Thread: Stonedape's Mild Workbook

1-19-11
About to go do some meditation, 20 mins of zazen. Feel somewhat tense over school and the fact that I'm still up on my computer, but I'm able to let it go, it's not so important right now. Right now I am going to dream and when the time comes for school I will do school. I'm planning on WBTB at 6.

1-20-11
Morning

Had at least 5 LDs last night. I thought I had 7 but I only remember 5 now, will think about it more later, I have class in 45 minutes. I was able to do the ToTM in my last dream, though it took me 3 dreams before I remembered that I was going to do it, in the third I was stuck inside some kind of factory or foundry and couldn't find the way out, in the fourth I tried it and got close but didn't have enough control to make lightning.

Here's the last one:
I was in a room that looked like my bedroom at my parents cottage, but the furniture was different, no bed, more chairs and a table. There was a group of people there talking about LDing. There was an old guy(LOL percy, this is you) leading the discussion. He said something about the next class, and a guy who was taking notes asked him a question. I realized this was a projection of the MILD class from last night and became lucid. I thought about what I was going to do and decided I was gonna jump out the window and go do the ToTm. I lookoed at the shade and watched as it turned darker outside like it would if a storm was approaching. I grabbed the shade and swung out the window tarzan style onto the porch.
(At this point A Flaming Lips song off At War With the Mystics starts playing in my head, super happy)
It was already raining but not that heavily. I looked up at the sky and felt the rain on my face to increase lucidity. Then I caught some rain in my mouth cause I was damn thirsty. I focused on making the clouds darker and watched as they thickened and grew darker. I got too focused on one spot and the clouds formed a kind of pyramid, with a super black cloud on top. The pyramid shot out a big orange blast of energy when I started thinking about lightning. I knew this wasn't gonna cut it for the TOTM despite how cool it looked, so I looked away at another part of the sky. I focused on the sound of the thunder and tried to make some lightning to go with it. At first there were just sparks up in the clouds, then some lightning shot downward but it never reached the ground. I felt myself losing control and I knew I wouldn't be able to hold the dream much longer, so I decided that the next lightning strike would hit me and it did. It didn't feel like much, almost like being hit by a column of air. I wasn't electrocuted nor felt anything tingly like I expected. But it did knock me on the ground. I laid there looking at the sky. Now things really started to come apart. I held the dream for about 10 secs and woke up.

First TOTM ever

I had another dream before this where I tried the TOTM but failed. I was in my house, I don't remember what I was doing but something tipped me off that this might be a dream, so I put my finger through my hand. I became lucid and my first thought was to go do the task of the month so I went outside. It was night and the clouds were sparse. I focused on them and tried to make more appear. They started swirling around and a few more popped up but not enough for a storm. Then these weird red ribbons of energy started swirling around closer to the ground. It was really cool, sort of like something you'd see on an acid trip, but I sensed that I was making them swirl like that somehow. I tried to focus on the clouds and make more of them, make them darker. I was able to a little but no storm. I think I wandered around my yard a bit then I woke up.

In another, I was walking down a street in some sort of complex with a bunch of buildings on a little road. I heard a Led Zeppelin song in my head. Something made me think I was dreaming, maybe just that I had just fallen asleep and was still remembering what I was think when falling asleep and some of the HI I saw. So I tore this huge metal sign out of the ground, one of the ones you can change the words around on. I knew I was dreaming because I wouldn't have been able to do this, but to be sure I smashed the sign onto another sign or something that was nearby to see how it broke. It broke into small fragments they way things usually do in my dreams. I got excited and was gonna do something(can't remember what) but I got too excited and woke up.

In the first LD I had that night I was walking in a suburban neighborhood. There were swimming pools everywhere full of bright blue water. Even in the gutters of the street there was crystal blue water, this tipped me off it might be a dream. I stuck my finger through my hand and became lucid. I walked to a nearby house where I heard people yelling and walked inside to the lower part of the house(it was on a hill). I decided before I opened the door that I would find a nice fat joint on a table inside(I've been wanting to try to use the sensation of smoking as a dream anchor, plus I'm taking a break from smoking for a while so I really wanted some weed). But no luck. I saw a desk with 3 drawers on it. I decided that I would find a joint in there, but again no luck. I kept opening the first drawer and everytime it was different, but no weed. First it was empty, then full of nondescirpt junk, then full of silverwear, then hypodermic needles, then empty again. I stepped back a moment and thought of how I could make it work. I imagined that it was the drawer that I usually keep my weed in and opened it. This time there was a weird peice of glass that looked like a combination between a jar I have and a pipe I have, but no weed. I wandered off, don't remember anything else.

There was another LD I had that was really fucking cool, but I can't remember it well because I went right back to sleep afterwords to try to get lucid again. I was in this creapy factory/industrial foundry complex/prison. In the begining I was helping some prisoners to escape, they were 3 guys who I considered close(only in the dream, I have no clue who they were), like brothers, and the theme of the dream was 4 Brothers, a jazz standard I vaguely know. I helped them out into this hallway, then I walked out in to another hall but had them wait because the janitor or someone was there. THen we snuck out into the next hall. Something around this point tipped me off and I became lucid. I explored the place a bit, but don't remember much other than that it was all painted and rusting metal. I remembered the ToTM and wanted to find a door I could take outside. I decided that if I kept going down I would eventually find it so I kept jumping down these little drops and going in a circle, there were some small sets of stairs to and I kept jumping and focusing on how it felt, real, but at the same time it didn't hurt as much as it would have for some of the bigger drops. I lost the visual and tried dream spinning. I remember it being succesful, but I don't remember where I ended up.

LOL. I am only 28 xD

Good job!!! Make sure you post it on the ToTM section And nice dream The first class I taught I also had a similar dream (but I was the professor and the students were DV's members

Meditation does wonders! We will go through that on 3rd class, but you know already how beneficial is!! Keep staying this focused and excited every day, and you will multiply the lucid dreams. I took a night flight on my lucid yesterday. I personally love nights and while driving home from work, the sky was very clear and I though I wanted to take a flight at night time in my next lucid, so I did

And remember, it is awesome you having all these lucids, because these will add to your % to have a LD in all of your next dreams.

1-21-11
Night before/3:00 in the morning

I stayed up way later than I wanted to and feel slightly guilty about it because now I probably won't have time to WBTB. Feel slightly achy and wouldn't if I had done what I was planning on doing and taken a shower, done some yoga and gone to sleep at midnight. It seems like I come up with a plan and if I don't stick to it everything goes out the window. Gonna do some zazen and go to sleep now.

Morning of

I only got 5 hours of sleep last night. I didn't get up to WBTB and didn't have any LDs. Maybe later, probably gonna take a nap.

I had a dream where I met an older woman(not much, only by 5 years maybe). She kept flirting with me and doing really nice things for me. She was giving me a ride to the rec center where I was gonna go swimming, but she took me to some other pool on accident. I remember looking inside the building and seeing people swimming.
Then we were walking around in an apartment complex. I don't know why we were there and we never went into any of the apartments. I remember walking up a few flights of stairs. You could see the landing below from the one you were on and there were no railings. There was a bed on one and I jumped off the landing onto the bed for fun. One of the tenants gave me a dirty look.
Then we at the park. She saw some guy she knew. We talked to him. Then he did something, maybe littering, that got this cop pissed off. The cop handcuffed him and the girl, I was standing a few feet away so he didn't associate me with them. Then the cop went around making a speech trying to make an example of them. I started arguing with him politely because everything he said was total nonsense. Some more happened here but I don't remember it now.
Then we were at a friends house. We were down in the basement. I picked up a bass and started jamming with a guy a vaguely knew who was playing guitar. Then I asked him if I could play his guitar, he said of course and handed it to me. I was playing something really cool and everyone left the room. I got sort of paranoid and put the guitar down. Then a few people came back but the girl was gone. I thought about leaving and finding her but I was having to much fun with the guitar. Then I was playing videos games with everyone who had come back and the paranoid feeling crept in again. I felt like I was wasting my time playing videos games when I could be hanging out with a girl. Then we were playing music again, this time rehearsing for an upcoming gig.

