I... WAS.. SOOOO CLOSE LAST NIGHT...

I felt.. my body get paralyzed... i controlled my breathing and everything

and i couldnt get the visions clear enough.. and i couldnt get there ... SOO MANY times i felt my self drift off.. but i cam back a few seconds later... and i couldnt GET IT EXEACTLY...!!!!!!!!!!!!

i got sooo tired of waiting... and I TRIED SOOOOO HARD and rolled over on my side and said.. just FORGET it.. it was hard to move to.. and my body felt weak.. i knew i was close..

What am supposed to do???? i can get back to that state .. just please tell me what to do!