 'damn, I should have done something else. I hope this doesn't wake me up...' then I woke up.

**BossBadger** · 10-09-2009 03:40 AM

I had a series of three fairly vague dreams over the past few days, none of them lucid

. Really hoping to get a TOTM done soon and hopefully move on to a TOTY.

Dream #1: I was at some kind of campground with my dad, and we were floating in innertubes down a river in a wooded area. At a bend in the river we came upon my brother and his kids..that's all I remember.

Dream #2: I am staying in a motel of some type. There are several people around, like some kind of convention. I'm working in the bakery of the place, and I'm told that they only wash their hands every 90 days. I freak out over this and demand to know how this could possibly be acceptable..I ask them if they don't even wash after using the bathroom and they admit that they don't. I walk out disgusted and head to the lawn of a Hilton further down the street. There are lots of people around, including 2 guys who were very tall (unnaturally so) as well as my ex. I tell them about the bakery and they don't seem surprise and say it's pretty common in that state. I continue going on and on about how disgusting it is.

Dream #3: I am working in a hospital that looks a lot like one I used to go to as a kid. I go out to lunch with the doctor and some other doctors and when I come back the receptionist tells me that there is a man waiting and he's pissed because he's been there a long time. The doctor is still not there so I go in the room and reassure the patient that we've just been really busy (even though this isn't the case) and that he'll be in as soon as possible. I then set out to find him somewhere, but I am sidetracked by some med students. We start joking around and talking smack about the doctors and their long lunch breaks. We're riding some sort of trolley through the halls of the hospital. I'm getting more and more anxious about the patient waiting but I'm really excited that the med students think that I'm 'one of them'. I get off the trolley and one of the med students shows me some kind of trick using a pen light and having me clench my hands and move them in different ways so the light shines through my fingers oddly. I realize I have a joint in my fist and at the end of the little parlor trick the med student drops one on the ground in a little box. I tell him I already have some weed that the doctor gave me earlier and we all laugh.
I head back to the office and the receptionist is there but the lights are off and she tells me everyone else has left, including the angry patient. I apologize and tell her that I couldn't find the doctor and she tells me not to worry about it.

**cygnus** · 10-09-2009 05:45 AM

Originally Posted by BossBadger

The Food Channel was on when I was napping so I could hear it in my dream. Apparently they were making a cake, because a cake appeared and I decided to eat it. It was huge, the size of a large sheet cake, and blue. I sort of folded it up so that I could pick it up with both hands. I tried to change the color of it. I squinted and concentrated but I only succeeded in turning the wall yellow.

I ate the cake, and it was delicious, although the texture was a little off..really light and fluffy, almost like cotton candy texture.

haha wow that's cool that you could hear the tv! maybe you could record yourself talking about tasks and whatnot as a reminder when your dreaming. i would listen to one of those animal documentaries

yum, cake!

**BossBadger** · 10-17-2009 03:27 AM

I wrote this dream down when I was half awake, and now I don't really remember what the hell happened:
Bar/restaurant with dad
Camping-no gear-dad makes tarp?
Giant cookies
2 Susans?
School assembly,concert, bong, funeral, Tinz, dress, bathroom full of guys, confusing mob, Jen-crazyface, mom in my house.

Backed car into Lucy's yard.

Then I had another dream where I was at some kind of historic tomb with another girl and a guy. We were going to go into some fantastic room, but we had to climb up through this sort of Sphinx. The guy went first and the girl after him, and I looked in and saw that they had to lay down and squeeze through a dark little tunnel that went around a corner. I felt claustrophobic just looking at it and told them I couldn't do it. I was going to walk across some kind of rickety bridge to get to the destination without having to squeeze through the tunnel, but somehow I ended up just leaving and was suddenly back in my hometown walking down the street.
I was feeling bored and lonely when I spotted a group of guys I know sitting in a bar. I decided to join them and I went in and sat down and ordered a Captain and Coke like I usually drink. Then this other girl showed up. She was pretty but struck me as pretty skanky. Of course all the guys were paying attention to her. She ordered a whiskey and suddenly I felt as though my drink wasn't adequate. I got a very distinct feeling of being left out and I felt resentful and hurt and lonely.

Last night I had a much better dream..my dad called me! I was at the fair. There were a lot of people around and I think I was getting drinks for people (very similar to a dream I had before..I wonder why that is a recurring theme?) Anyway, I was sort of getting jostled around in this crowd, and my cellphone rang. A voice on the other end said 'You have a call from *dad's full name*, will you accept?' I said 'Yes!Yes!' In the dream I was aware that he was dead so I was a bit skeptical at first, but then he came on the line and I knew his voice. He thought it was 2006 and I told him he was a few years off and that I was 31 now. He was surprised. I asked him if he was happy and peaceful and he said he was but that he missed me and my mom. He mentioned something about having to 'sign up and go to church' once a week. He sounded well but a little uneasy or sad. I tried to talk to him as long as possible but it was hard to hear him with the crowd. My mom came and I gave her the phone.
I had the distinct feeling when I woke up that I needed to play closer attention to signs that my dad might be 'around'..I felt a little guilty that maybe I had missed something..if that makes sense. Still, it was SO good to hear his voice. I hope I have dreams like that again.

Still no lucids this week..I'm going to try to squeeze in some naps this coming week and hopefully get the TOTM and maybe a TOTY done.

