Splodeymissile, the thing is, yes, I end up realizing I'm dreaming, but no, I'm not becoming lucid.
5-15 seconds before the dream naturally ends, I'll kinda just be like, "Huh. I've been dreaming for the past half hour," then either completely ignore this knowledge or get sidetracked immediately afterwards. I'm assuming that the only reason I'm able to make this realization is because I'm waking up.
Also, I somehow doubt I'm trying to hard, because all I'm doing is reality checks, my one, non-lucidity-related mantra, and occasionally having a few minutes where I just stop and think, "Gee. It'd be really cool if tonight ended up being my first lucid dream."
As for WBTB... It's actually one of the bigger reasons why I don't try WILD. Not only do I have sort of circumstantial insomnia that basically keeps me up for the rest of the night once I wake up for the first time, but I also have parents who I'm sure wouldn't appreciate my alarm going off for 15 minutes while I finish up a sleep cycle at 2 am.
And mastermind, I... think that's what I'm already doing? I kind of spend parts of the day just thinking to myself, "It sucks that I haven't had a lucid yet, but I'll have one eventually." and I pretty much always go to bed thinking something along the lines of, "I'm probably not going to have a lucid dream tonight, but it'd be nice if I at least got closer to one or at least remembered my dreams."
In fact, now that I actually think about it, I don't think my goal is even to have a lucid anymore, (well, my ultimare goal is, but, ya know.) but something more along the lines of just making any amount of progress towards LD'ing that didn't happen just due to coincidence. (i.e. How I probably realize I'm dreaming in the last few seconds because I'm waking up and gaining that tiny bit of consciousness.) This probably isn't the same as what you were talking about, but... it's something?
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