Those switch of scenarios are cool.

Do you remember what did you play on your guitar? I assume you play it in waking life.

You should try to reply that song... and write down the music notes, etc. It is important.

No, not at all. It was sort of free form improvising, something kind of classic rockish, kinda bluesy pentatonic. I almost never remember the things I play in dreams. I agree that this was a fairly important dream though, I'm able to see some underlying themes that reflect stresses I'm facing(or creating) in my life right now.

1-22-11
Night before/4:00am
Stayed up late again, even though I didn't take a nap and am completely exhausted. Not even going to meditate tonight, too tired.

Morning of
I had 3 LDs last night/this afternoon(lol I need to get my sleeping schedule back on track), and 1 non-lucid.

In the first LD I was typing a of paper on my friends macbook. I was in bed and I remember sitting with it on my lap feeling the heat from the computer. I was typing it in internet explorer instead of a word processor for some reason. I was typing it on two different tabs. In one I was typing ideas into little boxes and on the other I was typing on this blank green screen with no borders. The elder scrolls 4 kept popping up and interupting me. When I tried to close it another menu opened up. I kept getting interupted and i couldn't get comfortable in bed so I thought about using my bed as a table and sitting on a folding chair in my room. Then I decided it would be easier to just go set up on the computer desk in the other room.
When I went to walk there I walked through this hall where a jazz performance was going on. Some teachers from my school where playing but I couldn't really tell who. I kept going into the computer room. When I got there it looked completely different. It was a really nice study with bookshelves couches and a coffee table. It actually looked somewhat like my friend Ben's room but nicer. Ben, David and Adam* were in there and we talked for a bit, but I felt agitated since I couldn't do my work and kinda bored so I went back to the jazz performance. It looked like they were just finishing the last song, but it turned out they were just waiting for a singer. She walked out wearing a blue sparkly dress and the piano player gave her a big introduction. Then she didn't even sing. I saw an open seat up front and went and sat down. Then it turned into a master class. The piano player was teaching it and said something about a 13 bar major swing. He asked some people to come up to learn what he was teaching, one girl got up, then he asked me if I wanted to give it a try. I'm not too confident on the piano so I was reluctant at first, but then I thought, what the heck, even if I make a fool of myself it doesn't really matter, I shouldn't pass up the opportunity for a free lesson. This lack of fear was my first tip that I might be dreaming, it didn't register consciously but I could feel a shift. As I walked up there I saw two gay guys in their underwear standing on a balcony or overpass sort of thing smoking cigarettes(went to a fucked up website yesterday trying to find information about a movie). There was something wrong about the dimensions of the piano too, so I stuck my finger through my hand. A DC next to me said what the fuck are you doing?!? I laughed. I thought about going off and doing my own thing, but I wanted to see what the piano player was going to teach me. He played this lick that was 3 successive 3 note patterns played 3 times each(the last one might have been played an extra time or lead into something else)They might have been Eb Db B, Db B A, Db A Gb, but I couldn't really get the lick. I kept asking him what the first note was and would he at least play it so I could hear it, but he wouldn't. My hand(my real one) got extremely itchy and I woke myself up scratching it on my stubble.

I had a non-lucid where I was in the basement with my sister getting food out of one of the huge old wooden cupboards down there. For some reason we were afriad these tiny reptile gremlin things were gonna come after us, though I don't even think we saw any or know where that idea came from. I remember laying down on a pile of laundry and talking about something with her. Had 3 other non-lucids that I remember immediatly upon waking but forgot by the time I got out of bed, mostly just fragments.

I was lying there trying to fall asleep again after the first LD telling myself, I am going to have a LD. I got pretty comfortable and sleepy and my mind started to wander. I started thinking about skateboarding, about Burnside(the cement skatepark in the original tony hawk game) and what it would be like to do 540s and 720s over the spine, landing on the ground. I started to get some HI and saw an image of this, 3rd person. Then I was dreaming, I was at the top of a giant wooden rollin. It wasn't very steep but it was 20-40 feet tall. There were two ledges and one of them went down the rollin. I thought how could you skate these? Then I was sitting on the ledge that went down with my board on the ground riding down it. I became lucid while moving and decided to air off the quarter pipe across from it. I was going extremely fast. I launched into the air and became nervous because I had never done this in real life and didn't know what to expect. I was about 10 feet above the coping and I started flying because it wasn't working right. I got too excited and woke up, but not all the way.

I lay in bed conscious of my real body again laying as still as I could. Thoughts started to come but I sort of focused on my brain and they stopped. Not sure exactly what I was doing, it was very intuitive. It was like my thoughts had a lot of unconscious desire behind them that moved them but if I looked at them they stopped. I felt my consciousness sliding backwards/upwards into my brain. I got kind of excited because I knew I was about to go straight back into another LD and the process jarred and stopped. I calmed myself down and it started again and I watched as I slipped into a dream
I was in bed. I felt very strange. My head hurt like I had been thinking extremely hard, harder than I actually could in waking life. My movement was all screwed up too, I'm guessing this is caused by SP seeping into the dream. I rolled over and it felt like I might have opened my eyes(my real ones). I saw my meditation cushion superimposed over the dream, everywhere I looked it floated in the air. I got out of bed in a jerky motion and had to grab the doorknob immediately because I had no balance.
The image went away when I steeped out into the hall but my movement was still pretty screwed up. I saw myself in a mirror. My boxers were bunched up and I had a shirt on that looked odd too. I wasn't 100% sure it was a dream though I assumed it was. I looked to the left in the direction of the computer room and instead I saw a huge archway that looked like the on downstairs only at least 3x bigger. From this I knew it was a dream. The room it led to was big but completely empty. I ran around it excitedly. I ran around exploring other rooms but I don't remember what was in them, they were all fairly barren. I saw a bunch of archways, smaller than the first, but all in a row. They looked like infinite regression in mirrors. I decided I wanted to go step into a mirror. I found one and ran at it but it didn't work, I just crashed into it and ran off laughing. Then I remember that one of my goals is to step into an MC Escher drawing or a Van Gogh painting. I decided that I would find one in the next room I walked into. I walked into the room, and there was a painting, but it wasn;t by either of them(it looked sort of like one of these, but more angular, more based off my own aesthetics). I stared at it transfixed realizing that this painting was a spontaneous creation of my own subconscious. There were animals in it but I can't really remember what it was of. There was an artists signature on it that said Artic or Artec(Artec is the brand of one of my guitar pedals). As I stared at the painting more paintings popped up all around the room. I don't remember any of them vividly, but they were all by the same artist(all had the signature) in the same style. I was too awestruck to try to step into one.

*3 guys I play in a band with. I've been stressed out lately because we were supposed to record this weekend at a studio in Indiana but we have only practiced 2-3 times in the past couple months. I play bass in this band and I don't even really play bass, I'm just really good at guitar and bass is pretty much the same thing so I can fake it. I don't know why they booked the recording date in the first place, we don't have any songs that are fully written and we haven't been practicing and they kept asking me for money for the studio and the trip and it was kinda pissing me off because we shouldn't be going to the studio until we have something worth recording. Adam felt the same way, that we aren;t ready to record yet, but at the same time it's his fault we aren't because he can never make it to practice. We had a talk in Ben's room about this yesterday before he and David headed out to the studio(they decided to go anyway and just finish writing songs in the studio, but I stayed i town since I don't even know the song they want to record, we never practiced it as a band, and I have other music to work on for the latin jazz group I play in).

1-23-11

Night of
Stayed up late, again. But at least this time I was doing schoolwork instead of messing around on the internet. I've been spending too much time on the computer lately. I feel tired and sluggish, but ready to have some LDs! I decided that I have too many goals in my head right now. When I went to find a painting yesterday I couldn't decide which one and didn't find any of the ones I wanted. So for now my goal is to smoke some dream weed.

