Thread: lucid dreaming has made me a nihilist in my waking life

sorry I didn't read all that but "Time by Pink Floyd" jumped out at me. congratulations on your exquisite taste in music, that's one of the best songs conceived by the human mind!

You sound pretty normal to me to be honest, just maybe a little depressed. I'm no psychiatrist, but you already said you're going to see one so you're on the right track.
As far as school goes, you and I were in a similar boat. You failed classes because you were in it for the wrong reasons. Go back, take introductory classes that interest you until you find what you want to pursue. School can be expensive, but you wouldn't be the first person to spend more than four years getting a degree.
You're just in a rut, and oversleeping, and dreaming is a side effect. The only advice I would give is to start exercising regularly, eating healthy (assuming you don't already), and talk to a psychiatrist.

Yeah, my all time favorite verse is in that song. I'll say it here. If I get it wrong I'm sorry, doing it from memory.

"you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking. Racing around, to come up behind you again. The sun is the same in a relative way but you're older. Shorter of breath, and one day closer to death."

Originally Posted by MrBeelzy

You sound pretty normal to me to be honest, just maybe a little depressed. I'm no psychiatrist, but you already said you're going to see one so you're on the right track.
As far as school goes, you and I were in a similar boat. You failed classes because you were in it for the wrong reasons. Go back, take introductory classes that interest you until you find what you want to pursue. School can be expensive, but you wouldn't be the first person to spend more than four years getting a degree.
You're just in a rut, and oversleeping, and dreaming is a side effect. The only advice I would give is to start exercising regularly, eating healthy (assuming you don't already), and talk to a psychiatrist.

Sorry for double post, this one happened while I was doing my last.

And that's something else about me, brought onto me of course because of lucid dreaming.

I don't care.

You said eating healthy and exercising regularly. I don't care about my health.

I spend more times in my dreams then I do in my waking life. My only goal in life is to maintain my current 'set and setting'

I realized I might have mentioned 'set and setting' and what that means is mindset and setting, it is something that psychonauts do before they go on a hallucinogenic trip. I have found that when I sleep somewhere else I always, always, get spontaneous sleep paralysis. (well five times in a row so far). And I know I've been doing this for going on four years but spontaneous sleep paralysis still freaks me out for an instant, and I hate being freaked out.

fuck yeah that's the best verse because it kicks in right after the kickass solo by none other than sir david gilmour! what other floyd songs do you like?

I think your tendency to change topics speaks more to your attention span that any kind of mental disorder.

I would be careful about getting psychiatrists involved unless your thoughts are really distressing to you, or preventing you from functioning in daily life. Just because some random girl tells you that you have a mental problem doesn't make it so. It sounds to me that she is not on the same philosophical level as you are, and further can't accept that people experience life differently. Those kind of people are the most dangerous, to be honest.

Anyway, good luck with your academic pursuits. Failing a few classes isn't anything that you can't recover from, especially now that you've identified what really interests you.

Originally Posted by Captain Sleepalot

I think your tendency to change topics speaks more to your attention span that any kind of mental disorder.

I would be careful about getting psychiatrists involved unless your thoughts are really distressing to you, or preventing you from functioning in daily life. Just because some random girl tells you that you have a mental problem doesn't make it so. It sounds to me that she is not on the same philosophical level as you are, and further can't accept that people experience life differently. Those kind of people are the most dangerous, to be honest.

Anyway, good luck with your academic pursuits. Failing a few classes isn't anything that you can't recover from, especially now that you've identified what really interests you.

I'd say you are right but I don't think I mentioned this.

My Grandfather was bipolar and suffered from severe post traumatic stress syndrome from WWII
My aunt is bipolar
My other aunt is bipolar/schizophrenic
My twin brother is bipolar/schizophrenic

This is all on my paternal side and there is a history of bipolar disorder in my family, I've never been to a shrink anyway and since I am a Native American living in Canada it is entirely free of charge... I have nothing to lose by doing it.

Wow Garlic, you described me in a nutshell. We should talk lol. My life is basically my dreams - I don't really have a social life. I get depressed when I don't remember my dreams. I haven't started college as of yet and I have a full time job. I've been missing days at work as well - but that's mainly due to mono which I got in August. No one in my family suffers from a mental disorder, luckily. And I am trying to eat healthy and exercise more, but not having a social life doesn't seem to make it worthwhile sometimes.

Don't pay attention to that girl... unless your thoughts are seriously disrupting how you interact with others and your ability to simply do things, then I think there's little reason to see a shrink.

Your focus on dreaming however, could be revealing a simple disappointment with waking reality. From your perception, you have grown bored and dispirited with the way reality is, and that the dream world is simply more exciting and interesting. But even your attitude in your dreams is also revealing. You gain control simply to 'go with the flow', meaning you have little interest in changing your situation, a mentality you have made clear in your posts. But a lot of this stems from just that. You are bored because you are stuck in a very convenient situation, and you don't want to change it. As for you failing college, it's more of a case of picking the wrong subjects. To be honest, one should really only go to college if one has an idea of what one wishes to do after college, or at least an interest in continuing study in a subject or two. I am the latter... little idea of what to do after university/college, but still has an interest to continue study. In a way, it is simply postponing the time when I have to make a decision, but by giving myself more time, I get to think more on the issue.

Overall, from my perspective, you may simply have a short-attention span, a boredom with 'normality' and simply wishes to maintain the convenient situation you are in. But, if you try to at least change one aspect of your situation, you might find things might get more interesting, whether for better or for worse.