Thread: Ex dreams

Well, this is quite possibly the most depressing post that i have replied to. Umm, first how do you recover? Geeeez....eight years...!!! I can bet you money that your ex probably is not dwelling on this lost relationship. So obviously you shouldn't be dwelling on this. First, i am no guru on love. But, ive been around the bend living up and down the east coast ive had crazy shit happen and delt with things people couldnt even joke about. Im not trying to talk myself up either. Now, that ive explained myself, maybe you need to vent with a whole heart your experience in this relationship. And when you talk about it with someone say nothing but the truth. Because the truth is the only thing that will set you free(as cliche as it sounds). Until, you yourself express every emotion, feeling, and thought about your experience you will not let yourself be healed. What better place to spew your emotions of Hate,anger,jealousy,happieness,joy,love, and everything you ever felt about her, than on the Internet. A place where no one knows you and you know no-one!!! Just let it out !!!! God has a plan!! Gotta go watch walking dead!! Ill check this post later!

Okay.....I smoked meth heavily and, I was having depraved sex with her like everyday. I smoked so much that I went thru a psychosis. I had felt she was going to leave me. Lost my marbles and was stuck in jail thinking that amgels and demons where having the last war on Earth. I thought the jail was a human meat markt to chop up ppl that proclaimed Christ. Well anyways being in there for 3 months and getting out. She was a different person. I have never felt so close yet so far from a person in my life....We only talked a few times out of the whole 6 month psychosis and we broke up....I didn't have the mind I have now to say I'm sorry for all my selfishness and everything I did to cause such anguish for the both of us. She got with this guy that smoked meth like me and, the only thing I could think of was they where performing the acts as I was when I was with her. Jeolosy to the fullest. So Instead of getting a warning I got slammed with losing my mind on top of her breaking up with me to God knows what...and, I hate dwelling. I really am getting sick of it. Even tho I don't suffer from depression because of her...I have more just givin up.....I have tried in the dating department but, something has always been able to screw it up. Just six of these stagnic feelings to be honest.

I mean Jail sucks dick. Ive never been but i know from friends. Obviously the relationship with her wasnt the best or healthiest. Im sorry all this shit happened to you but what i did when i had women troubles was i looked for other outlets for compassion and understanding. I look to my male freinds and aqquantinces to help forget about my troubles(not in any homo way) but just hanging out and doing bro shit whenever possible. And possibly god doesnt want you to get a relationship until he feels your ready...but who knows right ? Everything happens for a reason. But, drug use (ive had problems with it before) doesnt really improve things in the long run.