Sorry, but due to the fact you can't take time to even capitalize your I's, and your use of the word 'fuck' to ask for some help, I have no choice but to not believe a word you're saying. Sure, it could happen, but I'm a very cynical person when it comes to silly teenages named MISANTHROPE666 telling about their "oh so horrible experience" on a forum for dreaming. You sound like some kid jumping on the depression bandwagon.