It seems the Fire is nearly out.

**Graysong** · 12-13-2007 03:49 AM

Hello all, it's been a while since my last post here, and, for that matter, my last LD. I will do my best to keep this to the point, perhaps to the appreciation of anyone who may have read my postings...

My first experience with Lucid Dreaming came at a young age, and since, I have always yearned, if only in the bottom of my heart, to have that feeling again.

These years later, a little program called Stumble randomly pointed me to this site. Tearing through the material, I was filled with a fearfully strong drive. I chose not to use any form of reality checking, and kept no form of Dream Journal.

I wish I could say that I was simply a natural, but I should think not to lie so blatantly. In retrospect, it was likely from that lovely Drive that I found success.

I went on, loving every dream, lucid or not (I am tempted to discourse on our usage of the term 'Lucid,' as it seems many have lost the full meaning) .

After a few nasty turns of fortune, of which I have explained in perhaps too great detail in previous postings, my dream recall and general dream Lucidity was shot. It seems that with these losses, I have also lost that precious drive.

This is my reason for coming back today; the fire is dwindling, and my experience may be the only thing keeping it burning at all. I fear that nothing may rekindle it to its previous glory. My longing for lucidity remains, but I feel so... burdened when I attempt any serious effort.

The rapidly shrinking scroll bar on my post tells me it is about time to wrap this up. I have gained so much from this site, and now I have come forward with the last thing I expected to fall short.

Has any soul here overcome this hardship? I have begun some rudimentary techniques, but it is a slow and uncertain process. It is bittersweet that I can now look upon the 'Newbie' section and feel envy.

Who might help me today?

**seeker28** · 12-13-2007 06:25 AM

If lucidity is truely important to you you will find a way. Firey excitement and passionate comitment are unnecessary. Steady perserverence and commitment are.

**Graysong** · 12-13-2007 11:04 PM

Just as a boat is unnecessary to cross a sea? I thank you for your input, but I fear that my challenge is not of most solved here; insight and recycled lectures matter less, and experience all the more.

You'll have to forgive me if I come off as a bit spiteful, as that is far from my intent. Once again, thank you for your time.

**blakkin** · 12-14-2007 05:53 AM

Well, if its the techniques that you are getting sick of, maybe you can just take a long break? People here say it works if you're having a dry spell. If you still want lucid dreams, then I would say that this is the case...

However, if this is not a dry spell, and you seriously have lost the DRIVE to LD, then I don't think there is any way to help. You shouldn't need to be convinced to want to LD, lucidity should be an incentive in itself. If you don't want it, then that's that, but it seems like just reflecting on your best lucid dreams would "light that fire" again.