Waking Life

**ASittlow** · 08-09-2011 06:17 AM

Okay. This is my first time posting anything on any type of forum so be nice

; and forgive my grammar, and the long summery of everything.

I am a natural lucid dreamer, and it has always thrown me off that others are not. Since my earliest memories of dreams, I have had complete control. My nightmares ceased too exist when I was about 7, because everything that was horrifying no longer frightened me, because I knew I had the power to wake myself up at anytime or change the circumstance. As I grew up I realized I did not need to wake my self up, because I have the power to manipulate my dreams to whatever I see fit. This is all besides the point.. The reason I am posting this, is because I have a question about something in one of my dreams that I can not determine what it means too me. So I am asking to see if it means anything to anyone else.

Before I describe the dream; I will have to tell about another dream I had, To make It relevant. More or less, The first dream that's relevant happened in a time when I was having a pre-midlife crisis. I quit my job(decided I would never show up again), packed everything I could into my mustang; And drove off into the sunset. I didn't know what I was looking for, but I felt my calling; and I wasn't going to stop till I found It. As I was driving threw Montana, the feeling or calling I felt vanished. I knew I did not need to go west anymore, and I knew I didn't need to go back the way I came; and I began to wonder what the hell I was doing out here, but I wasn't going back. So I started to drive south. Then I found this place in Montana, Medicine Rocks State Park. I knew this is where I had been called too instantly. I read the history on the place and It made so much sense to me. At this point I had already spent my last dime, and hadn't eaten anything in days(all money went to into gas). Whether I realized it or not I had been fasting. The Native Americans had said this is a place of big medicine, and that the rocks gave off healing auras; and since my arrival I knew this was a mystical place. I had then searched, and found my rocks, and atop them is where I found the place I knew was the spot I was searching for. I will skip all the details, but I summoned the spirits of that place. I had asked them too "Help guide me in my hunt, to find that which I seek." They did not give me the answers I was looking for; but that night they spoke too me threw my dreams. I became conscious in my dream in mid sentence, which has never happened to me before. I do not remember what was being talked about before this point. I named this post Waking Life because I was talking to a person in the movie; Only it wasn't animated, It was as real as life. I was talking to the guy who tells you it doesn't matter how many crayons life gives you, Its what you do with the crayons that matters. So I awoke in my dream sitting in Medicine Rocks, at the picknik table in my campsite; And I was talking to him in mid conversation saying, "But I don't want to draw with the Yellow Crayon". He told me, "Good, You don't have too; That's the beauty of individuality, only you can decide." I then woke up. The shortest dream I had ever had, and It has been one of the few I can not completely comprehend. The dream had meant a lot to me in many ways. Until I had this last dream; I didn't realize however short it was, I was not grasping all of the meanings in it..

My last dream was a dream that was almost entirely deja vu, of things that happened in life. I was sitting, talking with two of my closest friends; and it was almost completely normal. Except that her 3 year old niece kept telling me over and over, no matter how many times I tried to explain it in different ways I just don't want too; She would not let it go. Saying, " I need to draw with the yellow crayon, I must draw with the yellow crayon." Over and over; Basically beating it into my head I need to draw with the yellow crayon.

It has really thrown my mind threw a loop. I think about everything way too much; and I cannot even begin to give my self a simple, or theoretical idea of what this means to me. So I am asking, "From what I've told you; Does anyone one have any idea what the yellow crayon might be about?"

**Sheddler** · 08-09-2011 07:21 AM

Well... That's quite a story. I would say that your lust for a color, a life choice may have led you into a life of repetition and regret. That's the pessimistic side of it, I'm just trying my hardest to come up with some kind of interpretation of it.

I have a craving to walk out at night, and just.. explore. I can't fathom it, it's such a strange lust.

**Bossalinni** · 08-09-2011 07:37 AM

maybe its telling you to make your own decisions and let people make theirs?

-you remembered the guy by refering to the park of the movie where he tells you that(in different words)
-in your dream he told you the same thing

Just my guess (not a expert by far)

Yellow: It's associated with joy, happiness, intellect, energy and awareness.

**ASittlow** · 08-09-2011 07:55 AM

Originally Posted by Sheddler

Well... That's quite a story. I would say that your lust for a color, a life choice may have led you into a life of repetition and regret. That's the pessimistic side of it, I'm just trying my hardest to come up with some kind of interpretation of it.

I have a craving to walk out at night, and just.. explore. I can't fathom it, it's such a strange lust.

I appreciate it. I have never liked the color yellow, it is one of my least favorite colors; if not my least. At the time this was a major life change, with aspiratrions of leaving behind a life a repetition and regrets. I think about everything; and have been considered pessimistic. I expect the worst, and am hoping for the best. That way I am prepared for whatever happens. So I'm glad you do look at the pessimistic side, a lot of people don't. It bugs me, because It is a two sentence dream; and I cant completely interpret it; and I know all the details, and what things mean in my dreams. I do not think it is about my lust for a color, or life choice that may have led me into a life of repetition and regret; If anything It would be the opposite.

**ASittlow** · 08-09-2011 08:03 AM

Originally Posted by Bossalinni

maybe its telling you to make your own decisions and let people make theirs?

-you remembered the guy by refering to the park of the movie where he tells you that(in different words)
-in your dream he told you the same thing

Just my guess (not a expert by far)

Yellow: It's associated with joy, happiness, intellect, energy and awareness.

I agree, that is what I got out of the dream. I already knew it, but until I had this dream I didn't except it. Only I can choose what I do, and what I don't do; where I go and don't go. So on and so on. The same goes for everyone else, I agree. That's what I got out of what he told me. I still don't understand what I was talking about, Or what I'm referring to. I don't think I was saying I don't want joy, happiness, intellect, energy and awareness.

**Atras** · 08-09-2011 07:44 PM

Hmm that's very interesting, I just actually watched the movie Waking Life yesterday. Is there something in your life you feel you shouldn't do or don't want to do? Or something you feel a calling to do that you don't think you can do? The yellow crayon could represent that thing in your life that you need to do that either you don't want to do, or have never felt you could do. Also, the yellow aura is: the color of awakening, inspiration, intelligence and action shared, creative, playful, optimistic, easy-going. Emerging psychic and spiritual awareness; optimism and hopefulness; positive excitement about new idea. Spiritual energy and power activated and awakened; an inspired person. Those are all definitions of yellow aura.

**ASittlow** · 08-11-2011 03:26 AM

Originally Posted by Atras

Hmm that's very interesting, I just actually watched the movie Waking Life yesterday. Is there something in your life you feel you shouldn't do or don't want to do? Or something you feel a calling to do that you don't think you can do? The yellow crayon could represent that thing in your life that you need to do that either you don't want to do, or have never felt you could do. Also, the yellow aura is: the color of awakening, inspiration, intelligence and action shared, creative, playful, optimistic, easy-going. Emerging psychic and spiritual awareness; optimism and hopefulness; positive excitement about new idea. Spiritual energy and power activated and awakened; an inspired person. Those are all definitions of yellow aura.

Yes to all questions. Thank you! The order you asked those question set off a spark in my mind, that spread into a wildfire of thoughts and dreams; I had long ago repressed. I know what my purpose is in life. I had put it out of my mind long ago, because of how absurdly impossible the things I need to accomplish are. This has been more than an awakening for me. I know so much more now than I did back then, I know anything is possible. I quote Albert Einstein, "Only those who attempt the absurd can achieve the impossible." I thank you again! This has meant more to me than you will ever know.