Thread: Sylph's Workbook - Meditation in LD Class

2010-05-22
Began reading the availabe chapters of the book on Yoga Dreams suggested by Morphenius on Lemmefly's Workbook.

2010-05-23
Finished reading the book and took some notes for further study. I rather liked this one (thanks, Morphenius ), not just for the info on lucid dreaming but also because I got to know more about another view of the world. It was useful for something else I'm working on.

Did my usual night session. No breaktroughs, though.
I wonder how everyone else is faring.

2010-05-29
Tried a little session before bed. I don't even remember what happened anymore but I think I had to quit again...


2010-05-30
Came across this thread here on DV and started reading the links, which was most helpful. This is what I feel we're trying to achieve with our meditation exercises, or -at the very least - it's the first step towards the final goal.
I was in fact a bit put out by my findings in these texts because I have had - in a more distant past - some experience with this kind of thing and I should have realized that this was the ticket, so to speak. I guess it just slipped me...
Yeah, I'm that dumb!

Anyways...
After getting hit in the face by the obvious, it was time again for my night session. And this time around it was different. After a while I kind of "zoned out" a bit. It felt like my body was falling asleep and about to topple over, although I wasn't sleepy at all. I had to snap my muscles back on a couple of times because I was sitting on my narrow bed and falling on my head would not have been the most relaxing experience.
Basically, the whole thing felt pretty much like a WILD attempt. At the end I was half expecting to start alucinating or something, taking mental notes and planning another go at WILDing - something I never managed to do.

By now about an hour had gone by and I called it a day.


2010-05-31
So now I'm busy trying to get my concious comunication with the right hemisphere back on, experimenting with the different stuff suggested in the texts and just generally trying to remember how this used to work.
After a while I just thought "What the hell" and tried a bit of meditation, this time in the middle of the afternoon with sun and wind pouring through my open window. It didn't take long before I began to "zone out" again.

Come to think of it, I guess at this point I started acting the same way I do in my lucids. I've have always been very confortable in the dreamworld, rarely experience any kind of strain or resistance. It's a bit like floating in the ocean for me, just going with the flow of the water. After all, I am the dreamworld, right?
So I just sort of slid into the water with a good push of my legs, meaning to see where it would take me. I took in the noise from the street even as I focused on my breathing - the rustling trees, the birds, people talking, even cars going by. Then, it got really cool.
I suddenly was very aware of my torso expanding and contracting with my breathing - all the muscles, the ribs, the skin. I felt - honest - like my torso, from waist to neck, had become a gigantic hollow heart pumping air! I didn't just feel it, the image was pretty clear in my head as well - a big red plastic-like heart with my head, arms and legs sitting on the bed.

I was rather amused by this and I think this may have distracted me a bit. But as this sensation faded I came to notice something else. I was seeing something on the back of my eyelids. It was looking at an eye made of orange lines against a yellow backdrop and curved, pulsating orange lines - eyelids, I suppose - kept running in front of the orange iris from different directions, much like the effect of a neon light.

Eye.jpg

I watched it for a few moments and then began wondering if it had something to do with my bloodflow against the light - and then it was gone and I realized it wasn't.

Soooo... I guess I may finally be getting somewhere, although I'm not being all that "meditative" about it, I suppose. It's more like taking daydreaming to another level. Still...

Yay!