A Dream That Brought About A Surge Of Huge Emotions

[Armageddon_Heaven]

Alright, as not to confuse anyone, before I start I got to state that I'm gay and haters can stfu. 2 yrs ago my friend Chris moved to Alaska. Now, I never told him (He was straight), but I had a huge crush on him. I had dreams about him, and felt a little ashamed as well. He left and I got really sad and stopped dreaming about him. Of course, until last night. I was at school and with my friend Lauren. She told me to turn around, and when I did, he was standing there, smiling. I got excited and lost my cool and gave him a high five and a quick "man hug". It was so great to see him again. All of the sudden he told me "Hey could you meet me in the bathroom?" I shrugged and said "ok". I assumed that since class was going to start soon, he wanted to hang out with me some more before we had to be separated again. He rushed out of the room and I followed him. When I entered the bathroom, there was no one there, and then... From behind, he came and gave me this hug. He put his arms around me and was gentle and warm. I was surprised at him at first, and soon felt this...bliss. It was the height of all joy, all happiness. The romantic ecstasy was...so, so immense, words can't describe a tenth of of how amazing I felt. He sort of pushed me to the wall, still holding me, and said, "I will love you, I will come back for you," then he let go, still watching me, and headed for the door, "As long as you remember me.". I looked at him for just one second, and then I woke up. Wow. Never in my life have I had a dream that brought about so much emotion and longing in me, but I know he's straight and lives thousands of miles away, you know? I sort of hate my evil subconscious =P What do you guys think? Should I continue this, and try having Lucid dreams with him in them, or try really really hard to stop this from happening again? Though I really would love to have him in lucid dreams, I understand if dreaming about something you can never have could lead to insanity or social problems and stuff.

[wasup]

I understand if dreaming about something you can never have could lead to insanity or social problems and stuff.[/b] Not really. Unless you think everyone on this board who has had a lucid dream is insane/has social problems. I fly in a lucid dream, but it doesn't mean I'm going to become insane.

[Armageddon_Heaven]

Well, I know, but flying doesn't involve other people. It's like, if Chris and I ever met again sometime in the future, it has potential to be weird if I've been spending years with his dream impostor.

[Moonbeam]

No, I think this is what lucid dreaming is made for--to do the stuff that you want to do but can't in real life. You shouldn't hate your SC for giving you a dream that powerful. Maybe you can use it as a VILD now. P.S. We posted at the same time. You would be lucky to be so good at LD that you spend years dreaming about him. I bet someone else will take your attention away from him eventually. (Sorry I know it might not seem like it; speaking as an old(er) person, that usually happens.)

[Clairity]

Moonbeam stated exactly what I would have said. Enjoy this dream (and other lucid dreams) for what there are (simply wishes fulfilled). (p.s.. great post Moonbeam&#33

[Armageddon_Heaven]

Ah, I'm glad you guys are right =P Now I don't have to feel like I'm doing something wrong when I [spoiler]make sweet love to him[/spoiler] in my dreams =P I like the way you worded it, Clarity, dreams are simply wishes fulfilled. I like the way it sounds ^_^

[Nyx]

I could barely read this, it was too gay. I thought he was going to pound you in the ass. What's even worse is that I live in Alaska.... and my name is Chris lol. Oh my.

[Clairity]

I like the way you worded it, Clarity, dreams are simply wishes fulfilled. I like the way it sounds ^_^[/b] Thanks.. I think I'll add that line to my signature!

[Spamtek]

No, you ain't no freak. At first I thought I was the only who's had episodes of... I never called it love, but perhaps that's only because I've never been amorous in waking life - but episodes of that, whatever it is, all-consuming happiness, finding a feeling of absolute completion within the depths of their others' eyes, complete acceptance, an unremitting sense of worth instilled deep into the core of your being? I recently read a mugwort report on erowid that recounted precisely the same feeling, and I've heard it alluded to since then in a couple of dream logs - so whatever it is, there's a precedent for it. As an outsider to the sensation I might have warned you to not go too far down the rabbit hole of self-indulgent dreaming... but as a person now party to that sense of all-consuming fulfillment, all I can do, irrationally, irresponsibly, maybe even dangerously, is tell you to go for it with all the enthusiasm you can muster, and if you have extra, maybe send some my way while you're at it. Good luck.

[FluBB]

well i would keep doing it i guess... but i mean you have to think about this from a straight point of view. if he knew he would probably flip out and shoot you. but... i guess you shouldnt let outside influences get to you like that... so its your choice.. ps. its late