Neil's dreams

[Neil]

Hi, welcome to my dream journal. I don't read a great deal of other people's Dream Journals, so it would be selfish to get you to read mine. This journal is more for my own benefit, to improve my recall and to catalogue these experiences. 15th February 2005 I was in the distant future, in a kind-of post-apocalyptic China. There had been a nuclear war and the cities were ruins. It was an Ice-Age. I was with a group of American scientists, who were being escorted by envoys of the Chinese government, to recover some important artifacts essential for the survival of humanity. Our envoys were young Chinese children. Each scientist had one, who accompanied them and never spoke during the mission. We travelled in a helicopter and were dropped off in the middle of the deserted city. It was full blizzard Artic snow conditions. We hurried inside. I can't remember exactly what the work we did was, but it was scientific in nature. There were 20 scientists and 20 Chinese children. One to accompany each scientist. Once we were finished, our orders were to follow the Children outside. We had to journey many miles, each following a Chinese child, until we reached the pick-up spot with the transport vehicle. The Chinese children rarely spoke, and only said "Follow me". They travelled at an un-natural speed, and I had to run very fast to keep up with my one. At times I almost lost sight of him in the blizzard. Before long, I lost sight of the rest of the team. All I had was this child to follow. But because he was a child, I wanted to protect him. The snow was so severe that I thought he might die. I myself was feeling cold and believed I was going to die. Eventually I became so worried that I picked the child up and carried him, following the directions he gave me. But I dropped him and he lost consciousness. His face went blue and he became covered in snow. I started crying. I wanted him to live. I brushed as much snow from his face and cradled him, trying to wake him up. Eventualy he woke up. We continued our journey. Eventually we arrived at the transport (which was a bus). I sat down and the bus (on auto-pilot) started moving. I looked around to see who had managed to get onto the bus in time. There were no scientist. Every other scientist was dead. But every child had survived. I suddenly became aware that the children were robots. And that the whole mission was a test to see which human would survive. Apparently, the logic of the 'story' was that the robot children would pretend to die, and only the human gave sufficient care to the child would be worthy enough for the robot to "come back to life" and show the scientist where the transport would be. This is weird, isn't it??? It was very detailed and convoluted. When I woke up, I believed it had been a movie I had watched. Then as I woke up properly I was quite happy that my mind had created such a bizarre and original story. And it was weird that my identity was so different from what it is in real life (Im a computer programming student).

[Neil]

Wednesday 16th Feb I was lying in my bed, having woken up. (But I was actually dreaming). I saw a DVD of a rock concert of a band I like (Dream Theater at Budokan), so I watched it. It was nothing like the actual DVD. It included a guest appearance from Hanson, who were doing a cover version of a Megadeth song. This was very surreal. And also there were other bands playing who I had never seen before, and the music was not anything I had heard before (it was ok sounding). And during the intermission there was a mini documentary about the auditions for actors who were to dress up in Alien costumes and swim for an upcoming movie involving swimming aliens. The guy who won the audition was a champion swimmer. Weird or what ??? I just had a massive flashback to a part of a dream from last night: I was listening to a phillsopher, who was talking about something. And he said "..this is known as zerissenheit". This is interesting because, I have read several books on spirituality and philosophy, but off the top of my head I wasn't able to remember what the word means. I have just looked it up on the net and it means "torn-to-pieceshood".

[Neil]

17th February Two really odd dreams ! In the first one, I was playing my electric guitar while walking around the outside grounds of Edinburgh Castle (in Scotland where I live). The Queen and Prince Charles were also walking around. I was seperated from them by railed fence. Charles offered me a digestive biscuit. I accepted, and he handed it to me through the railing. I couldn't eat it properly, howerver, and I made a terrible mess of crums on the ground.. which made me very embarrassed because I was in the presence of royalty. The Queen came over and asked me about my ambitions. I told her I was a computer science student. She said she was impressed, and that "young people these days have no ambition. When I was young I studied accounting at university." Then she asked me if I had seen Janine lately. In real life I do not know anybody called Janine (although I have a friend from childhood called Jane). I said to her "Why did you ask that question?" She replied "Because you are wearing a shirt with Janine on it." The shirt I was wearing did indeed have the word "Janine" written on it, along with some other stuff which I can't remember. Retrospectively, the mearning of this dream is easy to understand. My younger cousin is failing at school and believes his career lies in playing Bass for a punk band. (explaining discussions about youthful aspirations, and why I was playing the guitar). This also probably ties in with my own fears about my academic career and my own aspirations as a musician, as I too am in a band). And as for this janine person, I think it means I must probably call Jane soon so see how she is doing. The second dream was very surreal. I was driving along a motorway on a tractor, following my friend, Douglas. I Panicked at an important junction and drove onto a field. Remarkably, Doug had done exactly the same thing. I lost control of the Tractor and I started driving about very fast over this field. The field contained hundreds of "baby rabbits" which were being grown like potatoes. They were like embryos. I got covered in mud. That is all I remember.