Morning of
4 LD, 3 non LDs
I had a dream where I was messing with my guitar, setting it up or something. I saw my brother in the room across from me messing with a guitar he got for christmas(in the dream, don't really remember this part, but sort of knew it). He was tuning it with a boss tuner pedal and I was thinking why does he have such a fancy expensive tuner if he can't even play? He had a bunch of other stuff he got for christmas, like this big blue platform. I thought it was for the guitar at first but when I went in there to talk to him he told me it was the wave rider for the wii. He showed me this game he got that was like mario tennis but as a 3d platform game. The tennis ball was really big too. He kept getting forced backwards, which made him lose. Then I was playing.
There was another part where I had to go to the bathroom, but someone was calling me on my cellphone. I didn't wanna answer it in the bathroom so I put the toilet in the hall. It ended up being a telemarketer for this commercial I saw when my mom was watching TV while I was cooking. It was this scam where the sell you a computer for a low monthly payment that over time ends up costing you way more than if you just bought it at the store, and they throw in a free tv and printer to make it seem worth it. The woman asked me if I had my first payment ready. I said what payment? She started telling me about the computer and all that and I got really pissed and told how shitty it is for them to scam people like this. She apologized and told me she would take me off the list of people to call. Then my sister walked by and I realized I was sitting in the hall on the toilet with my pants down. I felt awkward but didn't realize it was a dream.
In an earlier part of the dream my mom wanted me to move this wooden piece of furniture down to the basement. It was some kind of really low stool had a rectangular seat that curved in the middle. The size of it kept changing and sometimes it was a table, sometimes a stool. At first I was mad and didn't really want to, I think I was in the middle of doing something, but then I got distracted and didn't really care. But by that time my youngest brother was sleeping on it and wouldn't move. He just sat on it half asleep smiling saying NOOOO, I don't wanna move. I did something to make him laugh and got him off of it. Then we just ended up moving it 3 feet, to a really odd spot in front of another chair.

I remember some fragments from another dream. I was at this really cool park. There was something about birds, stones and souls. I met this really smart little kid. I might have been flying or on a swing or in a tree at some point. I also remember this huge bathroom where even though there were 30 different toilets everyone in there followed me and pissed right next to me.

I woke up around 11 am to WBTB and had 4 lucids. One, then I woke up, then 3 more.
I was in my kitchen. My mom was arguing with my brother, trying to get him to do his homework. I was really irritated because I wanted them to be quiet. Then I remembered the reason I wanted them to be quiet was so that I could get back to sleep. I stuck my finger through my hand and became lucid. I walked toward the front door. I noticed it was locked but I just opened it as if it wasn't. I walked south. There were a bunch of people outside, more than I had ever seen in real life(I realize now that this happens a lot in my dreams). I tried to pull a cigarette case out of my pocket but it wasn't there. I tried all my pockets(my mind was moving to fast to really focus on the task). Then I saw Ian. I said Ian, do you still have my cigarettes. He said yeah and threw a pack at me. It went out of my line of sight and when I looked where they were there was just a cellophane wrapper floating in the air. I asked him where they went and he threw them to me again, the exact same image, but this time straight to me and I caught them. I was close to bancroft which was a blur of speeding cars and I turned around. I opened the pack and saw many different kinds of cigarettes, but no weed. I didn't really want a cigarette so I just kept throwing them out looking through the pack. Then I saw a car and decided I wanted to see what it would be like to get hit by a car. I ran at it as fast as I could but I wasn't fast enough and it was gone. I looked through the cigarettes more, don't remember anything else.

Then I had 3 LDs in a row that were almost identical. I was in my room and I stuck my finger through my hand. I immediatly tried to find a way out of my room so I could smoke(apparently I didn't trust it enough to be a dream to smoke inside). In one I was woken up by noises made by people in real life before I could get anywhere. In the other two I slipped out my window. It was really strange, I could go through the glass like it wasn;t there, but not the metal, so I had to slip through the tiny panes. When I made it outside I looked around and started thinking about where I could find some weed. I always got woken up by people making noise before I could do anything.

I had a non-lucid in the middle of those 3 where I was in my room eating candy with my little brother. I was eating these fancy jellybeans of odd sizes. One was jallapeno flavored from Tony Pacos, and the other was strawberries and cream. My little brother had pixie stix and was trying to open them by slamming them on something. I told him not to because he would lose all the sugar out here, and all the sudden we were outside in the snow, like there was nothing strange about it.

I had another non-lucid where it was thanksgiving. I was at my aunts house, but not the one where we usually go for thanksgiving. I had this huge cup of tea, it was like a bowl. My aunt asked me for some. I tried to pour it but I spilled it all over the table(this is very reminiscent of when I was making spaghetti sauce yesterday and was pouring things from big containers into small ones and making a mess). At first she seemed mad. Then she spilled her own cup jokingly and on purpose and helped me clean it up. Then I was in the kitchen talking to a girl I'd never seen before. She wasn't part of the family and explained how she was a recovering drug addict who knew my aunt. We talked a lot and really connected. Then we were in a train station about to go somewhere together, the conversation never really ended, it was continuous through the scene change.

Thats very good recall!

You indeed have a lot of LDs

1-24-11
Night before
I just finished meditating and doing some visualization of my goal of smoking weed. I might have said this in the last post but I've decided to limit myself to one goal as having more than one can complicate things. Before that I took a shower and did some yoga. I was feeling nervous about school tomorrow, but not anymore. I feel relaxed and ready to have some LDs. Planning on WBTB at 5am.

No lucids, but 2 or 3 semi-lucids
WBTB
I woke up at 6:30 and fell back asleep until 6:40. I had a dream during this period and the whole time I felt a nagging sensation that there was something I was supposed to be doing but couldn't remember what. I'm guessing it was writing down the dreams I had before. When I woke up again I couldn't remember them but I rememebered 2 in the morning when I finally got up that were from earlier in the night.


I walked out of my house and got into a tan Saturn. I decided to take it instead of my car because it had better gas mileage. From the moment I started it I had thoughts like whose car is this, are they gonna need it. I was suspiscious of my surroundings but didn't come to the conclusion it was a dream. I put all my money(8$) in the gas tank. It nearly filled it which at first made me happy but then I realized I had no money to do whatever I left the house to do. I tried to call David but he didn;t answer. I drove around aimlessly. I stopped at an intersection for this all natural restaurant with all these signs about eating healthy.

I pulled in somewhere nearby. I was in this building that looked like an airport riding this plane of glass like it was a snowboard. It moved on it's own even on flat ground. There was an old guy next to me on a skimpy matress fashioned into a scooter in the same way. It moved without wheels. Most people were walking but I saw some other scooters. I remember feeling bad because there was something I needed to do but couldn't remember what. THis feeling distracted me from how fun riding on a piece of glass was. I focused on it for a second. I rode down some long stairs and thought this is unreal, like something in a dream or a video game, but I still didn't become lucid.

Then I was in this place that looked like a bathroom, and part of it turned into one later as I walked around. It said Toledo Museum of Space in big metal letters. Around this time I somehow bit into a piece of glass. I freaked out a little and started looking for a drinking fountain so I could rinse my mouth out. I saw a button next to this strange contraption and assumed it was one, but when I got close I noticed it was some kind of audio for the display. However there was a drinking fountain right next to it. There was I woman standing near it on her cell phone talking to the management about how it was broken and her son desperately needed some water, even some hot water would do. When she moved I used it like there was nothing wrong with it at all.

I spit out bits of glass, then a quarter, then half of my tooth. It was my back molar on the bottom left. I walked around feeling bad about losing it wondering if it was because of the new toothpaste I've been using. A little girl had a bottle of purple windex and was spraying it just for fun. I covered the nozzle with my hand as I walked passed to keep from being sprayed in the face. The parents of the girl finally noticed and tried to stop her. I felt very depressed about my tooth and all my actions were limp and lifeless walking around aimlessly.


