Hy!

First, sorry about my grammar, english is my second language.

Secondly, I have posted this on Reddit, but didnt got any awnsers. I hope someone can help me here.

So:

I have discovered lucid dreaming about two years ago, but I havent put mayor efforts in it. I did reality cheks, some thecniques, but sometimes I completely forgot about them for like half a year. Maybe, becouse I have never achieved any lucid dreams till this year. This year, I decided, its time to lucid dream. I take it seriously now. I do reality cheks, FILD when I wake up, and write a dream journal. I remember 2-4 dreams every day, sometimes so clearly, that I spend half an hour writing down my dreams. I couldnt find any dream signs, which is sad. All my dreams are different. No animals, feelings, signs, weather, or anything like that. The only thing, is that I am never in a real place. In this year, I have only done reality check in my dream once. It worked, but it was strange, I will write about it soon. I dont know why I dont do RC-s in my dreams, becouse I do RC-s like 20-30 times in a day. I do an RC when I arrive to school, write a test or when I am riding my bike to home. So basically in every situation. Sometimes I forget it, but just for like an hour, and in situations like I have to concentrate hard. This can be a problem. My RC is checking my hands, counting my fingers, than looking away, than back. Also I plug my nose, and try to breath. After that, I just think how I got there, and if anything has an impossible shape, or anyone is swimming in the air, or something like that. I also practise ADA, (All Day Awerness), becouse if I would look around in my dream, I would instanly realize, that that place is imposibble, or I couldnt get there. I am getting really good with it, sometimes I can do it for like half a day, with like only 5-10 mins on "auto-pilot"

So today I had a dream, where I realized I was dreaming. I was about to enter what I think was my neighbours house. I was lucid then, I think. It was strange, becouse I remember it as a normal dream, no sudden realization, like "wow this is a dream, lets fly" or sudden clarity. I remember saying to myself, to focus not to lose my lucidity when I enter the house. Maybe there will be strange things inside, that could draw my attention. I entered the house. There were two doors. I opened the first. But the same door showed up. Like in cartoons. Opened again, and again. Same door again, and again. Than I shouted something like "open!", or "work!", and than I could finally open it. There were tonns of guns inside, all of them were the same type. I remember that, like a normal dream. Like I just dreamed I was lucid. After the fist door, I went to the second one. I imagined my room, than opened the door. It was nearly my room, but like I opened the door too early. Than I just woke up. I had the same feeling, when I did an RC in one of my dreams.

The feeling was very strange, and not like in normal dreams. But I remember it like an ordinary one. I was like lets go there, and I went there. But I didnt have a clear mind, and thinking, like when you get up at noon after a loooong party, and think "where the hell i am?". And no clarity, everything was dark, and simple.

My second dream which I have a quiestion about. I think it was a false aweakening, and I realized that. But it was dark, and I could hardly mouve, and I couldt stand on my feet. I saw some plants were in the door (normally they arent there), but I couldnt see anything else, just assumed it was there. Except the plants, and my windows, and my shelf. The feeling of lucidity was much stronger in this dream, it was just dark, and it was extremely hard to controll.

And also I have a problem with thecniques. WILD never worked for me. I could lay there for hours, I can feel my body go numb, but I have never had Sleep paralysis. Than I just fall asleep, or wake up. No false awakenings. Than FILD. It worked for me only once. Than my mind scared the sith out of me with someone banging on my door, playing a guitar, and speeding up the clock like hell. Of course I woke up. Did a RC instantly, than I sadly went back to sleep. When I feel sleepy after waking up at around 2 or 3 (I always wake up after my dreams at least once a night) I do the finger thingy, than nothing. I feel my fingers are getting heavyer, than I just fall asleep. I trie doing an RC, when my fingers are hardly mouving, but I am never asleep at that stage. By the way I only do a nose-plug RC, maybe thats the problem.

So my questions:
Was that dream, which I first described, a lucid dream? (sorry)
Why cant I just do a RC in my dreams?
I feel like I am different in my dreams, I just do things, not what I have always wanted. Like doing an RC, or just looking around, or rubbing my hands together. How can I just "be myself"?
What am I doing wrong with the thecniques?
And is it possible, to dream about lucid dreaming, without being lucid? If yes, could my previously described dreams be that type?

I am courious, if anyone else had, ore has these problems. Also I would be happy, if you can give me some tipps, or suggestions, or link me some helpfull post/articles how to increase clarity/controll, and wich worked for him/her. And feel free to comment anything, that you think could help me, every answer is usefull for me.

I know, that there are simmilar posts out there, but I couldnt find the awnsers to my questions. Also, I feel like my problems are unique, like everyone elses. So sorry, if I ask some stupid things, I havent got much experience.

Thank you for your help!