Can anyone help me? I'm frightened

[aubree]

In the dream, I was having a dream that I have all the time - I see something, and I'm paralyzed in fear. I can't move. I can't scream. All I can do is sit there, terrified. I woke up, went to my parents' room, and said something along the lines of "I am 16. Why is this still happening to me?" I don't think they answered, but I figured out why. I just don't remember it. It was something to do with control. I couldn't control myself around a certain memory. I remember coming to these conclusions in the dream. I also figured out that the thing that was scaring me so badly was a white rabbit. I was absolutely TERRIFIED of this rabbit. It kept showing up in places. It was just sitting there, no hopping or moving. I think it was the same one every time. Anyway, the next thing I did was wash my hands. I remember having to wash them, but I could barely stand it - I was crying and shaking and completely miserable. Then, it switched to another dream. I was raped. I was walking down the street, I think in my grandmother and grandfather's old neighbourhood. I think I was younger than I am now. I was holding a towel up to my front, but my backside was completely naked. I turned left down a side street, and this guy ran out of the house on the corner that was now behind me. If I had turned right, it would have been the corner to the right of me. Anyway, the house was blue, had a cottage feel, and was shingled. That's all I remember about it. The guy was tall and thin, he had greying hair that was once dark brown. I think he might have had glasses and facial hair. He started running toward me. I instinctively knew he was faster than me, and was eventually going to catch up to me, and maybe that was why I didn't run as fast as I could have. Nevertheless, I still felt guilty about that after. I should have run faster, I should have shouted or cried out for help. There were people walking down the street who saw him chasing me, but they didn't do anything. Was it because I didn't cry out for help? After a few paces, they disappeared anyway. I tried to go right into a yard to hide, but that is when he caught up with me. I don't remember dreaming the actual assault, but I know it happened. The location switched to my house. I didn't recognize the house, but I think it was mine. I told my mom what had happened, but she was nonchalant about it. I wondered if she even believed me. She told me to call 911, but I didn't want to. I tried to hang up, but she had already dialed. I told the 911 operator a fake neighbourhood. She didn't seem to believe me, because I first told her it was in a neighbourhood, then I named a shopping center, and got flustered, so my mom and older sister helped me cover it up by saying it was a neighbourhood next to the shopping center. They were helping me lie about what happened. I took my family to the real neighbourhood and walked through what had happened. My dad, mom, and I think my older and younger sister were there. I don't think my youngest brother was. I showed them what happened. I knew it had happened, but I doubted something about the whole situation. I don't know what or why. I then went to a chatroom that I frequent and told them about it. They all felt awful, and were trying to help me by selling art and giving me the money for it? I thanked them, but refused, because I genuinely felt like a fraud. Then, I was shopping for Christmas presents at a thrift store. Everything was ridiculously overpriced. Somehow, I was all of a sudden on a TV show, then a video game where I had to save people from drowning. I only ended up saving half, even though I tried my hardest to save them all. Those I hadn't saved played a rock-paper-scissors type game to decide which of them would live and which of them would drown. There was a stuffed deer head involved as well (buck) Please help. I don't know who else to turn to- online dictionaries just don't help. I've asked on a few other forums and emailed some interpretation sites. There is some context to the dream that I haven't mentioned, but I'd like to get the more literal interpretation, and if you have any questions, I'd be glad to answer. Thank you so much.

[Philosopher8659]

Very complex. I don't know if you are up to it or not, but try something I wrote and posted on the internet archive, Language and Experience : John J. Clark : Free Download & Streaming : Internet Archive

[aubree]

Thank you! I'll download and listen to it.