I had two other dreams, one non-lucid, one semi lucid in spots. I onlt vaguely remember these because I didn't write them down in the morning. I think the second may have been the dream I wanted to write down that was nagging me in the dream above.

I was on the beach doing some kind of competition involving a mud pit. There was a part afterwords where I was dancing with this girl. She kept transforming, at one point into a girl I used to have a crush on and we made out.

In another I was at this party with some friends and a bunch of people I didn't know. I somehow ended up with 2 bags of weed even though I came with none. This made me start to think it was a dream, but I never became lucid, instead I took a nap on the couch. Then I got up and went down to the basement where some bands were playing. It was huge, bigger than any indoor venue I've been to. I remember flirting with some girls and but everything is kinda fuzzy.


Morning of
I had a dream where I was driving around the neighborhood, maybe on my way home. I stopped at a stop sign and got out of the car, but I was still in the car, hard to explain. The car was still there, running, but I was still driving down the street. I turned right to swing around back to get it but the roads were different than in reality and I ended up on a main road. I tried to turn right again and ended up on the highway. I was almost out of gas and felt nauseated or maybe really drunk and I really didn't want to be on the highway. I tried to turn off but just kept getting further out.
There was an earlier part of the dream where I was standing on the sidewalk outside of my car arguing with a police officer(I have a speeding ticket to pay in real life that I'm not too happy about).

1-25-11
Had lucid where I had no control over my body, was flying, walking in the air but no control. Sort of woke up but stayed still. Had another lucid where I was getting hit with water right as the dream materialized, the I went outside I was gonna jam with some guy I didn't know.

Will post the rest later

Please, post how you are incubating, using the chest technique, etc.

1-26-11
Night before
Went to group meditation earlier and feel really good, calm and alert. I haven't been keeping up on my schoolwork and have been feeling nervous about it but feel alright with that now. I'm going to do some meditation then some visualization and go to bed.

I incubated the dream by sitting on the cushion after I finish meditating and thinking about the ottawa tavern, a local bar where I've seen a few rock bands recently. I visualized the stage and superimposed the band Explosions in the Sky on it(though they probably wouldn't fit, lol). I tried to think of the smell of weed and the dry atmosphere that indoor venues have sometimes, but this was harder too focus on than the image. I played some of there songs in my head and heard the sound of the crowd. I thought of something that made me really happy and decided that I was going to dream about this tonight, but I can't remember the initial thought, might have just been about how many LDs I've been having recently.

I tried using the chest technique, but I couldn't stop thinking about this girl last night, not even once I fell asleep. I told myself over and over that I was going to have a LD tonight as I fell asleep, but I got distracted quite a bit.

When I WBTB I didn't do any visualizations but I used the mantra some. Once I get better at staying focused and am able to write my dreams down in less than 45 minutes I think I'll start doing some visualizations then too, it's a really powerful technique.

I just had the longest LD I've ever had, although I was kind of scatterbrained for a lot of it.

I WBTB at 7:10 wrote down a dream and went back to bed about 8:10. I lay in bed for a long time trying to fall back to sleep. I heard my little brother playing out in the hall and figured school must have been canceled since he left right before I went back to bed. He kept getting louder and louder until he was right next to my bed being really loud. I jumped out of bed and yelled why are you in my room, I'm trying to sleep! Then I noticed that I wasn't in my room, I was downstairs and had been sleeping on the couch. I knew I went back to bed in my room so I thought this must be a dream. I put my finger through my hand to check. Then I went upstairs to my room to look for Madison, who I thought would be there for some reason. It was dark and I tried to flick the lights on but it didn't work(duh). I said her name to see if she was there but she wasn't. I started to clamber down the stairs but I realized that I was getting too excited and tried to calm myself down. I felt the walls as I walked downstairs and used the sensation to keep me in the dream.

I walked out the front door and there were two huge wide apple trees, one on both sides of the walk. There were giant green apples on the tree, the size of small cantaloupes, and I grabbed a few. I walked out into the street. There were two guys in weird outfits on bikes. They were riding in circles and doing stunts. One guy tried to do a backflip and landed on his face. I threw an apple and hit him in the head when he got back on his bike.

Then I tried to fly, but couldn't. So I decided to climb the walls instead. I was next to a fence so I jumped most of the way up and climb on top. I remember it being hard to get on top. Then I climbed onto the roof of a house. I decided to go to Ben;s for some reason but I think I just went inside of the house I was on. I said something to Ben's brothers and his mom. Then I went upstairs to this hallway with no doors that led to another staircase going back down. I turned around and Madison was there. She said so you've been looking for me and kissed me. Then we walked downstairs and went outside holding hands. When we got outside she turned into a different person, she had a different hairstyle and face. I tried to turn her back, she changed and looked more like her but it didn't really work. I said, your not Madison. She said, so? I said something else and walked down the street and started looking for her again. The street turned into a busy downtown street all lit up with neon signs, like in NYC. There were shops and vendors everywhere and I went around looking for her.

*CONCERT GOAL*

Then there was some kind of power outage and almost all the lights went out. It was late, dark out. I saw some lights up ahead and walked toward them. There was a crowd of people and I saw a stage. I remembered the concert goal and earnestly walked closer. When I got to the front it was a rap concert and I was thoroughly disappointed. I got up on stage and said something like pshaw this is wack(AHAHAH, pshaw is a word in the spellchecker but wack is not). I looked at a spot on the stage and said Marshall stack. It didn't work exactly but I made this foam mat appear. The I said twin reverb a couple times. I managed to make some speakers appear but they were small ones, like stage monitors. Then I made a bass amp that was a little bigger, but still really small. I saw the other guitarist carry an amp out from backstage. I went back to find another and saw this tweed amp that looked like my friend derricks. When I picked it up it looked completely different. It had a bunch of nobs, switches and lights of different shapes and colors and the front was angular. I carried it out on stage where everything was set up now. I plugged in and started playing a few notes to check the sound. Then I started playing this light jam that built up into this trem picking melody. I couldn't keep up with it because I was sleeping on my arm and it wasn't working right(I noticed this when I went to pick up the amp too). I couldn't get a good look at the audience but there were less people now, maybe 50 tops.

1-27-11
Night of
Really tired tonight. I did some meditation and visualization before going to bed.

I visualized myself becoming lucid downstairs at my house. I feel very calm and light. I reach into my pocket and feel a cigarette case. I feel the ridges from the pattern and the weight of it. I pull it out of my pocket and open it up. I imagine the sound of it clicking as it opens. Inside are a row of joints. I pull one out. I think about how it feels in my hand and in my lips, the sensation of the dry paper becoming moistened. I pull out a lighter and fire it up. I think about the taste as I draw on it, the amount of smoke that comes through.

Was too tired to do the chest technique, just went right to sleep.

Morning of

Recalled 4 non-lucids. Had at least two more and maybe a semi-lucid but was too out of it when I woke up in the night to write them down.

In the last one I was playing Age of Empires. I was building houses in a big square, then I started putting down starbursts instead of houses. Bernie was there and we had to go do something so I stopped. We were in the laundry room and I was doing laundry. I washed the clothes I had been wearing the day before. My old cell phone was in them when I took them out of the wash. At first I was mad, but then I realized it was my old one so I didn't need it. Surprisingly it still worked perfectly fine. Bernie had to get his jeans out of the dryer. They weren't done drying but he took them anyway because he had to leave. Then Geoff was down there and so were some people I didn't know, but this didn't seem strange at all. He was saying something about going to see kid kuddi with some other group. I said I dunno, kid kuddi is fucking wack, that stuff's not really my style. There was this black guy in the corner with a crazy mustache who agreed with me. I forget what he said. His mustache was giant. It was like a handlebar mustache but at least 3x longer and really wide too. He was combing it, and part of it was wrapped up in a tube or something. As I watched him I started doing something with this fur that was coming out of my shoe, combing it and cutting it. When he said something to me I told him that he had a badass mustache. We talked about it for a minute, but that's all I remember.


