Such things can't be based on logical deduction... If they were, you wouln't ACT according to them!
It may seem that you thought it out logically, but these thoughts come to depressed people in the first place. You may be so accustomed to that state that you didn't notice being depressed. Depressed people like to read about philosophy, psychology, esoterics, etc., they concentrate on such subjects to no end, because they're extremely self-centered and seek a way to escape from the world.
Of course, I'm not using the world "depression" in its clinical meaning.
That's quite a give-away! See, your state IS based on depression! You complain to yourself that you're mistreated, people use you and your time. Many people have the same thoughts, but they vary in degree of depression, some don't pay attention because they know it's useless complaning, some grudgingly work and all, some stop and freeze in moral pain.Quote:
I could never find happiness in careers or any such living where I had to follow the orders of another or work a 40 hour per week "schedule". My freedom means way too much to me.
That's because you're angry that society is not your way... And I can't believe you really really tried to fit it. I think you're proud to be "different".Quote:
The ideal living for me is not possible in this age where all land is owned. My point was that in society I do not fit into one of their "roles" they have set up for me.
But it should be turned around. Instead of being proud of inability to fit in, you could try to look at it as failure. Isn't it a challenge to live in the world you were born into? Rather then seeking a way to escape it and live alone in a small house in the wood, because you had no guts to cope with the world...
All of us live in the same world of advertising and industry, we all have no choice, so ask yourself, why are you so special that you can feel hurt by this world more than others? Nobody likes their time wasted by others, but are you really making something useful with this time, are you being happy or are you endlessly thinking of how mistreated you are and how bad the world is? You're hurting yourself, you feel bad alone, and still you seek loneliness...
Saying people are robots is true to a certain degree, but I think you're making a mistake in thinking that you're different from them. Why despise them, if you realized society has certain rules and they unconsciously follow them? Why refuse their company, thinking they're blind? What's so awfully bad in that, that you're running from them in horror and self-pride?
I'm now trying to show you what's going on with you, but see, you're being as blind as the people you call robots... So why do you feel justified to say that they're robots and you're not?
All people are inherently the same, so it's rather easy for me to say why you're feeling the way you do.
But they are connected to themselves, to their true selves! It's you who disconnected himself from the world and people and is sulking. But it won't bring you close to "yourself", it will only bring you to dwell on your thoughts about how everybody is a robot and how you can't bear it.Quote:
I cannot feel connected with others when they are not connected with themselves in at least in a minor way.
Nobody owes you anything, and this world doesn't owe you anything. It just seems a waste of life that your parents gave you to lock yourself up and sulk.
DOn't go to parties if you don't like to, but wasting life miserably, while covering it with false reasons like "I'm meditating", or "I seek enlightenment" or "I'm a philosopher" is such a waste. There's time for these things in life, too.
So what? Why on earth can't you live among "robots", why do you have to live among people who're free of mind? Are you so special that you can't stand their presence? Do you consider them so inferior to you that you find no pleasure in talking to them? Are you thinking they're so mindless that your brilliant mind can't connect with them?Quote:
In my lifetime I have met 3 people who were very free of mind and unafraid of being a "failure" in society's eyes. Three. Three people I will never forget, mind you.
Sorry if it sounded offensive anywhere, I just know it's pointless to be polite and use vague phrases. Truth needs to be said as it is, otherwise it will have no impact.