Hi, I'm a first timer...

I have experienced lucid dreaming a handful of times over the past few years, but I have never disciplined myself to try and control or furthur explore them. I usually just tried to wake up immediately, always with success .(I do this by "falling asleep" in the dream)

But today was different. During an afternoon nap I had a frightening dream in which I knew I was three years in my own past (although, upon waking, I realized nothing resembled my real past. the dream took place on a big commune farm...)

There was a man in my dream that I felt a very strange connection to, but something told me that if I got too close to him I would forfeit my waking life (or future life, as I understood it in the dream) I tried telling him that I knew exactly how the next three years of my life would playout. I was very scared that I was going to lose all of this. I closed my eyes, to try to get back to the future....

But the SCARIEST part was that when I awoke on my couch I experienced my first awakened dream paralysis. I couldn't move anything but my eyes. But not my head, so I couldn't look toward the door. I heard my best friend enter and try to get my attention. She grew very angry when I couldn't respond. This was all a hallucination, I live alone.. (she stormed out and the sound of the door slamming was so vivied) So, of course I panicked a bit, felt the chest pressure I read about later. Eventually I convinced myself to relax and close my eyes, slow my breathing. I then awoke just fine.

I did have to do a "reality check" as I guess it is called. I was scared shitless. Anyway, I guess I am just looking for somebody to comfort me! My fear was not prolonged, i was able to rationalize my way through it. I just hope I never experience scarier hallucinations!

Thanks.