I was texting my friend Hana. When she text me her name showed up as Anna. I went out on the front porch to get away from my family. It was surrounded by spiderwebs. At first there were just webs but as I sat there big and small spiders started to appear. I felt itchy just looking at them and walked back inside. I was in a hotel or some kind of building with many people in it now. My parents wanted me to go and find these two couples and give them tickets for something. I recognized one of the names but not the other. I got really mad because I didn't even really know these people or have any clue how to find them but my parents wanted me to do it anyway. We argued for a bit. I remember being outside at my grade school doing chin ups.

Then we were driving home in the car. My parents brought up the tickets again and how I didn't do it. Then we drove past these wooden skateboard ramps in a cement drainage ditch. My mom made some comment about how people shouldn't do that and we got into another argument. At one point she was paying attention to the road and it started to warp. I thought we might crash.


I was in my room talking to this older guy named Malony(a friends last name, but I didn't see any resemblance). I felt like he was a friend of the family or maybe a long lost uncle or something. His appearance kept changing. He always had tan reddish skin, but first he was scraggly looking with short hair, then clean shaven and bald, then he had long hair. He had a whole bunch of cocaine out and did a few lines. When I turned around I saw more coke, just piles of it everywhere. This made me nervous because not just my parents but my extended family too were in the house. His son came in then left. He was maybe 4. He went into my parents room. There this door to a bathroom that connects the 2 rooms and Malony did this thing where he knocked on the door and opened it. He explained it had something to do with the fear of God. My uncle Steve came in and asked me for some starburst. I grabbed it quickly and ushered him out of the room, totally freaked out because of all the coke. He didn't see any.

Then I was in a room I didn't recognize. My cousin was doing some kind of traditional dance involving a $20 bill. Then I was outside, but I was just an observer for this part. I watched Malony get into a red convertible in some kind of praking lot or garage. He was way too coked out to drive and this homeless looking guy offered to drive. They switched places. Then the cops were behind them with their lights on before they even got out of the parking lot. They tried to make an escape but kept running into fences. The first one stretched way out and they shot back. Then they somehow drove over one, flew through the air and crashed. The homeless looking guy escaped riding either a lion or golden retriever. Malony was hurt bad and then the cops shot him in either the face or the leg. He was bleeding like crazy. At this point I stopped being just an selfless observer and walked toward him. I helped him up and asked him if I he wanted me to get his son(I assumed he was about to die). He told me to bring him to the window so he could say one last thing to him. Somehow staring at him made my face start bleeding, I think just out my nose. I went inside and this old lady was standing at the sink I told her I needed to wash my face and she said just a moment then just went on washing the dishes like I hadn't said anything. Then she gave me a paper towel, which pissed me off because I really wanted to use the sink. I walked through the house and told some people what had happened. There was a big commotion and people went outside. My uncle Rob said something really creepy to me about amnesia and how I'll forget all this in a few hours and I suddenly felt high and like my brains were falling out. Then I sat down and tried to deal with my wound.


I was at the airport leaving Las Vegas. I put my stuff on a table. I was very paranoid about it because I had some very expensive stuff with me, my ipod, I thought I had a guitar but when I set it down it looked like a guitar hero controller. I ran into a friend of mine who I traveled there with but had been separated from(there was more to this dream that I don't remember, I was in another location and had to drive back to Vegas to catch the plane). He showed me all this beer that he had bought, like 200 beers. He said they were really cheap here and he was bringing them back. I asked him when our flight was leaving and he said I think right now or in a couple minutes, he said something about the flight number, 4810 maybe, and the boarding was for flight 4800 right now so we were next. I had stuff that I had put in a locker at the airport that I had to get and told him. He wanted to come with me to get it but I wanted him to stay with our stuff, but I couldn't tell him this at first, it was as if saying it would break his heart. I couldn't remember the locker number or find the keys and I was panicking. I pulled everything out of my pockets twice and the second time I pulled out three sets of keys and the locker key was attached to one of them.

Very nice recall! How have you been incubating during waking? Have you even felt the excitement of accomplishing the task?

Originally Posted by PercyLucid

Very nice recall! How have you been incubating during waking? Have you even felt the excitement of accomplishing the task?

I've just been incubating before I get in bed. I've been kind of stressed out and scatterbrained this week. I tried, but I have a hard time visualizing excitement when I'm worried about things. Gonna sleep in late tomorrow and hopefully just take it easy this weekend so I can focus on doing the things you talked about in class.

1-28-11
Night
Just did some meditation. Feel tired but not too bad. Visualized my goal for a few minutes and now time to sleep.

Morning
I think the dream started out in my neighborhood. My sister and her friends were gonna go spray paint something. I was there, they needed me for some reason, maybe to drive. They were gonna pay me $10. We drove past the school and I asked them where they were going(i thought this is where they were going to spraypaint). They said St. Ursala(another school). Then one of them sprayed gold spraypaint in my face. This pissed me off a lot. I started swearing and told them they had to pay me $25 now. Then I said $40 and I'm not even gonna help you, that's just to keep me from telling mom and dad.

Then we were in a parking lot. Might have been netty's or some chain restaurant. We were picking up another car. Geoff was there now too trying to calm me down and tell me how tagging is a good thing and I should help them. I told him it can be if it's art, if it's expression, but this is just a bunch of stupid little girls vandalizing shit. Both the cars turned into convertibles. There was this weird part where we were backing out really slowly. I dropped my keys and it looked like they fell on the ground and there was no floor to the car anymore. I reached down and picked them up.

There was another part where we were at one of my sisters;s friends house. It was some boy's. He was a rapper and I remember him saying they can never lay down any serious tracks when the girls are over. I was watching TV. Some commercial was on with this slow intense song and basketball in B&W.


In another dream I was at a friends house. I called Jon and told him I wanted to buy some weed. He came over with a big sandwich bag full of danque and this grey scale. The amount of weed I was buying kept changing from a half to a quarter. Then he was trying to sell me 1.4 grams and siad that was an eighth. I got really loud and said no way, an eighth is at least 1.7(this is actually a half eighth). My 3rd grade teacher came out from inside the house(we were on a closed in porch) and said "What's going on here?". We hid the weed before she noticed but the scale was just sitting there on the table. I felt really paranoid. We said "nothing" and she replied "a likely story" and went back inside.

We settled on an amount, maybe 1.64(2 bags of this), it was less than what it should be but I was sick of haggling. Then we were going to leave because my friend had already left while we were waiting for Jon. Ben dropped a bunch of dirty dishes and dirty laundry on the floor. I started picking it up and told him, "we can't just leave a mess here or ____(the people who lived there) will think were a bunch of slobs."

I vaugley remember a dream where I was at a party. It was in some kind of big mansion/school. I remember smoking weed in some kind of chemistry lab with some girls.

Still haven't been incubating much, only once or twice a day.

Updates, please!

1-29-11
Gonna put the LDs in quotes now so they're easier to find.

Night
Too tired to even write anything down, just crashed.

Morning
I had a dream where my mom had bought a bunch of new video game stuff for my brother. She kept asking me about the controllers. My parents said they were going to bed but they never did. I was playing dragon warrior, but it was completely different from the real game. My sister had her file open and I remembered that I couldn't save(my real version of this game has a dead battery so you can't save usuaully) so I played on her game instead of starting a new one. I was trying to cast some spell(it was a 2d sidescroller now) but all I could do was make little rupees(like from zelda) appear. I wandered around the level. It was a dungeon, the level was made of grey bricks like a castle and the background was dark, black with bits of maroon. I got hit by the first enemy I saw which made me wann start over. I stopped playing but my character kept moving by itself. I turned the gaame on and off, then I realized I just erased her game. I turned it back on and loaded her game, but it wasn't as far. Then I started a new game. I had to choose my character. They were all strange looking, most were not human at all. I was trying to decided between the 2 airplanes. One was just a normal plane and the other was called a physics plane. They cost the same so I picked the physics plane.

There was a part with a little 4 year old girl. She was sitting on the couch watching me play(or maybe it was earlier and we were just watching TV). I decided that she was there to see my brother. She jumped off the couch and said she had to go home. I remember thinking that my brother should walk her home since it was dark out but he didn't.