**BossBadger** · 10-17-2009 03:41 AM

Cygnus: Yeah, I tend to do that quite often. If the TV is on I can hear it in the dream and sometimes it's incorporated into the dream, and the same if there is music playing. Sometimes I get really frustrated because I am trying to turn the volume up or down or change the channel in my dream and it won't work.

**cygnus** · 10-17-2009 03:57 AM

maybe you could try to create an association between a particular song or artist and lucidity, and play it when you go to sleep.

**BossBadger** · 10-17-2009 04:06 AM

That's a great idea! I usually put music on when I nap in the afternoon anyway..I'll have to pick out a particular song or group of songs and try associating them with lucidity. Thanks for the tip!!

**BossBadger** · 10-17-2009 04:44 PM

Finally got a lucid and a TOTM last night, though it was incredibly brief in comparison to most of my lucids. Another dream about my dad, I'm guessing they are increasing in frequency because it's getting close to the time of year that he died.

I was in a park near my old high school and it was quite dark. I don't really remember what was going on. There were tables set up on the lawn and spotlights or streetlights illuminating the tables. There were several of us sitting around the tables and I noticed that my dad was sitting to my left.

While he was talking I realized that he should not be there, because he's dead. I went over to him and gave him a long, long hug and cried. I asked him if he was okay and he insisted that he was but he tearfully told me that he just missed me and my mom so much. It was a difficult moment because I could feel myself waking up and I didn't want to.

**BossBadger** · 10-18-2009 12:46 AM

FINALLY got the TOTM out of the way and also had a pretty good lucid. It was during a nap, of course.

I first had an FA and woke up inside my tent. When I got out I was at a campsite with a group of people, on the trail. I knew some of them. It was close to dawn and we were all up to watch a view of the sunrise over the lake from the area where our tents were. It was a little cool so we were all kind of huddled around in a semicircle, drinking coffee and talking. We could see our breath.

I became lucid without really noticing anything out of the ordinary, it was almost as though the lucidity 'crept' in. Everything gradually got brighter and more brilliant looking and more detailed, my awareness crept up in the same way..at first I knew something was different and changing and then gradually I knew I was dreaming and my senses were heightened.

I looked around and out at the sunrise and decided that I wanted to stay right where I was, anyway. I sat and enjoyed the sunrise want watching the fog rise from the lake. The colors were amazing and it was really nice to be lucid for the whole thing.

The other hikers asked me about the ex and I explained what happened as far as our breakup,etc.. They suggested that since I was dreaming, I ought to fly to Texas and do 'something' to him. I didn't really have a plan other than to get there and confront him somehow.

I flew up and over the trees and soon found a road. The sun was still coming up so I put it on my left since I figured I should be heading south. I imagined myself getting closer to Texas as I flew, and I came up on a hill. When I got to the top of the hill, the terrain became flat and the vegetation sparser, so I knew I was getting close.

Cars started to appear on the road and I flew over a town square.

I landed on the sidewalk and approached a car, hoping to see the ex in it. Instead there was someone from DV

along with a female DC. I got in the car and ended up having sex with both of them.

This part of the dream went on for a LONG time..I was really surprised that I didn't wake up.

I flew out of the car and saw a girl I went to high school with walking down the street. I decided I'd give the TOTM one more try and maybe try swooping down on her from above. I flew up quite high and then swooped down towards her at high speed while letting out a loud, deep growl. She jumped about a foot in the air and spun around. Mission accomplished! I said 'Sorry to scare you' and she just looked puzzled.

I flew a little more telling myself that I would come upon the ex's house, but I woke up before I found it.

**cygnus** · 10-18-2009 05:42 AM

sunrise over a lake... fog rising..

aaah fog in dreams is so cool. oh and nice job staying lucid for so long!

**BossBadger** · 10-19-2009 06:25 PM

The first dream that I had was lucid, but I don't remember much of the first part. I was sitting at a table in the town I used to live with. Seated around me were several people but I can't recall who they were or if I know them irl. I noticed a bottle of bleach on the table and zoomed in on the details, and became lucid immediately.

I spent a good long while asking questions of the people at the table, but unfortunately I can't remember any of the questions or responses. I then decided I was hungry.

I flew out the window and down the street towards a pizza place that I used to frequent when I lived up there, and that I miss. I zoomed back to the kitchen of the restaurant and found a pizza. I picked up two pieces and wolfed them down...delicious! Then I decided I wanted some dessert, so I opened the freezer and found a hot fudge sundae. I had to turn around and imagine a spoon in there, since there wasn't one when I opened the freezer. I turned back around and there it was! It was kind of a big spoon, but I used it anyway.

The next dream that I had was more disturbing. I dreamed I was in school or college, later on it became a mall. I was getting out of the shower and there was a guy there that I knew to be my boyfriend, even though he's someone I have never seen irl. I dried off and proceeded to try to brush my hair, but it was not looking right and I was getting frustrated. I flipped it around a little and I looked in the mirror and I was completely BALD all over the top of my head. My hair had fallen out. I had some long hair from about my ears down, and the rest was gone. I started to cry and the guy reassured me that we'd go to the doctor immediately and figure out what the problem was.

I brushed the remaining hair as best as I could over the bald area and then I was in a mall, heading for an escalator. I remembered that I had sprained my ankles somehow and they began to hurt. I was limping around trying to get to the doctor. Then I ended up on the same street in my old town that I always seem to end up on in my dreams. My ankles felt a little better so I was walking more normally but whenever I ran into someone I would start to limp in a more pronounced way, as though I didn't want them to think I was faking. Then I woke up.