I don't know if I am alone in this thought but I would like to know. I go to bed every night and have the most vibrant dreams. I dream the impossible, epic tales of warriors and demons. Worlds being destroyed and reborn. Falling in love and not wanting to let go.

I wake up every morning, same old room, no love because of a fiancé who left me for no reason, a job that is going nowhere and studying in school to become a neurosurgeon but having no social life because of it. I am also slowly going colorblind which means I will more than likely not be able to become the surgeon I desire to be if this proceeds.

I don't know it just seems so bland and menial. Whereas, in a dream I feel purpose and compassion. I dwell in lush landscapes and vibrant worlds. I love and have it returned to me completely. I never want to leave that world.

Does anyone else feel this way or has felt this way and if so what did you do about it or how did you get past it. Also if you don't feel this way, why not? I am not looking for this to turn into a counseling thing just probing for ideas and thoughts. Thanks guys.