Then I was talking to Krysta and someone else about shrooms. The other guy said krysta was a shroom head, but not as in an addict, he meant it as a silly insult. I was telling them about the Mogwai concert in april and a bee flew down my shirt. Krysta said bees are always flying down your shirt. They both kept talking in a way that sounded like singing or random syllables, and like it had reverb or some kind of vocal effects on it.


Had 3 LDs(two were sort of connected) and too many non-LDs to remember.

Daniel and Ansel were trying to get into my room. They wanted to borrow my guitar pedals. They said Ansel brought a guitar over but I didn't believe them(Ansel has lied to me many times in real life, and it's always obvious that he is). I was super out of it the whole time. I was trying to sleep but kept getting up to keep them out. I could hardly keep my eyes open. I kept leaning on the door to kept them out. I heard Chris tell them to try the other door so I went and blocked it. I kept laying back down and trying to get back to sleep. At one point I woke up in a parking lot holding my yellow pajama pants. I saw my moms old car and got in the back seat. My green shirt was in there and I used the clothes as a pillow and laid down. "they won't bother me here", Ithought. But they did, and good thing, because this is when I realized this was a dream. I got in the front seat and started driving around extremely fast. Really sloppy too, going over the lines. There was a bunch of traffic ahead so I decided to fly over it.

I drove out into the country. I was driving down this road and it started to rise up like an overpass but it kept going higher. I drove up it a while then remembered my goal. I pulled over and tried to pull the cigarette case out of my pockets, but it didn't work. I checked all my pockets and nothing. I kept walking up the road. It was leveling off a bit now. There were these huge flowers that looked like the ones from super mario bros that come out of the pipes. The had mouths, but didn't move. It was like each one was a frame from an animation and each one was just slightly different from the last. I started to lose the visual but stayed focused on walking. When the image came back it was a road made of rocks. This happened again but when it came back it was made of skittles now. I saw this weird looking purple alien cow and pushed him off the road, which was hysterical for some reason.

The road seemed to fall apart and I lost the visual for a long time. I might have woken up briefly. Then I was in a house. It looked old and deserted, dusty and dark. I tried searching my pockets again but still nothing. I saw a mirror and when I looked into it I had my brown hoodie on and started thinking maybe it's in my hoodie pocket. I saw a bulge in the pocket in the mirror. I reached in and at first it felt like the case but when I took it out it was my phone. I explored the house but I don't remember what I saw.

I found a dresser with some drawers. I opened one but don't remember what was in it, I was sort of frantic and not really looking. Then I opened the drawer above that and saw something that looked like a joint. I picked it up and it was one/became one, the image sort of changed when I focused on it. I was trying to make the case appear so it didn't exactly work, but close enough.

I walked down the hall. I heard some girls voices behind one of the doors and went in and sat down to smoke with them. It took forever to get it lit and by the time I had I was waking up a little. It didn't really smoke right either, but the dream was fading. It kind of expanded as it burned and almost turned back into the shape of a bud. I only took one hit and passed it then woke up.

I had another LD where I was in a house or a cabin with my uncle. It was continued from a non-lucid where I was at some kind of amish camp and was sneaking off to go have sex with this girl in the woods. I was trying to do the ToTM, to grow giant and smash a city. My uncle(whos almost 7ft) told me it's easy to grow, you just grab the ceiling and hang on and you'll grow. The ceilings were about 20 feet high but it was easy to just jump up and grab them. I tried, it kind of worked but I only grew about 3 feet and when I let go I shrank back to normal size. I tried just growing myself but woke up.

One thing I notice is that when I try to make something happen in a LD it's really hard to do it sometimes, but if I just decided that this is gonna happen it happens automatically with no effort at all. Like it's whats supposed to happen, like it's gravity.

1-30-11
Night
Did some meditation and visualization.

I dreamt I was in Nick's basement. The lights were off and the only light in the room was the one coming from the computer. Nick and a few others were sitting around the table talking about the website on screen, either for a band or some unusual phenomenon. I was sitting back a bit from the table at first because there were no more chairs. Someone left and I got up to take their seat. There was a stain on it(I recognized this from a youtube video on waking). I never ended up sitting down, I just examined the stain. Something about it was funny to me and I explained it to the person sitting next to me.

Either I was looking at the computer or Nick was talking about something and the sceene changed to being outside on the corner. There were 2 people, an adult and a child, I was one of them but I'm not sure which. We were talking about something philosophic, wisdom of some sort. Someone was using a butane torch to light a 15ft copper rocket.

I walked toward school and turned into myself. Then I was driving, pulling into a parking lot with dead bushes in the front. The sky was a bittersweet orange. There were police officers and a gang both minding their own bussiness. A mexican guy came up to me and started talking to me. He was trying to intimidate me and hinting at how he was going to steal my car. I pointed to the cops and made a joke. I sad just don't forget to steal the whole thing, don't forget the fan belt or something.

Then I was looking through my car for some food. I saw that white ceramic pot with some corn in it, I think it was outside the car. I found some blue juice in the car. The scene then transformed to a combination between high-school and krogers. My sister was there and I had some food for us to share. I had a pack of blue Hi-Cs on top of my car. Anthony and the gangsters ran up and stole some. I chased them around. This is when it turned into krogers. I felt like I was an employee. I chased him around throwing stuff at him worried that I might get caught. He knocked over some plates and then fell down a flight of stairs near the registers. I threw a thing of laundry detergent at him. I charged at him to get the juice while he was down. But then the manager showed up and I started walking nonchalantly. The detergent was still bouncing and sliding across the floor. The manager didn't seem upset at all. This girl who reminded me of a girl from gradechool said something that made absolutely no sense, like aren't you glad we didn't have school today.

2-1-11
I had a dream where I was smoking weed in my room with Andre and some of his friends. I realized what we were doing and opened the window and told people to blow the smoke out of it. I stared at the door for a second, then went downstairs to look for my parents. I didn't see them so I asked my sisters friend where they went and she told me. I went back up to my room and saw a girl just exhaling in the middle of the room. I said comeon it's not that hard to blow it out the window. Geoff called me but I didn't answer because I was too caught up in dealing with the situation. There was a part were my little brother was naked and peed all over the floor in my room and my sister had to carry him out. I remember the keef bowl I smoked with Haley and Madison, but not sure if they were there. I remember a recurring part where I was with a girl I liked but then I realized it wasn't the girl I like in real life and felt weird about it.

I took a nap. I don't really remember the dream but it had to do with sight reading and an analysis of how to do it. I felt stressed like I had to do it or I would fail out of school.

2-2-11
Night
Had somewhat of a rough day today, but kind of realized some ways I'm creating problems for myself and how not to. Feel very calm now after meditation. Did some visualization but I feel like I should do more tomorrow. Gonna reread the class 2 logs and do that tomorrow.

Morning
I had an extremely long dream last night. I was taking a class on how to be a subway driver. My teacher from American government was teaching it. He looked more mature and together, less like your average american beer bellied football fan, though at the same time younger. He was asking questions and everyone was getting them wrong. I kept getting distracted and missing the questions so I just kept quiet. I finally heard one and got it right. There was a guy who kept making really bad jokes. They were like will ferral's jokes but not funny at all. The teacher kept implying that he was stupid and should shut up.

I remember talking to a foreign guy, I think he was Indian. He was telling me how he was trying out for the job now. He had somehow skipped the class. He walked down this strange futuristic looking staircase to the platform with a supervisor.

We did a simulation. The teacher let one of the students drive, maybe Will Ferrell guy. I couldn't see how the driver was driving or what he saw, but I watched where we were going on a map to learn the route. I saw a red line moving over the map with the tunnels shown in blue. There was more to driving than just switching tracks like you'd think. The driver had to steer like it was a car. The teachers interface was a touchscreen and he could control the train with it. We drove all around Toledo and some of the outskirts.

