Hello fellow lucid dreamers.

I used to love lucid dreaming but lately, they have become terrifying. I have very self-aware lucid dreams and most of the time I have a lot of fun. For the past few weeks, though, they have been anything but. One of the biggest obstacles I have had in my lucid dreams is that I never seem to be able to control anything. I am very aware that I am dreaming, but I haven't been able to defy physics or change reality. For the past few weeks, I have had nightmare after nightmare where my family is brutally murdered or people pop out of no where and try to kill me. Although I know I am not in any real danger, I don't like the shock of things appearing behind couches or having to watch terrible things unfold.

Honestly, I have stopped writing down dreams because I wake up so disturbed by them. I have not been diagnosed with any diseases and my waking life is pretty normal, yet I am plagued by these terrible, terrible, lucid nightmares.

I tried to do some research, but there doesn't seem to be a lot of writing about lucid nightmares. I often try to wake myself up, but that often leads to false-awakenings and more nightmares.

I am in a really bad place and I don't see any way out. I have tried confronting the nightmares and that works sometimes, but I don't want to keep worrying about what I will encounter every time I fall asleep.

Do you have any ideas or similar experiences?