Now, I'm new to this whole dreaming business, and I've been reading a fair lot about it over several sites and forums. One of the things I've been reading about is sleep paralysis and the things associated with it, especially hallucinations (of which most would fit very well in a horror movie). In regards to them I have also come upon a few pictures, so if only my head decided to scare me to death, it probably could.

On two occasions I've almost induced it, but was distracted. It didn't come particularly hard, so I know that I could succeed if I wanted. But being the undetermined person I am, I'm not sure I wish to experience anything similar to the horror stories of SP that I've read about. On the other hand, albeit I'm just a beginner, I like the idea of WILD. So for now I've decided to first become proficient in LD by other means, confronting any fears that I may encounter, and hope that with that experience it will be easier to go through hallucinations (in my book they're worse than bad dreams).

My problem is that I now seem to be unable to just go to sleep. I feel certain that I will go breathless and see and hear things without even trying, as if I had forgotten how to fall asleep the normal way. The result is that even the smallest ordinary noise startles me and I keep looking around to see that all shadows in my room are just shadows, and it takes long before I can sleep. I can't help it.

I haven't had any frightening experiences just yet (thank goodness), although yesterday I did hear a demonic voice for a split second (it absolutely couldn't have been anything else), yet nothing else happened that night.

If anyone could give me advice on how to deal with these expectations, it would be much appreciated.