Then we took a break. When we came back the teacher changed and so did the room. We were in a room with this huge strangely shaped bed. It was shaped like 10 beds put together in a pattern but it was all just one bed. I waited for people to sit down trying to decide where to sit myself. I took one of the last open spots. The teacher sat next to me. She was a really pretty brunette about my age, maybe a little older. I could tell she liked me right away. I answered her questions very articulately. Then I needed to blow my nose extremely bad but couldn't find a tissue. It started to drip and I wiped it on my hand and my sleeve and felt embarrassed and tried to hide it from her. Someone got up and blew their nose. Then I saw the box of tissues right behind me and cleaned myself off, but there was still a stain which bothered me.

Then we were doing an exercise where we were drawing on the carpet with markers. She kept asking me to borrow my markers. I felt like a little kid, it was very cute. Her drawing looked really bad, it didn't look like anything, just random lines, and they weren't even good lines, they were very crude.

We took a break and one and one of her friends, heavy Indian woman, came in. She said some very nice things about the teacher. Then she said we should be learning meditation in this class and how it would help us. She said some things about Jay(the guy I study meditation with) and about how she just went to one of his talks 2 days ago. I said something about him, then she said she recognized me from the talk. I tried to think if I had been there but couldn't remember.

Then Madison was next to me. She had taken one of her gauges out and was talking about it. She said something about a brand she wanted and how it was too expensive. I said my sister had looked at the same brand. We talked some more but I don't remember.

Then I was in another dream. I almost feel like they were connected or I was aware of one ending and the other beginning, but I wasn't lucid. I saw 2 people I knew playing catch up ahead in a parking lot next to some buildings. There was a creek on the other side of the parking lot and more water back behind it. I walked up next to the closer of the two. The further signaled for him to throw another ball. Then he said something to me and was gonna throw a few to me. I asked the guy next to me if I could borrow his mit. He said sure but before he could even throw it to me the other guy had thrown the first ball. It was way over my head and I just let it go. Then the guy tossed me his mit. Before I could put it on he threw the other ball. It was over my head but I ran and caught it barehanded. "Great catch!" he said. I went to get the other ball, it had rolled into the creek. The creek looked dirty and black and the ground and plants by it were all brown and tan, very industrial waste looking. When I got to it I saw that it had somehow connected to a cement parking block in the creek. I pulled it toward me with my foot, I didn't want to get wet. I disconnected the ball, which was now a piece of metal. I threw the metal and the other ball, which had turned into a beer can, back. I thought they would have been heavier and overthrew them.

The two guys went into the water to get the balls. They were clowning around in the water a while. They found a rusty sledgehammer and the one guy was sitting on the other's shoulders swinging it around. They came out of the water like this. The guy on the bottom walked away and the one on top stayed that height. He had really long legs now and was all out of proportion. The other guy had his shirt off and they were getting really rowdy now, like they were raging drunk. It started raining. The teacher from the last dream drove up in a golf cart. She said, "Maybe you don't see anything wrong with your behavior, but there are other people here who do not appreciate it." Then drove off. I felt nervous because and wondered if she had recognized me.

Then we went inside to see the boss. The shirtless guy was Adam now and he said that our band wouldn't be playing any gigs here now. We were in a basement looking at a marker-board that had a list of bands playing there soon and other venues listed as well. Then we walked upstairs and I saw some friends of mine. They were all wearing suits and looked like they were in the mafia. One guy snuck up on my friend pulled a fake gun out, held it to his back and whispered something really funny to him. Then put it away and hugged him or shook his hand. We all talked for a minute. The place was a restaurant so the other guy and I went to see the boss about getting jobs. He was really happy. He showed us the kitchen. I made a correction in his sudoku puzzle(2 2 in a line) and he said this guy's sharp, make sure you come back for an interview. Then we were walking out and the gun thing happened again but this time it was my friend Jantzen doing it. We all laughed.

Then I was outside by myself. I saw a car back out, smash into a building across the street then drive off. It happened really quickly and violently. The teacher came out and said something like,"Do they really think they can get away with this?" I told her what color and make the car was and that I had seen them smash into the building so it'd be easy to find them, their car would be all dented up. She smiled at me and said, "I would have never thought of that I know nothing about cars."

Then we were in her recording studio. She was checking the computer for what files they had stolen. The studio was a big cluttered room with bright fluorescent lights and 2 computers. A younger girl was at one of the computers working.


I remember little bits of a dream where an R&B band was playing. Jarius was playing guitar and I was trying to explain who he was to someone and how Nelson had shown this guy to me on youtube.

2-3-11
I had a dream where I was at Mike's appartment getting stoned. It looked a little like his old house but just because it had a bunch of couches and a big TV. The room was different, and it changed throughout the dream. When we were smoking we were standing up in a room with bright fluorescent lights, similar to the recording studio yesterday. When we finished smoking Mike and Nick went outside for a cigarette. One of the girls went out to but she just went to her car, got her smokes, and came back inside and smoked there. She had rolling tobacco. She was doing something weird with it where she would roll the cigarette and tobacco would come out of the end, then she would roll it the other way and it would go back in and come out the other end. A black hipster looking guy came in with three packs of cools that turned out to be more hand-rolleds. He gave everyone but Madison and I one. He blew smoke in my face and it made me feel really high and I had to sit down. Then we were watching TV. One guy kept saying we should watch this thing about the universe with an experimental soundtrack. I kept trying to say we should watch this movie about a character from the dream before, something Ray Bradbury had made(not really thought).

Then this guy had a huge dog outside. It was a 6 ft alien looking German shepherd. It had these strange black marks on it and a menacing but stupid looking face. We could see it through the screen door. He asked someone where he should put them(as in there was another one). Then someone inside looked the dog in the eye or something and it started growling at us. The owner growled at the door and I somehow knew this was to show the dog that the door was bad and he should leave it alone, he shouldn't go in there. He grabbed the dog by the collar and wrestled him into the apartment(a different one). Then there was a panther and he had to do the same with it. The panther bit him(in the head maybe). I said people shouldn't own animals like that and Madison agreed. Then the panther was inside snarling and we were all cowering on the couch. I clawed at one couch so I jumped to the other. It got really close to me and growled in my face. But it didn't do anyhitng. Then I punched it. It punched me back. Neither of us hit hard. Then it sort of pinned me down and licked me so I licked it back.

There was another part where I was looking at the top of my lava lamp. It was curved in a strange way. I was thinking about calling my parents to tell them I wouldn't be home for dinner. The clock below the TV said 6:59.


I had another dream where I was either on the computer or reading about this really interesting character. I called some random phone number and got an electronics shop in Columbus. I was just messing with them, but ended up haggling the guy down on something and then listened to his boss bitch him out. Chris was there and we talked about the character. I remember putting something other than a guitar on a guitar stand, maybe a soda.

This connected to a dream where I was at the rehearsal for Greg's wedding. I remember these big stairs and screwing something up right in front of the camera. This dream was much more vivid at the time but I had it early in the night and don't remember it well now.

WBTB
I had about 5 LDs. I kept falling right back to sleep and going straight into the dream lucid.

In the first I was stuck in hypnogogia. I was lying in bed but I wasn't sure if I was asleep or not. I felt really wierd and saw wierd colors. Then I started dreaming that I was laying in bed trying to fall asleep. I knew it was a dream because of how it felt, I was in SP I think. I couldn't move, but I could roll over. So I rolled off my bed. It didn't hurt at all. I still couldn't move so I started dream spinning. I teleported out into the hallway. I had no balance so I grabbed the railing to keep from falling over. The physics all gave out and I started floating in. I held onto the railing to keep from flying away, very like the opening scene in waking life with the car.

I woke up and fell right back asleep.

