Thread: sloth goes insane. (Please read)

to be happy with everything, you must be happy with nothing, because, in essense, they are the same.

This is where you lose me. What is happiness to you then, in actual experience rather than in theory? With such subjective words our points can be lost or misunderstood easily, and I wish to understand what you are really aiming for.

"Happiness" cannot for me be attained until I feel whole, and how can one feel whole when one cannot live naturally, when one is forced to reside in this factitious and superfluous fantasy that man has created? I am nagged by a constant need to "be". Instead of "being" I feel that I am in a state of half-existence. Like I am hooked up to life support and asked to smile at the florescent bulbs set up in place of the sunrise.

I have mastered my emotions before, but I never found happiness, rather "satisfaction"; more like "lack of agony"; boredom and emptiness being it's primary replacement.