Lost memories

[MindCeNse]

I write what i can because the fear is eating me up and at least i know that i took a risk of sorts.This things keep circulating in my head and they strike me hard some times and i feel it is better to tell them. Last night i had a dream were i was with friends and stuff and it is christmas time and people are talking to me and i speak to my sister but notice that i am mentally ill. Then i start crying to my sister who seems to be the only one who understands me. Then i slowly wake up crying. I cant descibe it but i know that all these things in my life are connected. Ive also had a dream had me in the future were i was a like retired soldier and people kept telling me about there being missing plates of sorts. It stikes me as wierd because also in that dream it showed a young me and an old me in some training enviroment. Then i see my sister bring in some movies where i for me to watch. For some reason it feels as though they are rying to reboot my memory. At the end of that dream my sister thinks i dont know who she is but i tell her i love her and i will always know her. Even writing this hurts me inside and brings tears. Those experinces also have feeling of notebook where i seem to blank out with only a single sense of clarity. Then in the last creepy one where i got sucked into this hole and in the mirror i am this disfigured looking guy from Vailla sky but before i see this part i have this video in my head where im in this office where there is this meeting going on and this one guy gets shot. Then i wake up into this hospital. The one about the meeting freaks me out the most because i read an article somewhere after that with many things related to my dreams but that one had such deja vu like feel to it. I have more but really cant type any more at this time time.

[ronso]

I'm sorry but I didn't get your message, not sure if I'm the only one...

[Howie]

MindCeNse. I really do not know you personally but I would rest assured that you are sane. I can ofcaoarse these types of dreams are going to, "eat you up." That would with on anyones mind. I can relate mostly to your feeling of insanity dreams, for I have had four or five. Although when you say you awake drying is that from sadness or fear. In my case it is fear. I try to look at theses dreams as to view them as a perspective and to learn from them. But I don't have them reaccuring. <span style="color:green">I think You need to finf the underlying issues that is causing you subconscious to rehash such feeling as you sleep. Originally posted by MindCeNse For some reason it feels as though they are rying to reboot my memory. When you say, " them" you mean ??? I think it is you, you own mind crating these scenarios personally, as it would be with anyone. And with stress and bad dreams There is a coralation to memory and the like. So to experiance your memrories and have them seemingly be erased is most do to the stress. For again stress is Synonomous for memory problems, or lack there of. I hope you get this figured out. </span>