I was at this recording studio standing on the porch talking with some musicians walking around. We stopped at a door and I looked in and saw someone playing guitar and a bunch of equipment, amps, EQs etc. I remembered my goal. I visualized the case and then reached into my pocket. It worked! But it didn't look exactly how I imagined it. I sat down and opened it. There were just a bunch of tobacco roaches inside. I asked Mark if he had any weed. He said, "yeah, just some mids". Then I tried to make some danque appear by closing and opening the case. First I made a burnt looking joint but wasn't satisfied. I was able to make a bud. Then I spent what seemed like a half an hour breaking it up while talking with people around me. I was still lucid when I focused, but I was spacing out not really aware of what I was doing. When I finished breaking it up there was only a tiny little bit. I asked Mark for some. It's kind of hard to tell the order of what happened next. I was really unsure about what to do and kept looking around scatterbrained. I saw some huge buds of mids on the table. I remember thinking I don't wanna smoke mids, then thinking it's a dream, it's not real weed anyway so it doesn't matter. I remember Mark opening his bag and a whole bunch of keef falling out. I got really excited. We decided to pack a bowl.

I woke up and thought about writing those 2 dreams down but decided to go right back to sleep instead.

I dreamt I was leaving my house in my car following my mom. I looked away for a second and when I looked back her car had turned into a green one, I noticed that this didn't make sense but didn't turn lucid right away. We turned onto Bancroft and I realized it was a dream. I remember driving on the wide sidewalk on the front of campus. I got out of my car. I remember walking around a bit. Talking to people, more at them randomly. I remember sliding down this long cement ledge either on my feet or on a skateboard. Might have been doing a boardslide.

I was in this really fancy house. It was similar to mine, but much nicer. I remember a piano but I didn't play it. I talked to some people, maybe my family. I pulled out a cigarette case. Hand-rolleds again. I may have closed it and opened it and found a joint and smoked it but I can't remember now.

I keep waking up 5 minutes before class and have had to write my dreams later in the day so a lot of the details are lost. I know I had at least one more LD too, but don't remember it now, have been feeling very rushed lately, but I'm really just rushing myself.

2-4-11

I had a dream where I was hanging out with Nick. Before that I was writing some music with Brad. Nick kept wanting to make more food. I told him I needed to go to Durdel's to get some strings. It was 6:40 and I said we needed to go now to get there before they closed. I was thinking it was sunday even though the're closed on sounday. Nick wanted to make one more thing to eat first. He handed me a fruit by the foot and told me he'd drive and loan me the money to buy them if he could(for some reason I thought we had to go to his house to get my money). I said fine. He put something in the oven. I checked it a minute later and the fruit by the foot was in there sizzling yellow goo(I think he origianllay put something cheesey in there). I told him it was done. He said I dunno before he even looked. Then he checked and the goo sixxled up and hit him in the face. He winced in pain and closed his eyes. He had the tea kettle on and it was shooting out water.

It was 6:45 now and I told him we had to leave in the next 3 minutes or we'd never make it. He said give him 6 and I said alright for some reason. I looked in the driveway and saw my car there and not his and I said I'll just drive. Then it was 6:49 and I noticed I was wearing pajama pants and a ratty sweater. I ran upstairs to change. I put on some pants and decided the sweater was alright since I was just going to the store. I found a bunch of money in my pants. My room was extremely messy and reminded me of the table in Nick's basement.

While I lay in bed after waking I had a dream about a chior singing at Gesu. They were singing very strange verses. I could tell I made them up. I didn't really become lucid, this was hardly even a dream, kind of just imagery. I sort of realized I was laying in bed thinking all this but I wasn't even really there, it was just an image.


I remember a fragment where I was washing dishes and found $50 in the water.

I was in my house in the piano room. I was talking with Benny. Not sure if he was there from the start or just appeared. We were talking about music. I asked him if he still played much. He said yeah, I jam with some friends sometimes. Everything he said had no content, it was a sort of mimicry. I looked out the window and saw a young women putting stuff on the lawn for a garage sale. I thought the old lady must have died, that;s her daughter. I looked back at Benny and realized that I hadn't seen him since high-school and this was probably a dream. On top of that I had my winter coat on and it was nice outside, and I was inside. I thought about RCing but I didn't. I might have asked Benny what it's like to be a DC but if I did he didn't answer.

Then I walked outside to the sale. I had decided I was gonna do this right before I became lucid and did it automatically. I walked throught the window. I remember looking at a latch and thinking I can just walk through this, I don't need to open it. I started looking for Madison to do the basic ToTM. I was really hot with my coat on and I thought I wouldn't mind being naked when I found her so I decided to make my clothes disappear. I was too scatterbrained to physically take them off, I felt like I'd wake up if I did. Never found her though.

I remember looking at the sky. It had a strange jagged pattern in it of shades of grayish blue. I walked a few blocks before making it to the garage sale. The neighborhood seemed to deteriorate as I walked through it into a slum. I remember seeing a barren tree. I looked around the sale and talked to the owner(pretty sure I was still naked haha).

I was in my room and I heard my little brother. I knew he was already at school so this must be a dream. I flicked the lights on and off to make sure. Nothing. I looked at the lights. The bulbs were gone and there were strange black and brass electronic devices in there place. I think this might have been my mind trying to rationalize why the lights didn't work but I didn't realize this in the dream. I went downstairs and played piano. I wasn't really playing, my mind had a song going and no matter what I played it played that song. I could sort of change the rhythm. I didn't really like the song.

I was outside a building, maybe a bowling alley. I went inside and was in a room that looked sort of like mine, but the dimensions kept changing. There were 2 old ladys arguing and a friend of mine trying to get them to stop. I think Madison was there too. I left and walked around outside. I remembered more of this dream when I first woke up but not now.

I think I had 2 more LDs where I was walking around looking for Madison in my house and in the neighborhood.

I remember another LD where I was looking at the sky or a wall and it had a strange pattern on it. I looked closer at it and woke up looking at the sun coming through the blinds.

Few more non-lucids as well but I don't feel like typing anymore of these now, finally caught up.

2-5-11

I had a LD where I was in my room. I flipped the lightswitch and it didn't work so I thought I must be dreaming. Then I flipped it again. It kinda worked but not right. There was a delay, which was odd because lights never work in my dreams. I went downstairs and then out the front door. I was jogging for some reason. I saw my mom and a friend of hers standing on the sidewal. They asked me why I was in my pajamas and I realized I was. At first I felt kind of embaressed then I realized it was a dream. For some reason I started to think that there was gonna be a parade or some big thing with lots of people behind me. I remember seeing a flat cat and dog on the road. Completely flat like in cartoons, but real looking too.

I remember leaving school with Ben to go somewhere. He had just taken some kind of test and I somehow got out of taking it. I felt anxious because I ddin't wanna waste all my gas. Then he offered to drive. We got in his car. We went to the gas station. He asked me for some money for gas. I told him I didn't really have any, that's why I asked you to drive, but maybe I have a few ones. Then he took 2 checks out of his pocket, one for $60 and another for $10. Then he said something about toppings to the guy. He went outside and started making a pizza at the gas pump. He had a big square pizza shell and was pumping pizza sauce out of the gas pump onto it. I remember being hungry and wanting some but at the same time feeling grossed out thinking that pizza probably has gas on it.

I had a bunch of FAs too. In one Daniel in his friends were in my room and I was trying to get them out. My dad came in and said Oscar's dad was here and led him out. Sean was looking through a big stack of holographic pokemon cards. I asked them if those were Chris' and he said no, Jackie gave them to me.

In another my phone was ringing or maybe I just got a text. When I found the phone it was my sister's. I had this weird charger with a bunch of small magnetic balls on it that connected to the phone. When I connected them there were balls on the phone too.

Then I had this crazy dream where I was going to take part in a science experiment. This was another FA and everything took place in my room. I talked to the scientist fro a minute and they told me I would have to wait a few minutes so I went back to bed. I was WILDing. I saw amazing visuals as I lay there. Then I heard the scientists voice and remembered that I was supposed to be doing an experiment so I jumped out of bed totally naked and the scientist, who could see me from the hallway, made a joke. There was a lot more to this but I don't remember it now.

I remembered some fragment with something written by Ken Kesey when I woke up but don't remember it now.