Last night I tried to... I forget the word (WILD or something). I used the audio mp3 that was supposed to help with lucid dreaming or relaxing and had it set to repeat on my ipod. I laid on my back and tried to focus only on my breathing, trying to count to thirty, then not count, and go from there.

Here's what happened:

1. I laid on my back and started the mp3. All lights were off so I wouldn't be distracted and I had my eyes half open (I just kinda relaxed them without them being fully open or completely closed).

2. I did the breathing where you focus only on your breath and count each breath, trying to free your mind of clutter.

Here's where it got strange:

3. In terms of hypnotism, I can easily trance myself or self-hypnotize myself. The feeling is similar to what I've heard about this technique, with the feeling of your body being numb and very heavy like it's hard to move, but it's more of a deep relaxation. I started getting that feeling, first in my feet, then up my legs, and finally my entire body.

4. I then started to see everything go... I guess what would be described as "darker", in the sense that the edges of my peripheral vision started to get that hazy like edging to it, but it was a black hazy, so I was starting to only see like a tunnel in front of me.

5. Then I started to feel a bit sick, my breathing becoming not really harder, but it made it feel like I was trying to hyperventilate myself, so I slowed my breathing and tried to make it relaxed. Even though I knew I was feeling sick, I still didn't move and so I don't know if I was thinking about it and thus messed up or what.

Here's the more odd part:

6. Even though I was feeling sick, I continued to try and go through with it, not moving, not concentrating on anything, and not really thinking about anything.

7. The darkness started to close in more and more and more on my vision, until it was like I was seeing a pinpoint of light at the end of a very long tunnel.

8. At this point, it was odd... I can't really describe them, but before I started I thought that if I was able to control anything, I would want to go back to one of the dreams I had a while ago, so I thought of the basics of that dream (The location, the people, etc.) and oddly, a few images from the dream started popping up.

9. I didn't really think about it, and I only remember a few images that seem like when you close your eyes after looking at light, the image that remains when your eyes are closed, that was what most of them looked like for what I can remember.

10. It got really intense and I was only seeing these images pop up every now and then, and everything else was essentially pitch black, and I was still feeling a little sick. I tried to move out of it, cause I didn't know what was going on, but it was like I was being covered by a heavy blanket that kept me to the bed.


As soon as I tried to move and get up, everything started to go away and eventually I just kinda sat up. That's how I remember everything, although I don't recall what time I started and what time I ended, because right after I sat up I just kinda laid back down and went to sleep practically immediately... and had a few random dreams.....






If anything needs to be cleared I'll try to remember, these are just the things that I recall doing and seeing now that I think about it.