I am in desperate need of guidance. Recently i was reading a work of fiction where a girl described an experience she called "lucid dreaming". I was in complete and utter shock. Not only did someone besides me have this debilitating "sleeping problem" but it actually had a NAME! As soon as I could I got on the internet to see what it was so maybe I could finally get some help. No words could do justice to my astonishment that there are people in great numbers studying tips and even paying for training in the hopes that they can achieve an episode of this phenomenon. I'm so afraid i don't even know where to start. From what I've been reading, it's very likely if i describe my "symptoms", you will all think I'm a fraud. But believe me when i tell you--i do NOT feel "gifted". I have so MUCH control it's interfering with my ability to succeed in my WAKEFUL life!! I finally have an answer to the biggest contributing factor leading to my chronic fatigue, insomnia, anxiety, catatonic depressive episodes, inability to get up in the morning--what i feel is very, very, scared.