My strange dreams don't follow the typical protocol many people's strange dreams follow. They rarely have oddities in the physical sense, like your leprechauns, or the cliche flying pig, etc. Instead, I often experience strange psychological phenomenon within myself in response to seemingly ordinary things and situations.
In one I had recently, I was in an ordinary country-house type of residence, with a group of people outside, somewhat like a small get-together. They were having a happy time, chatting away at their various stories and rantings.
I was having a terrible sense of foreboding, a glooming sense that something wrong was happening, particularly with myself. I began to have an indescribably strong sensation that the people in the back yard chatting away were not really there, and that I was hallucinating them. I quickly ran into the kitchen, to find someone who 'felt' real to me, and found someone in my family (my mother I believe).
I knew she was really there, but I began to feel a terrible sense of vulnerability and fear that I was going insane. I tried telling her, but I began to sob. I was losing sense of reality, and couldn't tell what was real and what wasn't. The fear grew and grew until I woke up.
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That was the second or third going-insane dream I've had, and they disturb me every time. That's really one my two only fears: going insane and becoming confined/captured against my will with no hope of escape.
Creepy things, ghosts, zombies, corpses, death, etc. don't scare me. I'd be more terrified of being stuck in some debilitating state while alive, like insanity or imprisonment, than being dead.
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