Wow guys, I was thinking long post not a lot of replies, thank you so much for your advice...

something I was saying is that because of these thoughts I read books till I physically knock out, ummm, I am homeschooled so I am able to go to sleep at say 2 or 3 am and just wake up at 10 am, but then I dont feel fully rested, last night I went to sleep at 1 am and tried HILD(hypnosis induced lucid dreams) and BWGen - The Dream Expierence 1.8.2. and tried going to sleep with those, the thoughts got shut out of my mind more, and I started concentrating on the breathing and body point techniques and I prayed a different prayer then I usually did and I just enjoyed the fact I was alive rather then dread the fact that it wasnt forever... I dont know it must've been the concentrating on my breathing and the meditation brainwave entrainment, it took my mind off the usual things and helped me to focus more.

Another thing, it helped me to concentrate more on praying and focus more, I dont know, just having a non-music beat in the background... maybe that was it...

Thank you very much for your replies I will look into the dream disorders...

I'm glad someone can relate... well not exactly haha, but I mean i'm glad i'm not alone ... Good Luck with it, I really think the entrainment keeps my brain on my heart, and my breathing, rather then the things around me.. and since Lucid Dreaming is like a goal of mine, I actually got off earlier then I would, said I'm gonna try this, and had a clear mind... for some reason since looking up this stuff I have had more control over it, maybe it's because I have a goal with my mind versus letting my mind control it.

Thoughts, opinions?

Sincerely,
Ezekiel


P.S. Thanks Again. !