Last year I wrote about this very emotional dream that I had that felt so real. Recently I had another one which is very similar to the first one. (http://www.dreamviews.com/dream-inte...y-grandad.html).
If you have read my first one, above, you would know that i lost my grandad when i was 10 years old. At the time, obviously i was very upset as it was the
first death in the family that i had experienced. I was very fond of my grandad and have come to the conclusion that we shared a special connection. When thinking back on that dream , i still cry everytime. So, two weeks ago my second emotional dream arrived. The weird and upsetting part of it is that i was visited again by a relative that died.....this time it was my grandmother (his wife).
She died four years ago, she was one of the nicest, most influential and caring women that i ever met. For three years before she died, she developed very bad alzheimers. It broke my heart everyday to tell her who i am. I know it wasnt her fault and she would have done anything to try and remember us. My mother took it hardest, she was the closest to her. sorry that i am rambling, she was just such an amazing woman.
In the dream, I was driving the car in our back gate. My mother was in the passenger seat and my grandmother in the back. My grandmother kept asking questions, most of them were repeated again every few seconds. You could see the sadness in my mothers face as she listened to the same question again and again. She got out of the car to lock the gate. Gran asked me the same question again 'what day have we dear?' to which i responded 'its friday gran'....I tried to answer the question normally, without showing any bit of repetition or annoyance as i know it wasnt her fault. I heard her shuffle in the back seat, she did this everytime before she asked a question so i waited for it. However this time it wasnt a question..she said to me 'You know, I love your mother so much it hurts me'. I was shocked by this as it wasnt like her to make a statement like that after a period of quietness. I turned to her and asked her to repeat it, to see if she would have any recollection. She went on to say 'I love her very much, i know it pains her to see me going through this, i can see it it all of yer faces. I havent forgotten ye, my head has but i havent. Tell her that will you? tell her i love her/ tell her daddy loves her too'. My mother then closed the gate behind us came back to the car and hopped in. My grandmother wasnt there anymore. Mam turned to me looking cheerful (this part of the dream felt like it wasa few years since grans passing). She smiled at me and then i told her what gran said. she cried. A while later in the dream i walked to the gate. It looked huge. I just stood there looking at it. I then got the smell. it was raspberries and daisies. I looked down and there was a raspberry bush growing by the gate. I picked one up and ate it, feeling an overwhelming sense of calmness. I picked some daisies and started walking back to the house.
I know that my gran grew flowers and raspberries but i dont know if i subconsciously created this dream myself because of the first dream and the happiness it brought me. It was very similar to the first, i heard her voice, clear as day, smelt her perfume, saw the purple cardigan, black skirt, white shirt and flower broach that she wore years ago. I find it difficult to understand, did i make this up? Its strange that i had dreams about both grandparents isnt it??
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