yes, to stand up out of a dream bed and get acquianted with this reality that is in your head. to know it is a dream, to look at your hands--they look just like your hands. beautiful creation hands are. but you know you have to keep your mind on one fact, that this is a dream, and not to wander off in thought. no, pay attention to the here and now.

yes, to wander thru a house that is not yours, to look down halls and wonder what is behind each door. to find your way outside and realize you can jump exteremely high, or do flips gracefully in slow motion, arms out-stretched, feeling the suspension of your body, feet flailing up behind you, back arched. feeling the motion. landing gracefully.

in dream or in the actual world, it is beautiful to see the branches of trees with evening light on all the details of leaves and acorns and twigs. such angled light that it is twilight yellow-orange, golden. it is amazing how real the imagination can be, especially in this state.

when it all went out like someone pulled the plug, there was no time to spin or look at my hands or think twice...gone. it just all left with a bit of thought remaining, hanging out in the middle of bummed nowhere--"aww, man."

when it all goes out i wake up and i feel everything flee from me. with practice, can it be retained? i wrote in my notebook how i wish it wasn't pushed into the subconscience so immediately, so deeply. i remember times past when i woke from vivid non-lucid dreams that hardly seemed to go anywhere. they just linger on your skin, memories full of detail. the experience, when it remains fresh, lets you believe the experience of dreams is worth while, not so fleeting!

can it be fully retained?

there's another question i have. it is so necessarily about the senses and avoidant of thought or reflection. or is it possible to reflect? to ponder different things? i mean we can do it in when we're not in bed, but sometimes we're stressed or concerned with many things, or just foggy headed. (such as i have a form of ADD). so i wonder if it's possible to bring your mind up to a similar state of conscienceness as when you're up and about. or even higher because of being attuned to meditation soley, nothing else.

tho unfortunately i'm sure not everyone would be interested, it would be nice to see ourselves. to have an inner vision of our place in time, in the great moving universe, and what our values are, and who we are, and what we are doing with our life. perhaps to come to some realization that it really does mean a lot to us to have some questions answered, questions we've been holding in the back of our minds for so long.

but it seems, to keep everything from going back to the wash of random sub-conscience theatre, we have to focus on the senses of the visual dreamworld.

or, is there no limit?

thanks for reading :]