Lack of Vividness and Awareness in First Lucid Dream

**gaffloda** · 06-24-2014 03:53 PM

There's probably a better place to put this on here, but whatever. So, I sort of had my first lucid dream last night. The reason I say "sort of" is because it wasn't vivid at all and I don't think I was all that aware. In fact, it was even less vivid than my non-lucid dreams, which aren't that vivid themselves, so perhaps that's part of my problem. When I became lucid (I can't recall what exactly caused me to become lucid), I was just trying to get myself to focus; I was talking to myself and trying to keep myself aware of what was going on. The way I reacted when I became lucid was actually quite similar to the way I've reacted a few times after waking up and realizing I was in sleep paralysis, and the overall feel of the experience was similar, too. Anyway, I quickly lost my lucidity and returned to a non-lucid dream. Before I lost awareness, though, I think I was trying to push one of my fingers through certain things. Eventually, I tried pushing my right index finger through the power button of an Xbox 360, and I sort of pushed the power button further in, and then the Xbox started blinking red. By this point, I think I was probably just so absorbed by what I was doing that I'd lost my lucidity. I ended up trying to fix the Xbox. Here's what I'm getting to: For some reason (I guess probably because of all of the first lucid dreams I've heard about people having), I expected it to be much more vivid than a typical dream, and I was nowhere near as aware as I thought I would be; I expected to be, like, blown away in the first few seconds and then wake up pretty much immediately from the exhilaration of the experience. There was hardly any sense of immersion, and when I’m recalling the dream, the space that I was in just seems like it was this dark void: there wasn’t much of anything at all around me, and it’s like it was all pretty much just black. Would remembering to say something like "clarity now" when I become lucid actually be a solution to this problem? Has anyone else here dealt with something like this in the past? Is it possible that I wasn’t really lucid at all? or did I just have a really low lucidity? or what?

**splodeymissile** · 06-24-2014 07:56 PM

Seems to be really low lucidity, which would also explain your general lack of awe. Clarity now would certainly help. Mantras and setting your intention could also help. Trust me, though, when you finally have one with full awareness, you will feel brilliant. As a final thought, you could try WILD, which usually gives you full awareness at the beginning.

**gaffloda** · 06-25-2014 01:07 AM

Originally Posted by splodeymissile

Trust me, though, when you finally have one with full awareness, you will feel brilliant.

Did you have these sorts of dreams before you had a dream with full awareness?

Originally Posted by splodeymissile

As a final thought, you could try WILD, which usually gives you full awareness at the beginning.

I've tried using hypnopompic sleep paralysis as a way to have a lucid dream. I would actually say that the amount of awareness I've had while in sleep paralysis is roughly the same amount of awareness I had in that dream I talked about. I can recall one time when I woke up to find myself in sleep paralysis, and it eventually did transition into a dream, but I just didn't realize it; it was actually a kind of false awakening, now that I think about it. I think maybe I'll try combining Wake Back To Bed with WILD. I've attempted to induce sleep paralysis a few times (well, probably like 15 times or so), but I've never been successful in an attempt.

**Jabre** · 06-25-2014 02:14 AM

You need to step back and focus completely on every one of your senses. Do basic addition, remember the day of the week, and focus on every detail of the dream for a few seconds. Now you've stabilized it and have your bearings. You can continue throughout the dream as if it were just like real life. If you feel the glamour and brilliance slip, don't do everything I mentioned above, just take a deep breath and whirl.

**rays112** · 06-25-2014 01:46 PM

That has happened to me, too. I've had my first LDs recently and none of those were actually vivid and clear... Just as you, my main problem was the sight, I remember everything around me to be blurry and distorted. I suppose everyone's first LDs are like this.. You might get your full awareness after several LDs

Also trying to WILD might help.

**MrPriority** · 06-25-2014 03:24 PM

Originally Posted by Jabre

You need to step back and focus completely on every one of your senses. Do basic addition, remember the day of the week, and focus on every detail of the dream for a few seconds. Now you've stabilized it and have your bearings. You can continue throughout the dream as if it were just like real life. If you feel the glamour and brilliance slip, don't do everything I mentioned above, just take a deep breath and whirl.

This^^ . I also have some troubles with stability, since I'm also only beginning. Though I did notice that when you take a step back and stabilize as Jabre said, it suddenly becomes so much more real. Also I'd say, try to focus on all your senses for a bit. Not just seeing.

If you have trouble remembering to stabilize you can do the stabilize routines during the day. That way they are nice and easy to acces