You remind me of me.

I'm telling you though, your subconscious has a mind of it's own. You have to break into your dreams the way it feels comfortable.

i.e. My cousin when he was really young, had a subconscious which delivered him recurring nightmares that would cause his blankets to tighten around him, and huge lights would come and blind him, as if examining it...

Now his subconscious needed him to smash through the barrier, (so I theorize) as one night, he decided that if it happened, he would throw off the blankets and grab the lights and smash them. He did so, and has been in constant control of his dreams every since.

I think there is a barrier you hit with them... a barrier your own subconscious sets for you, that you have to beat. Something weak in you, that your brain knows will be the hardest, and working past it.

When you do so earlier in childhood, of course it will be easier, due to the naivete's about the world you carry, but as you go on throughout life, it can become increasingly difficult.

I have found this to be a pretty solid theory, and it also explains why my brain won&#39;t let me touch base... >_<

It wants me to stop smoking weed, and to beat anxiety/impatience/frustration...

Suggestion: Watch the movie "Waking Life" ... purely amazing movie.