In 7th grade, or actually every year on the first day of school, we always fill out our goals, of what we want to accomplish in life. i had all my goals written down. Later on that night, i thought to myself, what happens when i complete all my goals, do i just wait to die? what is the point of life if we all just die? Eventually if our sun is just going to die out, then why even work to improve our earth, when it's just going to die anyway? I found out a lot of suicidal people thought that way. So i changed teh way i looked at things, i thought, "hey, we're here and there's really nothing you can do about it. If you want to leave, then leave, but since we're here, why not have fun in the mean time, and make the best out of things." So that's what i did, but the thought of why and how we're here still lingered there. I I started reading einstein's theories and one of my favorite mystics, Alan Watts. He made me believe a lot of things he pointed out.
The Beginning of the Beginning
I believe that the universe was created by a mind, and "origional consciousness" or you may be more familiar with the word "God" but i don't like to use that word because too many people think of Jesus Christ when they hear God. So i call it the "origional conciousness, or mind" i believe that everything that is here now, was thought about very carefully, before it came to being. Becasue in order for us to live, it is very complex. For instance, the human race, and basically, all living things cannot exist except in a certain kind of natural environment. Obviously a body requires air, and the air must within a certain temperature range. The body also requires certain kinds of nutrition. So in order to occur the body must be on a mild and nutritive planet with just enough oxygen in the atmosphere spinning regularly around in a harmonious and rhythmical way near a certain kind of warm star or our sun. Now, is all of that just a mere coincidence? i don't think so.
One thing that i read from alan watts, really caught my attention:
Underneath the superficial self, which pays attention to this and that, there is another self more really us than I. And the more you become aware of the unknown self -- if you become aware of it -- the more you realize that it is inseparably connected with everything else that is. You are a function of this total galaxy, bounded by the Milky Way, and this galaxy is a function of all other galaxies. You are that vast thing that you see far, far off with great telescopes. You look and look, and one day you are going to wake up and say, "Why, that's me!" And in knowing that, you know that you never die. You are the eternal thing that comes and goes, that appears -- now as John Jones, now as Mary Smith, now as Betty Brown -- and so it goes, forever and ever and ever.
To gain the happiness we already have -one of Watts paradoxes- we have to alter not only our notion of ego but also our notion of God. For in fact these two concepts are closely related. The authentic self of man is none other than this God. In most religions such a statement would be sheer blasphemy, but nevertheless it is the true religious experience of every true religious person. Watts replaces the old concept of a personalized God with the more abstract concept of "IT", (which i think makes since, because the word IT itself, can mean anything!, ..........and everything) the religious force that works in everything 'death' and alive. This IT is full of consciousness and indeed the life force of the universe.
Watts also says that this "unknown" self can be found through meditaion, yoga, and DREAMING.
But the experience of the Self can grow to ecstatic heights by these techniques, if properly practised with the help and the instruction of a master. Then something happens that's an integral part of the quality of the Self. Then the blissfulness of the Self, opens up in our hearts. This aspect of religion and mysticism is not presented in its fullest impact in the writings of Watts. And that's a pity, because it could have been used as a valid argument for the truth of his philosophy. Once the Self is realized and a connection is (re)established between our soul and the soul of everything surrounding us, then a great jubilation rises up in our hearts underlining the truth of all Watts has written: 'yes, that's it!' our heart then seems to shout (or not to suppress the obvious pun: 'yes, that's IT!'). For truth is not something that's confirmed by the mind alone, but truth is experience of wholeness and is therefore confirmed by the heart also.

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I combined your multiple posts...
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