Thread: Weird And Scary

This was my first time actually controlling my dreams since joining this forum, though not my first time having a moment of lucidity within a dream. In both cases, I also had a period of sleep paralysis prior to the lucidity. Have you had this? it has happened to me from time to time inthe past, but these dream experiments have coincided with 2 times very close together. If you've never had SP, it can be truly devastating. The only thing that saved me from terror the second time is that I recongized that I was in a state of SP and I think this is what caused the subsequent LD. Here's the weird thing: I had ten (Yes, TEN&#33 false awakenings in this dream. Here's what happened.

Had a mild instance of sleep paralysis first. Kept hearing explosions outside and voices outside my door. Couldn't move, maybe only from fear, but the sounds were not there even though I was partly conscious (not really LD, it is different)

I got out of bed and opened my bedroom door. all of a sudden I was in total pitch black. I thought I was awake and there had been a power outage, though it seemed strange that there was light shining under the door before I opened it. At the time, this did not seem as strange as it should have. Some things that I don't remember happened and then I was a room with people I did not recognize (where the living room should have been) a lot of meaningless things happened and then all of a sudden I started floating. (this is a common thing in my dreams and was a tip off that I was dreaming. people were laughing at me and I said, "You can't laugh at me...I'm in control here. They stopped laughin at me but kept staring. I think someone said something like, "Prove it!" I tried to show by flying away, but my head kept hitting the ceiling. Then I tried to fly right through a closed window. I hit it and it hurt.

Then I woke up thinking "I'm glad that's over. Got out of bed and Boom, pitch black again. I had another string of things I don't remember, then back in bed again. I got an earache and could hear my tinnitus, which made me think I really was awake since I have a problem in my ear right now, but I couldn't move. This is when I knew I was in sleep paralysys, which helped, but it was still really really painful experience, partly because of the physical pain of the earache being exagerated as well as a general sense of torment.

Finally, got out of bed and thought "So glad that really is over this time. Boom pitch black again. I turned on the light switch. It didn't work. I noticed that there was an L:ED shining on my computer and the clock was on, so it wasn't a power outage. I check a diferent light. Didn't work. Knew I was LD and thought "Maybe I will finally have a chance to really control my dreams." i closed my eyes and tried to make the l;ights come on. Nope. Then i tried to make beautiful women appear. Nope. Thehn I tried to make myself appear in a sunny valley. I saw a light at the end of the hallway and tried to walk toward it. It felt like I was partially paralysed and took a lot of energy out of me.

When I made it to the light, I suddenly woke up--except it was really just the same thing happenning again. I went through this many more times until I finally was floating in mid air in utter darkness saying (Come on, I am in charge here. I can control my dream.) I felt as if there was a force in the darkness that was playing games with me and not letting me have control. I went though another false awake and finally started having some power. I was showing off at a party and making things float around Jedi Style. I started giving people orders and saying, "You are my dream so you have to obey me." Some of them obeyed, but others just watched as though they were oblivious.

Then I woke up and was pretty sure it was for real, but I wasn't making that mistake again. I checked the clock, then rechecked it again three times...same number all times. Suddenly the heat came on in the house. This seemed a good sign. I was still scared to get up. I waited for the heat to go off. It did but came back on again within a minute. This is not normal and so I thought I might still be dreaming, even though I felt so normally conscious. I let myself fall asleep again because I felt so tired from this terrible nightmare. I will probably never know if I had really been awake the last time, but when i finally did get in a room with the lights working, I was so relieved.

I am now afraid to go to sleep. Can someone heklp me. I wasn't even trying to go lucid when this happened. I stopped experiments because of my first negative experience and I am starting to feel like I've opned Pandora's box or I'm in a bad Kevin Bacon movie (LOL but ***tting myself in fear). Please give advice